SOUL Soldier

Wading...
wading through the deep of me...
as I turn the lights of my soul on bright

High beams are now nessesary...
so I finally get this shit right...

Moving slow...following my subliminal signs
Listening to my internal radar...
SO I dont loose...
the rest of my mind

Got life lessons
spinning on rewind

as the harshness of my journey
forces me to take my time

As I just keep moving
on this recon mission

I fortify my spiritual weapons
and plant myself in position

To shoot to kill
anything coming out of the dark
right between the eyes
or... right in the heart.

Too painful....my overall
journey has been
as I drifted into depression
I lost myself in my own skin

Yet...I cried out
from my pit of dispair...
Knowing my anscestors were near
even though I couldnt see them there

Thats when a small bright light
came pouring out of my soul
telling me to just keep moving
promising to never let me go...

So through the Garden of My Beast
I crept...yes... I made my way
though wounded as I was...
soul faint  and fading away.....

As I passed all my previous sins...
self deceptions... and lies...
dark as night....

Something kept saying....
"Soldier.... keep moving toward the light!"

I saw my demons clear manifest
all around me...
as I waded through my pain...
I fought to keep them
from breeding inside me

Ashamed of where I'd been
but glad for how far I'd come

I decided... My soul would survive
I decided... I would NOT come undone

In that moment my tormentors screamed
as they burned and moved out
of my way....
I now know...I am a true SOUL-dier
Making it through my madness
Allowing my soul to stand...
for yet ...another day

For it is a daily battle
that I strive to make it through
I have learned to be strong
for myself...
I have learned to my own self
I must be true