Submissions by SpeechlessMouth

I sit alone thinking when will this sadness,depression go over me.... then i think it will never go away, I hide the pain of my saddness with a smile so no-one can notice whats wrong, The depression.. Bad thoughts overcome my mind I have no control what so ever of what im thinking, I hate to think what will i do next that ruin someones life, i feel like i cause pain to everyone, i try to please everyone... make THEM happy before me, I feel as if it's my job to make everyone happy... I try to convince myself i cant do it...but i try anyway... im such a bad person...i hurt everyone i love... I...

I grab the blade, start the first cut, I see blood rise
I feel the pain, depression, and anger slowly fade away..
With my vision blured from the tears filling them I cut myself again
Inserting the steel sharp blade in my pale fragile skin once again.
More blood rises... I feel... Satisfied..
I repeat myself over and over like a broken record player...
My anger and pain is gone...for now.. but no not for long.