Submissions by spectralfeline (vharlin)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
"I don't like my mind right now, stacking up problems that are so unnecessary. Wish that I could slow things down; I want to let go right now, but I find there's comfort in the panic. And I drive myself crazy, thinking everything's about me."
SELF POEM
Published
23rd Oct 2024 8:00am
23rd Oct 2024 8:00am
lovebomb
discordance, dissonance, static that ripples echoes across the expanse of a fractured mind.
how to breach, broach, subjects that had once been open tomes; now locked tight.
s̷̪͊t̶̢͗ḯ̵̼c̶̩̑k̶̼̉y̴̭͝ ̶̯̌w̵͇͠ê̸̟t̶̺́ ̴̈ͅí̶̡c̴͙̋h̸̡͌ȍ̶̦r̷͖̊...
how to breach, broach, subjects that had once been open tomes; now locked tight.
s̷̪͊t̶̢͗ḯ̵̼c̶̩̑k̶̼̉y̴̭͝ ̶̯̌w̵͇͠ê̸̟t̶̺́ ̴̈ͅí̶̡c̴͙̋h̸̡͌ȍ̶̦r̷͖̊...
#LifeStruggles
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SELF POEM
Published
10th Jul 2023 6:26am
10th Jul 2023 6:26am
perspective
oh, the bile spewed by a lamb with no limb to stand.
it thinks itself a wolf with jelly fangs, bark but incapable of bite.
ẏ̵̡͓̤̬̝̜̼̟̈́͗̓̑̈́͒̈̏̈͘͘͠ͅo̴̡̧̨̺̬͚̳̥͍͉̯͔̩͌̆̓̈́̐̓̑͋̂ư̷̘͇͖͇̐͊͑̀̉̿̅...
it thinks itself a wolf with jelly fangs, bark but incapable of bite.
ẏ̵̡͓̤̬̝̜̼̟̈́͗̓̑̈́͒̈̏̈͘͘͠ͅo̴̡̧̨̺̬͚̳̥͍͉̯͔̩͌̆̓̈́̐̓̑͋̂ư̷̘͇͖͇̐͊͑̀̉̿̅...
#SelfReflection
#suffering
#sadness #mother
#sadness #mother
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
15th Jun 2023 00:18am
15th Jun 2023 00:18am
little mother
it was scant morning when i felt your loss jostle me from my slumber
to rip through me like serrated teeth to the point of breathlessness.
C̴̍̄Ŕ̸̈Y̶͒̕,̸͒̚ ̷͊͑C̴͒́R̵͑̿Ỳ̸̿ ̵TEARS ̷͗̓T̸̂͠H̸̿̚A̸̾̕T̷̅͝ ̴̅͒A̵͋REN'T ̓M̸̽̓E̷͊͘Ä̴̚Ṅ̵͗T̶̒͘ ̸̕͝F̴OR...
to rip through me like serrated teeth to the point of breathlessness.
C̴̍̄Ŕ̸̈Y̶͒̕,̸͒̚ ̷͊͑C̴͒́R̵͑̿Ỳ̸̿ ̵TEARS ̷͗̓T̸̂͠H̸̿̚A̸̾̕T̷̅͝ ̴̅͒A̵͋REN'T ̓M̸̽̓E̷͊͘Ä̴̚Ṅ̵͗T̶̒͘ ̸̕͝F̴OR...
#grief
#mother
#death
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LOVE POEM
Published
10th May 2023 6:47am
10th May 2023 6:47am
nas'falon pt.3
there will never be enough words to accurately describe just what we have found - but i will give it my all with this verse.
you came into my life during a time when i thought i'd taken my final bow; helping me climb back from the abyss and showed me life anew. with a steadfast smile, you have cradled my demons, validated my fears and have loved me as i come and not for something i could never be.
like the sun, you have brought light and warmth to an otherwise dismal existence - casting away the shadows that once plagued my very bones and help my petals blossom. with...
you came into my life during a time when i thought i'd taken my final bow; helping me climb back from the abyss and showed me life anew. with a steadfast smile, you have cradled my demons, validated my fears and have loved me as i come and not for something i could never be.
like the sun, you have brought light and warmth to an otherwise dismal existence - casting away the shadows that once plagued my very bones and help my petals blossom. with...
#love
#husband
#marriage
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SELF POEM
Published
11th Mar 2020 9:50pm
11th Mar 2020 9:50pm
your face
it has become a topic of thought, i ask myself
do you know that your face, it is also mine?
and how.. oh how i desperately wish for the mirror
the one that clutches to ....
a ghost of your smile, to s̷̼̔͑̀͌̍̄͗̇̀̀͒͝ ̴̢̖̣͈͉̬̠͓͓̝̭̜̑̓̾̽̀͝͝ṕ̸̡͚̼͉...
do you know that your face, it is also mine?
and how.. oh how i desperately wish for the mirror
the one that clutches to ....
a ghost of your smile, to s̷̼̔͑̀͌̍̄͗̇̀̀͒͝ ̴̢̖̣͈͉̬̠͓͓̝̭̜̑̓̾̽̀͝͝ṕ̸̡͚̼͉...
#anxiety
#mother
#abuse #PTSD
#abuse #PTSD
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LOVE POEM
Published
1st Mar 2020 11:28pm
1st Mar 2020 11:28pm
call of the abyss
i see how it could be, oh so easy it could be
to finally answer the query, the curiosity ...
to finally answer the query, the curiosity ...
#mother
#abuse
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LOVE POEM
Published
20th Feb 2020 11:53am
20th Feb 2020 11:53am
wings
i can no longer abide the selfish nature which dictates your heart,
an excuse to stay mired in misery, content in the harrowing discourse and you..
you're blissfully unaware of your barbed actions, every word pierces my already...
broken, broken, my heart is broken beyond repair.
y̶͇̩͚͇̠̲̾̎̊ǫ̸̡̟̞͓̈́̿̑́̓͠ṷ̴͕͕͍̪̬͌͊̅̐͂̽...
an excuse to stay mired in misery, content in the harrowing discourse and you..
you're blissfully unaware of your barbed actions, every word pierces my already...
broken, broken, my heart is broken beyond repair.
y̶͇̩͚͇̠̲̾̎̊ǫ̸̡̟̞͓̈́̿̑́̓͠ṷ̴͕͕͍̪̬͌͊̅̐͂̽...
#mother
#parent
#abuse #hurt
#abuse #hurt
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SELF POEM
Published
4th Nov 2019 5:10pm
4th Nov 2019 5:10pm
dear mother pt. 1
i can scarcely fathom, begin to unpack
the stars i once saw in your eyes, burnt out beyond repair
a husk of a once nurturing soul, now plagued
the voices, they come, they come from the abyss
and yet i cannot tell you, you won't comprehend what 'he'
he, who is he, what he desires.
t̸̝̻͉̚h̵͈͍͖̄a̴̡̩͑ť̷͈͊͐ ̸̯̯́̏͊ẉ̶̫̈h̸̥̝̦̽a̵̛̰̽t̵̖̱̉...
the stars i once saw in your eyes, burnt out beyond repair
a husk of a once nurturing soul, now plagued
the voices, they come, they come from the abyss
and yet i cannot tell you, you won't comprehend what 'he'
he, who is he, what he desires.
t̸̝̻͉̚h̵͈͍͖̄a̴̡̩͑ť̷͈͊͐ ̸̯̯́̏͊ẉ̶̫̈h̸̥̝̦̽a̵̛̰̽t̵̖̱̉...
#rejection
#parent
#family #illness
#family #illness
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LOVE POEM
Published
7th Dec 2018 6:04am
7th Dec 2018 6:04am
nas'falon pt.2
in the end, you had simply been lying to yourself - you did love him romantically; it has been long since you proclaimed your intentions, one that had been received and returned in the most positive manner.
no longer do the voices garble and claw incessantly, chased away by a knight of heart who fought tooth and nail for your smile alone.
the fear that engulfed, the terror that blinded, it still remains; for there are still many trials and gauntlets you must face - but now, they will not be alone.
within a day, the lives of elf and knight will forever...
no longer do the voices garble and claw incessantly, chased away by a knight of heart who fought tooth and nail for your smile alone.
the fear that engulfed, the terror that blinded, it still remains; for there are still many trials and gauntlets you must face - but now, they will not be alone.
within a day, the lives of elf and knight will forever...
#FallingInLove
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
9th Jun 2018 10:57pm
9th Jun 2018 10:57pm
nas'falon
escape,
E S C A P E.
y̶̘̣͡͝o̦̟͎̰̗̥̭̮̕͢͠u͕̥͟͝ ̧̘͔̰̜͈͡ͅl̠͔͞e̴̫̳t̩̰̰̹̹ ̷̨̹̟͖͙͈̜̬̘h̶̜̭͓͇̺̞̯͔̱̕i̱͓̯͇̘͕̥ḿ͍̱̮̭͘...
E S C A P E.
y̶̘̣͡͝o̦̟͎̰̗̥̭̮̕͢͠u͕̥͟͝ ̧̘͔̰̜͈͡ͅl̠͔͞e̴̫̳t̩̰̰̹̹ ̷̨̹̟͖͙͈̜̬̘h̶̜̭͓͇̺̞̯͔̱̕i̱͓̯͇̘͕̥ḿ͍̱̮̭͘...
#anxiety
#BestFriend
#LifeStruggles #MentalHealth
#LifeStruggles #MentalHealth
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SELF POEM
Published
29th Apr 2018 00:29am
29th Apr 2018 00:29am
dearest elfling
from the moment the world began, your journey was set in stone. hard lived will be your life and few will you find by your side. endure you must, the trauma of loss.
y̵o̗͇̙̖u ͍͙w̦̼̻̳̤͍i̩̹͉̻̤l̗l͔̩ ̡͍͖e̕nco̹̜̬̰͖̜̘͢u̗̻̭ͅņ͈̳͍͖̱t̰̭̭ͅe̝̠̞̣͍̩̬r͢...
y̵o̗͇̙̖u ͍͙w̦̼̻̳̤͍i̩̹͉̻̤l̗l͔̩ ̡͍͖e̕nco̹̜̬̰͖̜̘͢u̗̻̭ͅņ͈̳͍͖̱t̰̭̭ͅe̝̠̞̣͍̩̬r͢...
#memories
#SelfReflection
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SELF POEM
Published
29th Apr 2018 00:02am
29th Apr 2018 00:02am
introspection
i have existed to bear witness to
the happiness that others have found and while..
ǹ̲͙͚̻̝o̤̥t͍͕͎͖̙̞͟ ̩y̢̭͇̺̮̳ͅe̳̞̙̳̪t̙..
i don't quite understand my meaning here
... foggy, dismal, u̗̘͚͜ͅn̷a̛͓͉͕b̯̱̜͍̰͙l͉̪̣̮̳͓̀è̦...
the happiness that others have found and while..
ǹ̲͙͚̻̝o̤̥t͍͕͎͖̙̞͟ ̩y̢̭͇̺̮̳ͅe̳̞̙̳̪t̙..
i don't quite understand my meaning here
... foggy, dismal, u̗̘͚͜ͅn̷a̛͓͉͕b̯̱̜͍̰͙l͉̪̣̮̳͓̀è̦...
#anxiety
#depression
#LifeStruggles
#MentalHealth
#SelfReflection
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