The Many Ifs

If
I had taken
The road away
from your doorsteps
and try to find my own Eden
would
I have been
Contented, happy
and not miss the fun we
did have together for a while

If
Love was
A promise you
Never made or meant
Would I have stayed that long
Would
You have
cared If I
had walked away
And never returned to say
The sad final goodbye
Forget the betrayal
Would I have
Healed
Well

Or
Would I still be a mess as I am now;
Or faded away, an angel on the snow

(An experiment.)