Submissions by TheGiftedOne
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I began to write poems as an outlet for my depression. I was told that I had a gift for it, so I kept on writing. I write what I feel.
SELF POEM
Published
19th Sep 2020 2:03am
19th Sep 2020 2:03am
Relief
I had a feeling all along.
That something is wrong.
A wayward hiccup.
It's all messed up.
Like a raging tide.
Or a whirlwind inside.
It lashes around.
I hear it resound.
Like the gong of a bell.
Not that I can tell.
I'm caught up in lies.
Even I'm able to realize.
Rebuilding is a worthless endeavor.
I'm more broken than ever.
Shattered like a vase.
All over the place.
My suffering flows.
The heartless wind blows.
This unbearable pain.
Gives me a migraine.
I wish to be free.
But I don't...
That something is wrong.
A wayward hiccup.
It's all messed up.
Like a raging tide.
Or a whirlwind inside.
It lashes around.
I hear it resound.
Like the gong of a bell.
Not that I can tell.
I'm caught up in lies.
Even I'm able to realize.
Rebuilding is a worthless endeavor.
I'm more broken than ever.
Shattered like a vase.
All over the place.
My suffering flows.
The heartless wind blows.
This unbearable pain.
Gives me a migraine.
I wish to be free.
But I don't...
#sadness
#anxiety
#confusion
#despair
#emptiness
443 reads
11 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
18th Sep 2020 2:42am
18th Sep 2020 2:42am
Some Things, You Can't Outrun
Dashing the other way.
Keep the demons at bay.
Leave them all behind.
Away from my mind.
Leave them from my sight.
Out of the light.
It isn't the last.
Vision of the past.
No matter how far I flee.
It won't let me be.
Even with a fake name.
The results are the same.
I feel it breathing down my neck.
Keeping me locked in check.
I'm not fast enough.
To get away from this stuff.
Keep the demons at bay.
Leave them all behind.
Away from my mind.
Leave them from my sight.
Out of the light.
It isn't the last.
Vision of the past.
No matter how far I flee.
It won't let me be.
Even with a fake name.
The results are the same.
I feel it breathing down my neck.
Keeping me locked in check.
I'm not fast enough.
To get away from this stuff.
#anxiety
#dark
#confusion
#despair
#fear
315 reads
6 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
18th Sep 2020 2:00am
18th Sep 2020 2:00am
Relinquish
Wanting to be cool.
Rather than a tool.
Give me your beauty.
Make it a part of me.
Hand over the cheer.
It will all be clear.
That I will not tire.
Because I have a desire.
To be something more.
Someone they won't abhor.
Abdicate how you look.
Right out of the book.
Having an intent glance.
Watching me dance.
With a pretty appearance.
They'd fall into a trance.
But in my heart I already know.
That it can't be so.
But you don't have a clue.
What I wouldn't give to be you.
Rather than a tool.
Give me your beauty.
Make it a part of me.
Hand over the cheer.
It will all be clear.
That I will not tire.
Because I have a desire.
To be something more.
Someone they won't abhor.
Abdicate how you look.
Right out of the book.
Having an intent glance.
Watching me dance.
With a pretty appearance.
They'd fall into a trance.
But in my heart I already know.
That it can't be so.
But you don't have a clue.
What I wouldn't give to be you.
#sadness
#loneliness
#rejection
#despair
#emptiness
276 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
17th Sep 2020 2:34am
17th Sep 2020 2:34am
Terrible Revenge
Yes, it's true.
I wanted to hurt you.
You made me yell.
Putting me through hell.
Broke my confidence.
In every literal sense.
I heard you tease.
Doing as you please.
Yearning for vengeance.
To give you your penance.
Make you feel my pain.
Over and over again.
You reap what you sow.
When you made my blood flow.
My hatred for you began to flare.
Trying to end this nightmare.
I know there is a part of me.
That can already see.
It will never be mine.
No matter how much I pine.
It would be a...
I wanted to hurt you.
You made me yell.
Putting me through hell.
Broke my confidence.
In every literal sense.
I heard you tease.
Doing as you please.
Yearning for vengeance.
To give you your penance.
Make you feel my pain.
Over and over again.
You reap what you sow.
When you made my blood flow.
My hatred for you began to flare.
Trying to end this nightmare.
I know there is a part of me.
That can already see.
It will never be mine.
No matter how much I pine.
It would be a...
#anger
#regret
#hate
#despair
#bittersweet
361 reads
8 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
17th Sep 2020 1:36am
17th Sep 2020 1:36am
Run by Remorse
I feel the crushing weight.
Remembering the exact date.
I was wracked with guilt.
Erasing everything that I built.
Losing you made them grieve.
More than I could ever believe.
Can't even look them in the eyes.
They didn't tell me any lies.
But I lived and he died.
What could be left inside?
Looking at the one who survived.
Must have made them feel deprived.
The image locked on repeat.
Knowing that his heart will never beat.
I don't know what to say.
To make some of the pain go away.
Or how I could possibly pay. ...
Remembering the exact date.
I was wracked with guilt.
Erasing everything that I built.
Losing you made them grieve.
More than I could ever believe.
Can't even look them in the eyes.
They didn't tell me any lies.
But I lived and he died.
What could be left inside?
Looking at the one who survived.
Must have made them feel deprived.
The image locked on repeat.
Knowing that his heart will never beat.
I don't know what to say.
To make some of the pain go away.
Or how I could possibly pay. ...
#sadness
#anxiety
#regret
#grief
#despair
327 reads
4 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
16th Sep 2020 00:37am
16th Sep 2020 00:37am
Dark Thoughts
Horrible thoughts in my head.
Persperation in my bed.
Terror fills my dreams.
Anguish carries my screams.
My cries are dense.
Yet I suffer in silence.
Choking on my pride.
I'm suffocating inside.
Drowning in loss.
As I turn and toss.
A part of me I hate.
That I can not sate.
Constantly lashing out.
Even when filled with doubt.
Frustration clouds my mind.
Darkness follows from behind.
Unable to alleviate.
The excruciating pain of fate.
Persperation in my bed.
Terror fills my dreams.
Anguish carries my screams.
My cries are dense.
Yet I suffer in silence.
Choking on my pride.
I'm suffocating inside.
Drowning in loss.
As I turn and toss.
A part of me I hate.
That I can not sate.
Constantly lashing out.
Even when filled with doubt.
Frustration clouds my mind.
Darkness follows from behind.
Unable to alleviate.
The excruciating pain of fate.
#sadness
#hate
#dark
#confusion
#despair
396 reads
4 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
15th Sep 2020 11:27pm
15th Sep 2020 11:27pm
Left Out
Wanting to be with you.
Something that's not new.
The desire to fit in.
Feels like a sin.
I'm not in the loop.
The peerless of your group.
An invisible dividing line.
Although it's shining fine.
The message is clear.
I'm not allowed near.
You give me that glare.
From all the way over there.
Leaving me standing cold.
The loneliness takes hold.
It pains me to realize.
I'll never be equal in your eyes.
Something that's not new.
The desire to fit in.
Feels like a sin.
I'm not in the loop.
The peerless of your group.
An invisible dividing line.
Although it's shining fine.
The message is clear.
I'm not allowed near.
You give me that glare.
From all the way over there.
Leaving me standing cold.
The loneliness takes hold.
It pains me to realize.
I'll never be equal in your eyes.
#sadness
#anxiety
#loneliness
#rejection
#despair
332 reads
7 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
15th Sep 2020 4:29am
15th Sep 2020 4:29am
What it Means to Suffer
Stinging pain beyond compare.
Unbearable anguish laid bare.
Falling into deep sorrow and guilt.
Feeling the body completely wilt.
Echoing through the heart.
Realizing everything fell apart.
Unbearable anguish laid bare.
Falling into deep sorrow and guilt.
Feeling the body completely wilt.
Echoing through the heart.
Realizing everything fell apart.
#sadness
#anxiety
#despair
#suffering
#hurt
353 reads
9 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
15th Sep 2020 4:01am
15th Sep 2020 4:01am
Astray in the Woods
I wander in the dark.
With nothing around to mark.
The way out of here.
I have no cheer.
Walking through the dirt.
Alone with my hurt.
The loss is my bane.
Can't face the pain.
The rain drops down.
Soaking through my gown.
Chilling me to the core.
I can't handle anymore.
Walking through the forest.
With pounding in my chest.
My legs are getting sore.
No energy left in store.
I'm blind in the haze.
My mind is in a daze.
Feeling myself start to cry.
The tears won't dry. ...
With nothing around to mark.
The way out of here.
I have no cheer.
Walking through the dirt.
Alone with my hurt.
The loss is my bane.
Can't face the pain.
The rain drops down.
Soaking through my gown.
Chilling me to the core.
I can't handle anymore.
Walking through the forest.
With pounding in my chest.
My legs are getting sore.
No energy left in store.
I'm blind in the haze.
My mind is in a daze.
Feeling myself start to cry.
The tears won't dry. ...
#loneliness
#confusion
#despair
#hurt
#fear
331 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
14th Sep 2020 1:10am
14th Sep 2020 1:10am
The First One
We met that day.
I then began to pay.
You looked at me.
But I couldn't see.
What you truly are.
My trust went too far.
I received your abuse.
From your short fuse.
I gave you my all anyway.
Even if I wanted to say.
When I began to melt.
How the pain felt.
I didn't have the power.
All I did was cower.
The seeds were sown.
Because I couldn't be alone.
I yearned to be your friend.
Feeling myself bend.
Way over the limit for you.
The way I always do.
Even then I didn't let go.
All that time...
I then began to pay.
You looked at me.
But I couldn't see.
What you truly are.
My trust went too far.
I received your abuse.
From your short fuse.
I gave you my all anyway.
Even if I wanted to say.
When I began to melt.
How the pain felt.
I didn't have the power.
All I did was cower.
The seeds were sown.
Because I couldn't be alone.
I yearned to be your friend.
Feeling myself bend.
Way over the limit for you.
The way I always do.
Even then I didn't let go.
All that time...
#anxiety
#rejection
#bullying
#confusion
#fear
471 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
14th Sep 2020 00:19am
14th Sep 2020 00:19am
What Was Lost
I thought that I had it all.
In the end I couldn't stand tall.
I felt the warm rays.
As normal as the passing days.
Acting like I don't care.
About my hurt and despair.
Time's hand takes life away.
I feel it all begin to decay.
It crumbles and disintegrates.
There are no debates.
I can't even try to flee.
From the poison inside of me.
It leeches at my soul.
It's taking it's toll.
I feel so much pain.
All over again.
I've paid a high cost.
Unable recover what was lost.
In the end I couldn't stand tall.
I felt the warm rays.
As normal as the passing days.
Acting like I don't care.
About my hurt and despair.
Time's hand takes life away.
I feel it all begin to decay.
It crumbles and disintegrates.
There are no debates.
I can't even try to flee.
From the poison inside of me.
It leeches at my soul.
It's taking it's toll.
I feel so much pain.
All over again.
I've paid a high cost.
Unable recover what was lost.
#sadness
#confusion
#despair
#emptiness
#fear
363 reads
4 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
13th Sep 2020 1:01am
13th Sep 2020 1:01am
It Arrives in Waves
Standing before the beachside.
Gazing upon the terrors inside.
Watching my life flash by.
Wondering what went wrong and why.
How it came to be.
Me standing here over the sea.
I know I have made some slips.
My world has taken many turns and tips.
What I see is my past.
My story played in a cast.
This vision of me I see.
Is truly a sight of pity.
I'm falling apart piece by piece.
Unable to attain any peace.
I want my sorrow to wash away.
It is unwelcome to stay.
Why will it not go?
I'm already feeling low. ...
Gazing upon the terrors inside.
Watching my life flash by.
Wondering what went wrong and why.
How it came to be.
Me standing here over the sea.
I know I have made some slips.
My world has taken many turns and tips.
What I see is my past.
My story played in a cast.
This vision of me I see.
Is truly a sight of pity.
I'm falling apart piece by piece.
Unable to attain any peace.
I want my sorrow to wash away.
It is unwelcome to stay.
Why will it not go?
I'm already feeling low. ...
#sadness
#anxiety
#confusion
#emotions
#fear
719 reads
8 Comments
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