"$hit Happenz"

in the everyday life of tha b.e.d pka larry-it's alwayz same shit different day for me-i'm to the point in my life i don't give a fuck 'bout shit-the day my soul checks outta it's residence i look forward to it-at least i'll no longer have to be faced with all this anxiety-all this bullshit is driving me beyond fucking crazy-lord forgive me,please give me a sign whut will it be for i-i think of my past and all the shit i done i just sit and ask myself what was i thinkin why?-it feels like i got 300 pounds of pressure on my brain-i think i am for sure without a doubt goin' insane-this shit iz plenty enuff to drive me to suicide-i know i can't go that route or my soul with surely die-i been losin' family and friends all the days of my life-they either turned they backs on me or died-i have seen and gained the knowledge that we are nothing in the world-when god comes a callin' there ain't no way around it ya ass is leavin' this world-day in day out all in my mind that comes about-i pray constantly and think when my turns gonna be for my sorry ass to check out-theres just 3 words for that question-only god knows, i remember that lesson-life is like a rubiks cube-one way or another the winner does lose-all the materialistic things you ever will have-don't mean shit when they zip your ass up in a body bag-oh life and all it's wonderous possibilities-some are born rich most are born into poverty-only the meek shall inherit the earth or the world of god-the athiests and sinners get struck down by god's holy rod-i wished and wished for a rich life of lots of money-later on down tha road i realized that shit don't mean nuthin' at all to me-all i care about is that i make it into heaven-see god,all my loved ones i've known men,women and children-if god see's fit to grant me some riches so be it-if not than so be it,he'll give me what it is he sees fit-i use to be so very afraid of death and what was after- all these years of reading gods word and prayin' i look forward to tha life after-losin' money don't mean shit compared to losin' a friend-but regardless of anything life goes on as to someday it will end-everybody has some demons he or she will fight all through their life-addictions to ill fated items cause a loss in life-i continue to pray for his majesty to grant me the strength to fight off my demons-i knocked on the door and the lord answered there are many excuses as well as reasons-why is it we continue to follow in the direction of wickedness-why is it so many of us suffer in our bitterness-i know everything happens for a reason and that's the way it iz-i continue to pray to thy lord,life....it iz whut it iz,you don't have to agree but............"$hit happenz!!!!!!