Have you ever...

Have you ever felt so
desperate  for answers
that it took everything in you
not to stop...

A total stranger...
and ask them...

What the hell this thing
called life is all about

Hoping insanely that
there may be some savant
level of wisdom spoken
that will allow the curse
of misunderstood lives
to be broken...

Have you ever felt like...

The scenery and circumstance
of misappropriated emotion
and chance...have created
an avalanche of mismanaged
madness in your life...

I have...
Infact  I feel it now...
as anxiety claws it's way
through the thin layer of my skin
feeling more like multiple bee stings...

and yet...
People call this reality...
If this is the case...
then I guess I vote for the padded cell
any day...
Cause Reality Bites...
and not those small dainty
tea and crumpet type bites
Life Bites like
A  Rockweiller Or A Pit Bull
that hasn't eaten in 2 weeks...
sniffing out meat...
Devouring the flesh of my Sanity
Leaving my bones...
Flayed and bare ....

Leaving my existence enflamed....
In need of soothing...
Leaving my soul...
In need of proving ....it's resilience

Yet sadly enough...
last time I checked..
My DNA has yet to be combined
with rubber...so my bounce-back
Capabilities are fucking lacking...

As my exterior shell...
Keeps right on cracking...
Till I am reduced to
A Naked Warrior...
So tell me
How can I fight with no armor

Tell me...
Have you ever...
Felt this way?