Never Thought

I never thought I'd feel this way
I'm broken down inside
I can't even live with myself
I always thought I'd make it through
That I'd be strong
But now, I never thought I'd let myself
Get this bad
I feel numb
It's like I'm frozen in time
I'm just wasting away
I'm no longer a person
I'm just a shell with no soul
I try to fight what goes on in my head
But its getting hard
And I'm losing my god damn mind
Now I just sit here staring at my life
Paralyzed
Horrified at the person
I have become