lost and alone

Im tired of feeling like this..cant rember the last time i was truly happy..seems as if shit keeps goin sideways no matter how hard i try...i feel like im about to explode...this depression keeps building...the only time i smile is when im too fucking high and drunk to think bout my sad life

This is not how i pictured my life...high outta mind mosta the time, stressing bout  how evrything keeps falling apart...my blood flows thick with pain...my soul empty and cold...mind bursting at the seams with all these thoughts and questions
As i sit here alone in my own space....i ask myself if this the kinda life im gona live till i die...lost and alone with no place to call home...