Submissions by MartenHoyle (Vate C. Carmen)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
LOVE POEM
Published
4th Aug 2022 9:31pm
4th Aug 2022 9:31pm
To Let Go
To Let Go”
I believe I sense an imbalance
In the torment of your silence
When I speak the way I do
But I must know if your love is true.
I know you don’t want to think of this,
I know you want to seal it with a kiss.
But I must know, if I’m begging for death
If I’m begging for death…
Well, you say I am the love of your life,
And you will hold me until the end.
But I do not know…
Can you accept the illness that eats me alive?
Do you accept the sights I cannot show—
That someday I will not survive?
I need to...
I believe I sense an imbalance
In the torment of your silence
When I speak the way I do
But I must know if your love is true.
I know you don’t want to think of this,
I know you want to seal it with a kiss.
But I must know, if I’m begging for death
If I’m begging for death…
Well, you say I am the love of your life,
And you will hold me until the end.
But I do not know…
Can you accept the illness that eats me alive?
Do you accept the sights I cannot show—
That someday I will not survive?
I need to...
#love
#death
#LGBT
#suicide
#MentalHealth
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
4th Aug 2022 6:44pm
4th Aug 2022 6:44pm
Dark Eden
Dark Eden”
Someday I will make my way
To the dark Eden of endless shades.
In my sorrow, I will kiss the hands of the dead
Who have waited in the blossoming garden
Among beds of forget-me-nots.
There the blackest stones await me
Beneath thousands of lanterns.
Ah! In deepening gloom, I have gathered
The daffodils that softly choke me
With the perfume of the coffin’s feast.
I have dreamt of many sorrows,
Having tasted the wine of foulest sleep
Shrouded in the kisses of the darkness
That forbids me to enter, ...
Someday I will make my way
To the dark Eden of endless shades.
In my sorrow, I will kiss the hands of the dead
Who have waited in the blossoming garden
Among beds of forget-me-nots.
There the blackest stones await me
Beneath thousands of lanterns.
Ah! In deepening gloom, I have gathered
The daffodils that softly choke me
With the perfume of the coffin’s feast.
I have dreamt of many sorrows,
Having tasted the wine of foulest sleep
Shrouded in the kisses of the darkness
That forbids me to enter, ...
#lesbian
#gay
#LGBT
#transgender
#bisexual
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
3rd Aug 2022 3:18pm
3rd Aug 2022 3:18pm
To One Who Will Die
To One Who Will Die”
I don’t want to outlive you.
You say it may seem selfish of me.
But if I close my eyes, am I still here?
Were you the first to say you loved me,
While I was the last to say I was sorry?
I don’t want to exist where you have gone.
Perhaps I’ll pray we go together—
To be painless as those we leave behind
While I follow you to the next isle—
My hand in yours, unafraid of the dark.
We saw such sights that shall be no more,
Dreamed such dreams that no one knows.
I don’t want to dream without you...
I don’t want to outlive you.
You say it may seem selfish of me.
But if I close my eyes, am I still here?
Were you the first to say you loved me,
While I was the last to say I was sorry?
I don’t want to exist where you have gone.
Perhaps I’ll pray we go together—
To be painless as those we leave behind
While I follow you to the next isle—
My hand in yours, unafraid of the dark.
We saw such sights that shall be no more,
Dreamed such dreams that no one knows.
I don’t want to dream without you...
#death
#LGBT
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
2nd Aug 2022 1:04am
2nd Aug 2022 1:04am
Goodbye
Goodbye”
What is Hello?
Who are these Goodbyes?
I have met many in my travels
From one salutation to one parting.
But this. This goodbye is a bitter foe,
For he is delayed in his approach.
From one rest to another sleep,
He waits in the margins…
Drawing near, but never touching.
And though I know I must taste it,
I cannot bring my lips to such wine:
The bitterness of the fruit
Of my obeisance is far too sweet.
A shadow that comes and goes and knows
It never should have departed the sun
While all...
What is Hello?
Who are these Goodbyes?
I have met many in my travels
From one salutation to one parting.
But this. This goodbye is a bitter foe,
For he is delayed in his approach.
From one rest to another sleep,
He waits in the margins…
Drawing near, but never touching.
And though I know I must taste it,
I cannot bring my lips to such wine:
The bitterness of the fruit
Of my obeisance is far too sweet.
A shadow that comes and goes and knows
It never should have departed the sun
While all...
#lesbian
#gay
#LGBT
#transgender
#bisexual
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
31st Jul 2022 8:44pm
31st Jul 2022 8:44pm
Lost
Lost”
Tell me what I have lost…
I just don’t know anymore.
I’ve been gone for some long, long time,
And it’s getting dark where the road has led me.
Sometimes I believe I am underground,
And the clouds are coming to rain on my grave.
The flowers would grow there as in Heaven—
Just another place where you’ll never find me.
Take this life from me and show me the ashes.
I’m scared of what is left to burn.
There is darkness among the flames.
I’ve been there, and I think I’m going back for more.
Sometimes I...
Tell me what I have lost…
I just don’t know anymore.
I’ve been gone for some long, long time,
And it’s getting dark where the road has led me.
Sometimes I believe I am underground,
And the clouds are coming to rain on my grave.
The flowers would grow there as in Heaven—
Just another place where you’ll never find me.
Take this life from me and show me the ashes.
I’m scared of what is left to burn.
There is darkness among the flames.
I’ve been there, and I think I’m going back for more.
Sometimes I...
#lesbian
#gay
#LGBT
#transgender
#bisexual
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LOVE POEM
Published
30th Jul 2022 2:43pm
30th Jul 2022 2:43pm
Two Souls Meant to Destroy Each Other
Two Souls Meant to Destroy Each Other”
I need you to talk to me…
You answer my voice, silently.
The voice that does not answer is weighted, and sad.
What emotions do you say you wish you never had?
Is it your love for me that you deny
You wish you could erase, the same as I?
How long must we circle before our hearts die?
You look at me, and see the face you want to see…
I look at you and see what I wish could be.
Shattered dawn, shattered dawn, I keep waiting
But outside my window, another year is fading.
You locked the...
I need you to talk to me…
You answer my voice, silently.
The voice that does not answer is weighted, and sad.
What emotions do you say you wish you never had?
Is it your love for me that you deny
You wish you could erase, the same as I?
How long must we circle before our hearts die?
You look at me, and see the face you want to see…
I look at you and see what I wish could be.
Shattered dawn, shattered dawn, I keep waiting
But outside my window, another year is fading.
You locked the...
#lesbian
#gay
#LGBT
#transgender
#bisexual
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
29th Jul 2022 6:06pm
29th Jul 2022 6:06pm
Eternity
Eternity”
Will you raise your eyes with the stars
For the eternal eve of dreams?
The roses of the night blossom
Into the garden of thunder,
I once heard in your death rattle—
That even now I can hear
As I pray you remember nothing
Of this night as we depart
To the unknown of our separate dawns.
Once, far in the distance, you held me.
Your oath yet beating with my heart
We stand together in different lives
Upon a new distance: One must leave
While the other cannot follow.
I fear it is I who must remain here ...
Will you raise your eyes with the stars
For the eternal eve of dreams?
The roses of the night blossom
Into the garden of thunder,
I once heard in your death rattle—
That even now I can hear
As I pray you remember nothing
Of this night as we depart
To the unknown of our separate dawns.
Once, far in the distance, you held me.
Your oath yet beating with my heart
We stand together in different lives
Upon a new distance: One must leave
While the other cannot follow.
I fear it is I who must remain here ...
#death
#LGBT
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
27th Jul 2022 8:27pm
27th Jul 2022 8:27pm
The Heaviest Tear, and the Brightest Star
The Heaviest Tear, and the Brightest Star”
I cannot see myself turning away
From the pathways that cross and divide
The tales and the fantasies I tell myself:
Which tomorrows I believe there will be,
Against the tomorrows that will come.
They’ll feel the pain left in my place,
As I bury the faces I choose not to see,
Staring from a place I don’t want to go.
What image can I veil for my salvation?
Give me to another Hell where I can
Take it all back as if it was an illusion.
I can’t somehow. It’s breaking through
The...
I cannot see myself turning away
From the pathways that cross and divide
The tales and the fantasies I tell myself:
Which tomorrows I believe there will be,
Against the tomorrows that will come.
They’ll feel the pain left in my place,
As I bury the faces I choose not to see,
Staring from a place I don’t want to go.
What image can I veil for my salvation?
Give me to another Hell where I can
Take it all back as if it was an illusion.
I can’t somehow. It’s breaking through
The...
#lesbian
#gay
#LGBT
#transgender
#bisexual
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LOVE POEM
Published
21st Jul 2022 6:48pm
21st Jul 2022 6:48pm
A Star Within the Rain
A Star Within the Rain”
I watched the door close between us
To sever the soul that intwined our being.
This was goodbye…
Without speech—with distance only…
I wept not, for such great speech
As a tear can bring was muted
By the cry of our unborn years splitting,
As all that may have come to pass for us
Was undone…the river of our time, severed,
As we flow to our separate seas.
Do you not know you were the answer?
The question I never dared to ask—
I dare not breathe it now into
The space where you once stood. ...
I watched the door close between us
To sever the soul that intwined our being.
This was goodbye…
Without speech—with distance only…
I wept not, for such great speech
As a tear can bring was muted
By the cry of our unborn years splitting,
As all that may have come to pass for us
Was undone…the river of our time, severed,
As we flow to our separate seas.
Do you not know you were the answer?
The question I never dared to ask—
I dare not breathe it now into
The space where you once stood. ...
#lesbian
#gay
#LGBT
#transgender
#bisexual
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
14th Jul 2022 6:29pm
14th Jul 2022 6:29pm
The Sound of Tears
The Sound of Tears”
What is this look I accept
From the glass that I breathe
Into my spirit of shards?
There are gems of life
Hidden in the waste there,
But I see only a broken mirror
And hear the sound of tears.
Tell me, what is this gaze?
It does not reside inside me—
Is my being only on the outside
Where my thoughts cannot be seen?
Can you hear what I sense,
And save me from listening
To the sound of tears?
I cannot save myself when it is over…
Hiding in a season where I cannot be seen: ...
What is this look I accept
From the glass that I breathe
Into my spirit of shards?
There are gems of life
Hidden in the waste there,
But I see only a broken mirror
And hear the sound of tears.
Tell me, what is this gaze?
It does not reside inside me—
Is my being only on the outside
Where my thoughts cannot be seen?
Can you hear what I sense,
And save me from listening
To the sound of tears?
I cannot save myself when it is over…
Hiding in a season where I cannot be seen: ...
#sadness
#depression
#dark #despair
#dark #despair
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
14th Jul 2022 4:15am
14th Jul 2022 4:15am
The Wine
The Wine”
Seldom it occurs to me that I was a child
When the sunrise summoned me, “Embark!”
But where were the Travelers who had seen
The land to where I was going?
Where were the Builders whose hands
Had kissed the hues of falling stars?
How could I know, when nothing came before,
To say that I will say I’m sorry tomorrow
When there was no past to reflect?
Who saw my blood is wine—a loathsome wine?
I dare not drink, should I drink in vain.
But this disgrace carves into my flesh
And I see the fell sires of what was...
Seldom it occurs to me that I was a child
When the sunrise summoned me, “Embark!”
But where were the Travelers who had seen
The land to where I was going?
Where were the Builders whose hands
Had kissed the hues of falling stars?
How could I know, when nothing came before,
To say that I will say I’m sorry tomorrow
When there was no past to reflect?
Who saw my blood is wine—a loathsome wine?
I dare not drink, should I drink in vain.
But this disgrace carves into my flesh
And I see the fell sires of what was...
#depression
#regret
#MentalHealth #despair
#MentalHealth #despair
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
13th Jul 2022 6:52pm
13th Jul 2022 6:52pm
SYMPHONIYA DE TOSKA PREVIEW
#LGBT
#LifeAsAWriter
#WritingPoetry
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DU Poetry : Submissions by MartenHoyle (Vate C. Carmen)
