I will fight

Walking down to court
I can feel his face staring at me
I want to run I want to hide
But I need to stay and fight
He hurt me I thought I got rid of him
Now he's back
He came in my house and waited the day he came back
He watched me from the minute I saw him
I should have told him to go
But I was stupid and the chains on my heart broke
and I couldn't keep them locked
I let him touch me
I let him trick me
I let him kiss me
I let him love me
My head screamed for him to stop
But my heart longed for his touch
I knew it was wrong so I hurt him
I pushed I shoved
But I as so weak
He was stronger than me
I wish that never happened
Walking to court I knew I could fix it I could end all of my pain
So I walked not looking at him
I testified against him
I won
I should be happy
I should not be scared
But I am
I lay awake at night not knowing if I'm safe anymore
He is gone for for along time
Will he remember be
Will he look for me
Will he come back for more
Will I get hurt again
I'm scared
But for know I will fight for everything
I'm not weak I am strong and I will win