ill give you my heart (literaly) a poem for J

If you can't get better then what do I live for
If you're not here or coming home
What can I become?
I have love for you that no one can take
It makes them commit suicide
Please even I've thought about it
My dearest love
I will love you until you leave this place
Twisted fate
All I wanted was someone to love me
Say I was pretty
And now I found a man
I want to spend the rest of my life with
And he lays here dying
I scream to the clouds
Why!!!! Why!!!!
Why do you want my life to be miserable?
I want happiness
To show me that it’s not fake
When we don't talk about it
I don't think about it
How you have cancer
How you have this heart disease
I'm fine but you're not and I’m scared
Like you're going to be ripped from my hands at any moment
I just want to know you're okay
Not knowing you're not makes me so depressed
But when I think of you holding me
It brings butterflies
I will love you until your heart stops beating
And I hope you never forget
That I did this for you
Now all that’s left is for to come where I am
Up in heaven I sit
Waiting for my love to return back to me
please dont be mad
i could cure your cancer
but my heart lives on for you
stop and feel my heartbeat where yours
once was