Submissions by Orc_Pirate_68 (Sabrina Kirk-Caldwell)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I write on many topics, but my favorite topics are Love (particularly age-gap, and age-gap between human and humanoid mythical creatures), high seas piracy, Paganism, morbidity, and my emotions.
I Don't Know
I may never like driving,
The motions tiring,
My life in my hands, terrifying,
I don't mean to be brash,
But I'd rather you not get exhausted and crash.
I may always hate driving,
But not the freedom of thriving,
Not the vehicle I'll be steering,
I want to paint it, decorate it,
In my life, that little Ford Ranger will be spotlit.
Even if, to the dislike, I become desensitized
For reasons, I'll be incentivized,
With my truck, uniquely me, uniquely characterized.
And for reasons, I'll like or love some of where I go,
Even if...
The motions tiring,
My life in my hands, terrifying,
I don't mean to be brash,
But I'd rather you not get exhausted and crash.
I may always hate driving,
But not the freedom of thriving,
Not the vehicle I'll be steering,
I want to paint it, decorate it,
In my life, that little Ford Ranger will be spotlit.
Even if, to the dislike, I become desensitized
For reasons, I'll be incentivized,
With my truck, uniquely me, uniquely characterized.
And for reasons, I'll like or love some of where I go,
Even if...
#confessional
#fear
#hate
#mother
#strength
120 reads
2 Comments
My Cat Every Time I Eat Anything
You had food
But you didn't share,
Because you weren't in the mood,
How fuckin' dare!
But you didn't share,
Because you weren't in the mood,
How fuckin' dare!
#cats
#food
#funny #StreamOfConsciousness
#funny #StreamOfConsciousness
245 reads
5 Comments
Pirates We Be, Free Upon the Sea
From all walks of life,
In happiness and strife,
For the sea we long,
We fight to belong,
Again and again
Or just for what we seek to gain.
Humble we work,
But extravagant we smirk,
Though a tough life it be,
A day we'd never miss upon the sea.
In happiness and strife,
For the sea we long,
We fight to belong,
Again and again
Or just for what we seek to gain.
Humble we work,
But extravagant we smirk,
Though a tough life it be,
A day we'd never miss upon the sea.
#LifeStruggles
#inspirational
#travel
#greed
#StreamOfConsciousness
194 reads
3 Comments
I'm The Problem
"I should've listened to my gut" she said,
"I knew something would go wrong" she said,
"I shouldn't have let you come with me" she said,
I keep second-guessing myself,
Thinking I'm as fragile as delph,
And she always tells me I'm not a problem,
So what is this outcome?
She spilled the truth, she did,
Because I'm just a stupid little kid
With sensory issues, that fill me with self hatred,
I am physically fragile it seems,
Even though I feel so strong most...
"I knew something would go wrong" she said,
"I shouldn't have let you come with me" she said,
I keep second-guessing myself,
Thinking I'm as fragile as delph,
And she always tells me I'm not a problem,
So what is this outcome?
She spilled the truth, she did,
Because I'm just a stupid little kid
With sensory issues, that fill me with self hatred,
I am physically fragile it seems,
Even though I feel so strong most...
#sadness
#regret
#heartbroken
#shame
#despair
358 reads
11 Comments
Broken
The night is dark and long,
My body and brain are so wrong,
I'm a broken person,
Of that, I am certain.
I ruined my mom's only chance of fun,
Because my body wanted to run,
I had heart palpitations, I'm broken,
I can't seem to get myself to function,
My brain and my body are in a bad position,
I feel lesser than phlegm,
My health came between them,
Between my mother and a good time,
I kept her away from something sublime,
Between her and the first Christmas party ...
My body and brain are so wrong,
I'm a broken person,
Of that, I am certain.
I ruined my mom's only chance of fun,
Because my body wanted to run,
I had heart palpitations, I'm broken,
I can't seem to get myself to function,
My brain and my body are in a bad position,
I feel lesser than phlegm,
My health came between them,
Between my mother and a good time,
I kept her away from something sublime,
Between her and the first Christmas party ...
#depression
#regret
#ImSorry
#heartbroken
#confessional
276 reads
2 Comments
A Poet Without Words
It's been months since I last saw you,
I've stopped counting, it's true,
My life I did skew,
This is my cue
To tell all,
How hard I did fall,
And then fell again,
Leaving many a bleeding ink stain,
Fit for the entrainment of vaudevilles,
I was so head over heels,
That I tripped,
My pen blood dipped,
Trying to with words, prop myself up,
And when I stood up,
My head did spin,
I was holding my spilled guts in,
Though you never did see,
For I wouldn't dare let you see,
My heart hanging by just a thread, ...
I've stopped counting, it's true,
My life I did skew,
This is my cue
To tell all,
How hard I did fall,
And then fell again,
Leaving many a bleeding ink stain,
Fit for the entrainment of vaudevilles,
I was so head over heels,
That I tripped,
My pen blood dipped,
Trying to with words, prop myself up,
And when I stood up,
My head did spin,
I was holding my spilled guts in,
Though you never did see,
For I wouldn't dare let you see,
My heart hanging by just a thread, ...
#sadness
#love
#ImSorry
#heartbroken
#StreamOfConsciousness
403 reads
3 Comments
This Really Hurts
Not to toot my own horn,
But I've been shown to be born
Very intelligent, or so you've said,
But every now and again when my head
Just won't wrap around something,
Just won't click with something,
You get so confused that you get pissed,
Like you can't stand the fact that I've missed
The connection between two things in my brain,
And missed the link in the logical chain,
Because of my instinctive fixation with language,
And how wording affects each mental image,
The wiring that you yourself have acknowledged,
That so far I have...
But I've been shown to be born
Very intelligent, or so you've said,
But every now and again when my head
Just won't wrap around something,
Just won't click with something,
You get so confused that you get pissed,
Like you can't stand the fact that I've missed
The connection between two things in my brain,
And missed the link in the logical chain,
Because of my instinctive fixation with language,
And how wording affects each mental image,
The wiring that you yourself have acknowledged,
That so far I have...
#sadness
#anger
#mother
#hurt
#StreamOfConsciousness
322 reads
1 Comment
Opinions
Like the comfort of soft, delicate, moss,
By 2026, I plan to have at least thirteen small tattoos across
My arms, legs, hips, foot, two across the edges of my ears, one on my lower back, and one over my heart,
Each one a testament so strong, they're permanent, each part,
Each one in a catalog of each difficult overcoming or happy events/people in life,
That bring me joy or previously brought me strife,
I want several facial and ear piercings, for beautiful filigree and goth jewelry,
As well as permanent ear elfing/pointing surgery,
These all fit...
By 2026, I plan to have at least thirteen small tattoos across
My arms, legs, hips, foot, two across the edges of my ears, one on my lower back, and one over my heart,
Each one a testament so strong, they're permanent, each part,
Each one in a catalog of each difficult overcoming or happy events/people in life,
That bring me joy or previously brought me strife,
I want several facial and ear piercings, for beautiful filigree and goth jewelry,
As well as permanent ear elfing/pointing surgery,
These all fit...
#LifeStruggles
#CallToAction
#frustration #hope
#frustration #hope
210 reads
2 Comments
Snowflake of Hearts
On my forearm, right below the elbow,
A design that I've been planning,
A rebuke of each of you, blow, after blow,
For me, and everyone who's different, you've been banning.
A little snowflake made of hearts,
Soon-to-be inked in a gentle pale brown like a birthmark,
To represent the turning away of your hearts,
And the resilience I've always had towards y'alls remarks.
The bullying I faced on that afternoon, will stay with me to this day,
Not for the hurt, but because here I stand, and here I stay,
The cold never bothered me anyway.
A design that I've been planning,
A rebuke of each of you, blow, after blow,
For me, and everyone who's different, you've been banning.
A little snowflake made of hearts,
Soon-to-be inked in a gentle pale brown like a birthmark,
To represent the turning away of your hearts,
And the resilience I've always had towards y'alls remarks.
The bullying I faced on that afternoon, will stay with me to this day,
Not for the hurt, but because here I stand, and here I stay,
The cold never bothered me anyway.
#hope
#bullying
#suffering
238 reads
3 Comments
Haptic Feedbacks
I like the little haptic feedbacks you give,
The eeks and ows, as your life drains like a sieve,
The pained groans and sighs
From one who hasn't said their goodbyes,
If I said I didn't enjoy this, that'd be one of many lies.
The convulsions and noises, as with tools, I poke and prod,
Beaming with kvell to play god,
To the top, I have clawed,
Knowing on your bones, animals will have gnawed.
The smell of singeing flesh,
The cuts, and carvings with a knife so fresh,
Messages left behind, before I zealously...
The eeks and ows, as your life drains like a sieve,
The pained groans and sighs
From one who hasn't said their goodbyes,
If I said I didn't enjoy this, that'd be one of many lies.
The convulsions and noises, as with tools, I poke and prod,
Beaming with kvell to play god,
To the top, I have clawed,
Knowing on your bones, animals will have gnawed.
The smell of singeing flesh,
The cuts, and carvings with a knife so fresh,
Messages left behind, before I zealously...
#hate
#evil
#suffering
#hurt
#horror
301 reads
0 Comments
I Don't Know What Else to Say, Or How Else to Say It
I come to you with a plan, an idea for my future,
I'm so excited, I'm in a bit of a stupor,
I list all the points, because it's cool, and reassuring,
I'm just letting you know the information, teaching,
I'm showing you how I'm growing,
And how I'm trying to be problem solving,
Then you say, "I just want to go over it with you",
I know, you want to see it too,
See if there are any pitfalls I'm not seeing,
That's all fine and dandy, but you reiterate
Several times, more than I can tolerate,
The first time is fine, but after that, ...
I'm so excited, I'm in a bit of a stupor,
I list all the points, because it's cool, and reassuring,
I'm just letting you know the information, teaching,
I'm showing you how I'm growing,
And how I'm trying to be problem solving,
Then you say, "I just want to go over it with you",
I know, you want to see it too,
See if there are any pitfalls I'm not seeing,
That's all fine and dandy, but you reiterate
Several times, more than I can tolerate,
The first time is fine, but after that, ...
#anger
#mother
#conflict
#abuse
#frustration
304 reads
2 Comments
Solitude
Round and 'round my mind goes,
Where it stops, nobody knows,
Melancholic solitude, ennui, even,
The army of damned souls, the shadow legion,
The eye of my deepest mind,
It takes things it does find,
Takes the romanticized existential wonderings
And turns them into even darker things.
Darkness, sitting in my soul,
Turning my mind ever most foul,
Head foggy, and brain laggy,
Sitting in solitude, enjoying the sound, empty,
Of my loud thoughts racing,
As my mind is wandering
And wondering,
Little use of my...
Where it stops, nobody knows,
Melancholic solitude, ennui, even,
The army of damned souls, the shadow legion,
The eye of my deepest mind,
It takes things it does find,
Takes the romanticized existential wonderings
And turns them into even darker things.
Darkness, sitting in my soul,
Turning my mind ever most foul,
Head foggy, and brain laggy,
Sitting in solitude, enjoying the sound, empty,
Of my loud thoughts racing,
As my mind is wandering
And wondering,
Little use of my...
#dark
#marijuana
#emptiness
#hurt
#StreamOfConsciousness
598 reads
2 Comments
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