"Flippin' off the wall"

Every damn day it's the same old shit-all i have that's of use is this .45 that's it-however, every now and then i go to thinkin' of all the funn of my past-drinkin' with the homiez smokin' weed with my ex bitch, who in fact had a great ass-that was then,this is now-don't have any homiez,don't have any bitchez,tadow-now i just sit with this heata fuckin' around-spin the glock,watchin' it go round and round-what's a cracka like myself gonna do,my mind is blank-all my misery and hardships,i have myself to thank-i did this to me,i sure as fuck ain't gonna blame just anybody-i made all those bad choices,just look at me-now ya all know how i can speak on fantasy and reality-right now i feel like mixin' it up,that's right,this is how it's gonna be-just this morning i awoke from a weird ass dream-it involved my ex wife,it was freaky,oh god please wake me is all i could scream-and when i did awaken from that god forsaken dream,i had a hard ass cock-as quickly as i had that hard ass cock-i made that hard ass cock drop-thank god it was only a dream and i know that,so it may seem-all because of these damn trazadones,i pop nightly to help me sleep-yes, they do help me sleep without a doubt,oh so deep-i have written a novel on my so called life-journals and poetry combined that i've been writin' since 1995-i went from being an anti christ thug-to a christian ex thug with nuthin' in my heart but love-during all these hard times and struggles i see-to lose faith,to get lost is so very easy-my lord,my god removes the fear from me-i'm not fearing anything,nothing now but my g.o.d-if he ready for me to go,i'll be leaving-no more pain,hardships,no more weeping-now i do wonder that when i die,will tears come to your eyez-will you forgive me for my disrespect and my lies?-i feel my heartbeat slowing down-once i had a smile now it's a frown-heart failure was my cause of death-i saw god even before i took my last breath-i lived a life of depression,a life of sin-so,from me take heed to this lesson-your comin' home there's blood on the walls-charles manson and i made house calls-if ya come in alone,watch what ya do-chances are me and charlie will kill you-can you hear us in the darkness-blood and guts what a fuckin' mess-we'll summon you to wake from the dead-as your ass lies bleeding,murdered in your bed-the sweetest dreams are all in your mind-you ain't gonna wake when charlie creeps from behind-your execution halt your fuckin' breath-helter skelter it's time for your fucking death-i don't care what people think or say about me-i just don't giva fuck "only god can judge me"-i need some weed,i need some lsd-i need some shrooms,what about some extacy-get real high,start some trippin'-drop some extacy and i'll be flippin'-the green shit smells and taste great-the lsd and shrooms mind fuck ya so ya can't masturbate-ya dick won't get hard it'll be soft-extacy will blow your fuckin' top off-this is not my shotgun shack,i'm all alone i don't have a wife,and you may ask yourself "well,how did i get here?,and you may ask yourself,where does this highway go?,and you may ask yourself,am i right? am i wrong? and you may tell yourself,my god what have i done? sexual fanatic,sexual pervert-call me what ya want i take it as a flirt-i eat pussy like it's the last supper-lick it,then bite it make the bitch suffer-i think i'm really dead,back from the grave-here to start chaos,here to just misbehave-i assassinated jfk and many others-i fucked many bitches without using rubbers-i don't care about aids and death-my birth is my sin,so i have no regrets-i know one day i'll be deceased-until then i'm gonna give all bitches my std's-now i say let's begin-come into the devil'z play pen-everything evil i do,i don't feel the least bitter-i got the mind of adolf hitler-i seen the many fine bitches my brothers had-stare at them,masturbate,wantin' them ho'z all so bad-when i was born,i was a bad seed-everybody cut me down,now i'm making them bleed-i got voices,so many fuckin' voices in my head-i'm sick of all this damn shit,why isn't the ocean red?-i'm such a bastard,a fucking dick-yes i'm so so so sick-i like to wear womens panties,i love the way they feel-i'm not a fruity ass,with all i do and say i'm for real-my suicyco wayz are unstoppable-i'm all so very untouchable-why oh why,why are these fuckin' dicks-messin with me? don't they know i'm a psychotic lunatic with a hard dick-they bitch is with me,i got my prick in her 3 inch fuckin' greasy slit-i'm so sick and perverted-i think the whole world should be alerted-that a sick fuck like myself is runnin' around loose-i pull out a straw and slurp out a bitchez pussy juice-as it flows continuously-so pretty,so steady,so fuck me-i wanna be good and follow god-but this world is depressing and pissing me off-why is my brain aching-it feels like it's baking-damn my head,damn my prick-i need a razor so i can slit the main vein in my dick-my mind is playin' tricks-i'm sick as shit-i throw hella fits-i love to laugh at funerals and other sad events-don't ya think i'm twisted and fuckin' bent-i know i'm lazy,i know i'm crazy,i know you don't love me-that's why i cannot have any babies-my sperm are d.o.a-from masturbating all day everyday-time after time-everything that i try-can't do nothing at all-everywhere i walk nowhere to travel-i'm losing my way-i'm crying everyday-i was giving up then you walked into my life-i never knew anything about love-and the world i know-lovers come and go-talk like you do-saying dreams come true-and you made me feel-just like a man should feel-ever since you walked into my life-all i ever wanted was to feel so strong inside-anything you ask of me-i'll do anything for it-since you walked into my life-into my life-i back up everything i say-step up if ya wanna play-i'll do the ol' 1,2,3,4-and watchya bloody body hit da floor-so,if ya wanna dance with a devil-i got ya grave dug out and tha shits level-shit use to come in easy squirts-but lately when i poo it hurts-to take a dump is such a painful idea-that now i pray for diarreah-i'm sitting here thinking of past girls i've dated-this does not include the ho'z i hated-i think about .......... and our first kiss-it set's my memory a bliss-life turns in many different wayz-love is something that never strayz-and about all that,i have nothing more to say!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!