Submissions by S_Buttowski

I thought i knew what I wanted but I guess I was fronting. Time to restructure my mind set because what I thought is not working. Like freedom that keeps one captive, I've condensed  to nothing. Is the problem me or my perception, either way it has to be something.

Something I've failed to acknowledge, perhaps I'm just reluctant. To sacrifice and accomplish everything I once wanted. Hence now it all seems worthless, fact is I'm incompetent. Working hard to lose focus, giving in to self influence.

Have I forgotten what my purpose is like 3rd world politicians? Governed by...

Few words come to mind as I try to explain.
This unfortunate situation that I'm currently in.
Sort of feels like my life is at a stand still.
In spite of all the efforts, everything remain still.

The only change I know, is from bad to worse.
Though I know I'm blessed, it really feels like I'm cursed.
Frustrations of a young black man trying to make it.
The last bit of hope I have life wants to take it.

Now I'm forced to compromise my goals and dreams.
In search of options, I'm forced to scheme.
Can't bear the thought of striving jusf to end up...

I saw a woman walking in the street, arranging her hair.
A smile on her face like a ceiling adorned with a chandelier.
Needless to say, her appearance was fairly fair.
With a split-second gaze, I made an un yielding conclusion;

Her being in the moment engulfed my being with an entrancing sensation.
I couldn't help but smile back, indeed I was taken aback.
She radiated positive energy; who wouldn't respond to that.
Perhaps her being was the type that could bring life into a heart that has fallen flat.

If my assumptions were correct, she'd have made a...