How wrong was I?

So now I'm not your defender.
Look i Just give in.
I'll  break down your door;
If you won't let me in.
I said it over;
and over again.
I expected this to happen,
But i had no plan.
I thought i'd be okay,
I thought i'd be fine.
I Thought if you were to break my heart,
It would heal in time.
I didn't seek perfection;
just wanted something new.
I was cold and lonely. Beaten up and abused.
The only thing I thought I could count on was you.

How wrong was I? I'm not fighting back this time. No; I'll just let it go. Won't beg,
or drown in my sorrow.
Cause If there's nothing I can do...
I can try to stay true.
Even If I don't have a clue If i'll ever be the same.
Well you'll have to see how much I'll change.


They figured now I'll just send her,
Up to her room.
And now I am stuck here;
I don't know what i'm to do.
Can't call you a liar;
Can't call you a cheat.
But whatever it is you've done to me,
has stopped my heart's  form its normal beat.
So i guess in the end it's just as bad,
maybe worse, I probably should get mad.
But how could I stay mad at you?
When in the end I'm still into you?

Give me attention?
I'm needing it now.
I hope you're better off.
With your new crowd.
I hope she's better;
than me; your last.
I hope thing's will be better;
I hope this time it'll last.
Still hope your heart ends up as fragile;
as broken glass.
One day you might actually care;
you'll find someone like yourself who won't be there;
and then you'll see all the shit you do to me.
Get a taste of your own medicine;
a shot of your own drug.
If your that high on misery;
Then I guess I've won.

How wrong was I? To believe your lies? 'i'm happy to be with you'; 'i won't turn around', 'you don't have to worry', 'I'm won't be leaving now.'
But if there's nothing I can do...
I'll have to cope with missing you.
Because there's nothing I can say or do;
to make you feel the way you used to.
There's nothing I can say or do to make you feel towards me;
I the way I feel towards you.
I can't make you love me;
In the narcissistic way that you love you.
There's nothing I can do.
How wrong was I; to fall in love with you?