As I lay here.

As I lay here, I don't understand
Why don't I make the grades?
I'm obviously smart enough.

Things start to unwind,
then I burst. As the tears trickle, 
I decide to do better.

As I lay here, I don't understand
Why doesn't he love me?
I'm obviously beautiful enough.

Things get real
and I relize,
As the tears pour,
I decide to throw myself at him.

As I lay here, I don't understand
Why don't these things work?
I'm obviously not trying hard enough.

 Things get worse,
and I understand.
As the tears drown out my pounding heart
I decide to give up on everything.

As I lay here, I understand
That may not be the right choice
I will give it one more week.

Things only get better
I am free.
No more tears,
they have been wiped.
I have been the best I could be.

As I lay here, I understand
he doesn't love me.
Obviously I saw he wasn't as perfect as I thought.

Things worked out perfectly.
Someone actually loved me all along.
What tears?
If any he would wipe them away.

As I sit here, I understand
Doing my homework is simple
And obviously makes everyone happy.

Things will be better
It will be straight A's from here.
The boy who loves me will hold me tight.

As I lay here, I am finally happy.