Hopeless Romantic

I feel rubbish
because of love.
My love was raw, unrelenting
and I dove in it head over heels.
But then i saw her with him and
for that moment those few seconds
I went numb then
My love collapsed
demolishing everything I had know
everything that was real then
left me stranded.

What is wrong with me?
Am I so undesirable? unlovable?
Can someone remove this faulty signal off me
And swap it with a kiss. please?
Do I ask for too much?
I want someone to embrace
Is that too much to ask?

I want raw, unrelenting love.
The real deal.
No work of prose,novel,short story
or 123 minutes of "The Notebook" could touch.
Left alone, drowning in thoughts,my tears
Honestly is it really too much to ask
to just be loved?