Consumed by my pain

Laying here with tears rolling down my face with an endless feeling of unassured emptiness.  Praying I'll just fall a sleep and peacefully not wake up to see the morning light. Loathing how everyone indicates everything will be alright but their life isn't effected by my grief. Ashamed to have been so abundantly naive. My world has came crashing down on top of me. Trying to be optimistic but smothered by my disgust of how the outcome of my foolish choices will effect my life endlessly. My chances of happiness demolished in every thought of realization of what has came to be. I am consumed by my depression it has swallowed me whole..