"True feelings"

Some are ashamed to bare feelings
I am not ashamed
For if i keep these feelings within me
They will kill me.
Forced to move out on my own at 16
Step mother hates me,dad pushed away from me
Always felt like nobody cared for or about me.
Point blank what it is.
Is my past.
I done so many wrong things
And said so many wrong things.
Nobody trust me,Nobody.
Darkness is within everyone
Darkness is part of life
Darkness is..........
I could have been anything in this life
Instead i chose destruction.
I have words built up inside........
"I'm sorry dad,for everything.All the lies,all the craziness.I'm not angry at you dad.I don't blame you for things not going my way.I need you to forgive me,dad. I need that from you. I'd like to earn your trust again dad. I Love you,DAD!!!