To answer your questions...

To answer your questions.
No I was not insane.
My decision had nothing to do with you.
Yes I was traumatized but aren't we all?
You just chose to live with it while I didn't.
I suppose you can call me a fool now since you were to afraid to say it while I was breathing.
Truthfully I'm not one hundred percent sure why I did it.
Maybe it was to hurt you.
Maybe it was just to humor myself.
Like I said I wasn't sure.
Honestly the real fool here is you though.
I'm smart enough to realize that this wasn't making me happy so I stopped before it made me hurt someone else.
And how do I know that you might ask?
Well mother dearest because you let it hurt me.