In The End

In the end, When everyone forgets my name
In the end, When everyone forgets my face
In the end, When my legacy is nothing but a memory
In the end, When all the scars heal and fade away

Will I be dead and buried, Without a breath or hope inside
Or will I be alive and well, Buried beneath the weight of my choices
Because I feel I’m going insane, With no one to call me sane
I feel my hands shaking evermore, With my demons calling my name

Every single day that I found my way out of my hell
I knew I would find my way back home to the flames
Every single day that I found myself smiling
I knew I would find the numb that chills my soul

A sadness overwhelms me, An anger towards myself with no passion fueling me
A hatred, A bitterness, A thousand pins and needles pressuring me to change who I am
If only I knew how, If only I knew the way, If only I knew who I truly am inside
Am I destined to remain here forever, Buried beneath the weight of my mistakes

A failure, A sinner, A traitor, A patriot with my heart in all the wrong places
Cast out, Cast down, Cast up, Cast in glass to forever remember my past
Every second spent alive is a second I spend dead, My heart beats but no breath escapes
So many have gotten so close, And so many have left, Stay away and spare yourself

I will gladly remain alone, With the knowledge of all that I have learned
I will gladly remain alone, With the contentment of knowing I could never harm another
I will gladly remain alone, With the demons inside my mind and inside my heart
I will gladly remain alone, With the pleasure of being my own darkest nightmare