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Where Lucifer Masturbates
As despondent as I am
I stay for you
brooding, funny
cut you in two wit
I'm not reading much lately
though my mind still finds
it's way to your pages
gleaning your intellect
seeking it's essence
I'm lost lately
no desire to write, read
feeling adrift in an ocean
that seeks to drown me
though I'm treading water
trying to stay on the surface of things
lest I sink to the bottom
where the depths of what's bothering me linger
I dare not dwell here
where Lucifer masturbates
commanding my thoughts and actions
as if I were but a mere marionette
back to you the real devil
in this story with eyes that
swallow me whole
lips so devilishly biting
that I will never kiss
I've played the whore for you
not that you would ever take notice
my intellect not stimulating
just like this poem
a dick at half mast
that I'm furiously trying
to turn into something
that isn't shit
like the stains
that smear my mind at present
I'm consumed by an empty
hollow void at the moment
come from being shot up with drugs
before my surgery and the dope pills that followed
dear Lucifer my saint I just wanted you to know
amongst all this bullshit
the beauty, truth and fighter in you
has kept me coming and I'm not leaving
even if part of you wished I would
I stay for you
brooding, funny
cut you in two wit
I'm not reading much lately
though my mind still finds
it's way to your pages
gleaning your intellect
seeking it's essence
I'm lost lately
no desire to write, read
feeling adrift in an ocean
that seeks to drown me
though I'm treading water
trying to stay on the surface of things
lest I sink to the bottom
where the depths of what's bothering me linger
I dare not dwell here
where Lucifer masturbates
commanding my thoughts and actions
as if I were but a mere marionette
back to you the real devil
in this story with eyes that
swallow me whole
lips so devilishly biting
that I will never kiss
I've played the whore for you
not that you would ever take notice
my intellect not stimulating
just like this poem
a dick at half mast
that I'm furiously trying
to turn into something
that isn't shit
like the stains
that smear my mind at present
I'm consumed by an empty
hollow void at the moment
come from being shot up with drugs
before my surgery and the dope pills that followed
dear Lucifer my saint I just wanted you to know
amongst all this bullshit
the beauty, truth and fighter in you
has kept me coming and I'm not leaving
even if part of you wished I would
Published 15th Feb 2014
| Edited 16th Feb 2014
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15th Feb 2014 11:13pm
Thank you for having the courage to come back home to us.
Intense and eye opening write
xx
Intense and eye opening write
xx
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Anonymous
16th Feb 2014 00:29am
Brenda, you are a survivor and that's where your strength is at. A beautiful heartfelt and poignant poem. It's good to see you write again and to show us real can be fractured with all it's beauty.
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Anonymous
16th Feb 2014 00:46am
Welcome Back! I must say you have come back just as beautiful as always. Sad write but so much raw emotion. Fight on! Xo :)
16th Feb 2014 1:46am
A heartfelt, special write here Miss Crim. Pls don't ever believe that what you do doesn't stimulate. Regardless of how you feel. You words are amongst my favourites because they both soothe and kick. Simultaneously at times. Lol. I can only connect with deeply honest writes. Lovely to have you in the halls again Lady Crim. You've been missed. xo
16th Feb 2014 1:47am
TS you have a heart of gold to see through this and get it thank you :) much love Crim
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16th Feb 2014 6:16pm
Nothing you've EVER written has been anything short of brilliant n deeply involving, searing at the soul, so stop the slf degradation lady or I'll be forced to spank your booty! :)
16th Feb 2014 6:46pm
thank you Poe for the beautiful soul touching comment though I'd love for you to spank me ;) much love Crim
16th Feb 2014 7:32pm
Devils eyes feather at your pages
Lusting at every word as you face the floor
Turning ink to red for his sinful pleasure
Flipping your pages to bend the knee of his dirty whore.
Powerful write, hurting of neglect. Hurting more because you with eyes wide open choice to keep walking for it knowing the end game.
Lusting at every word as you face the floor
Turning ink to red for his sinful pleasure
Flipping your pages to bend the knee of his dirty whore.
Powerful write, hurting of neglect. Hurting more because you with eyes wide open choice to keep walking for it knowing the end game.
16th Feb 2014 8:18pm
Thank you for your poem comment Soul they always touch me.. I apologize for the neglect.. much love Crim
17th Feb 2014 00:19am
I don't know how I'm just now being pleasured by this latest poem by you, Ms.Crim, please excuse my tardiness... This is brilliantly crafted emotions. Raw and real... deserving much praise. Thank you for sharing this :)That theme and title is fiercely wild.
18th Feb 2014 8:44pm
thank you beautiful Angel you're always right on time to put a big smile on my face :) much love Crim
17th Feb 2014 5:21am
Beautiful Brenda, your words, your insight and your strength are so missed here.
the love and pain you feel, bleeds from this, it screams and it is heard.
the love and pain you feel, bleeds from this, it screams and it is heard.
18th Feb 2014 8:45pm
Mia lovely one I feel like you put your arms around me and embraced my heart with your soothing words thank you beautiful lady :) much love Brenda
Anonymous
17th Feb 2014 12:30pm
lovely write. Strong and passionate even in the depths of sadness
fight on, Crim
peace and love,
Miki
fight on, Crim
peace and love,
Miki
18th Feb 2014 8:47pm
18th Feb 2014 1:50am
Girl... this is some real- to life stuff here!
Powerful and moving heartfelt and amazing.... jsut like you!
Fire
Powerful and moving heartfelt and amazing.... jsut like you!
Fire
18th Feb 2014 8:47pm
thank you beautiful Fire I always love it when you visit my pages :) much love Crim
that was a naked heart write , from the bottom , no holds barred .. i got so much love for this piece ...ur thoughts are so unbelievably dark and gloomy but at the same time fascinating and cherishing too .. ive missed ur writes, honestly i did glad ur back at it .... wow !!
keep rolling
cyanide...
keep rolling
cyanide...
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19th Feb 2014 8:27pm
Intellect comes in many forms, it doesn't have to be academic to be intellect.
Great expression Crim. You are worth more than you give yourself credit for. Keep smiling. :)
Great expression Crim. You are worth more than you give yourself credit for. Keep smiling. :)
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