Blueberry Fucking Pancakes

What did you want me to say,
that I was hurt
or that I was disappointed?

why bother with words,
when actions speak louder, right?
the silence, was it deafening?

tears would have fallen
yet I forced them into the abyss
man, my throat hurt from choking them down

that's what I remember,
all the pain that could not find its way out
all the pain I would not give you