fancy words cant always explain

I'm laying here  
Eyes welling with tears  
No easy explination  
Just  
A damaged heart aching  
Uneasily  
 
Those around me lay peacefully sleeping  
Whilst I lay dead  
But yet  
Still managing to breathe  
And able to feel  
Every ounce of pain  
Upon my shoulders  
 
Fancy words can't always explain  
How a heart  
Got into such distress  
Leaving it stuck feeling dead  
How a soul became so lost  
And how I became  
Well 'THIS'  
 
Fancy words can't always explain  
What I want to say  
But yet again neither  
...Can my mind, heart or voice