My School System

So fucking moronic
I can't do the simplest of task
I deserve my C's
My average intelligence
Not sharp but dull
Smart enough to get by
Which is probably why the teachers
Look the other way when I struggle
But too stupid to keep up with homework
Too tired and depressed 
Too worried about the dark to focus on the light

My friends are starting to notice
That I am not as smart as I may appear
Will they leave me? 
Once they realize that I am 
Nothing more than damaged goods
Nothing but another person
The only thing special about me
Should be my classes

Ever since my Mom passed
School seemed so small in the scheme of things
Then, I just got left behind
To far away from the rest of them 

I am struggling to keep my head above water
While all the life guards stand on the beach
And carry on as normal 
As if I wasn't suffocating 
As if I wasn't crying for help 
With the little air I could grasp
As if I wasn't even there