Submissions by Kehlida
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Forbidden Lover
In this moment the rain falls and the levee disputes her ability to endure
But I spent my whole life enduring a torrent and bolstering my shield
at first from twigs and stones
Now I stand stronger than I could imagine, my capacity is a dam of my very design
I mourn the youth this world took from my soul much too soon and I am not invincible
I am afraid of being wrong and ending up alone
caught in the middle of all my feelings and self-doubt
But I wonder if complacency would claim me as I’ve seen it grow in all whom I loved before
If I accept solely...
But I spent my whole life enduring a torrent and bolstering my shield
at first from twigs and stones
Now I stand stronger than I could imagine, my capacity is a dam of my very design
I mourn the youth this world took from my soul much too soon and I am not invincible
I am afraid of being wrong and ending up alone
caught in the middle of all my feelings and self-doubt
But I wonder if complacency would claim me as I’ve seen it grow in all whom I loved before
If I accept solely...
#love
#honesty
#admiration #ForbiddenLove
#admiration #ForbiddenLove
1208 reads
18 Comments
Wish I'd Jumped Ship
An ink-tone puddle or bottomless well?
Your love is so daunting
Depth few could admire and perhaps I am no different
as I drown in those sapphire eyes, full of intrigue
Reluctant to explore this shallow bay,
yet feigning ignorance to threats I receive
Bliss eludes conscious minds so I pretend you’re perfect
and uncover my soul to give you all you need
I’ve learned to observe this world from below,
so used to sinking on my own
For once I feel complete
Things as I see them now, are not as I once believed
Promises she’s...
Your love is so daunting
Depth few could admire and perhaps I am no different
as I drown in those sapphire eyes, full of intrigue
Reluctant to explore this shallow bay,
yet feigning ignorance to threats I receive
Bliss eludes conscious minds so I pretend you’re perfect
and uncover my soul to give you all you need
I’ve learned to observe this world from below,
so used to sinking on my own
For once I feel complete
Things as I see them now, are not as I once believed
Promises she’s...
#love
#dark
#sea
#despair
#metaphor
561 reads
4 Comments
Sailing or Sinking?
Clearing out my conscious seems impossible tonight
so I feign diversion for relief
All these feelings and theories of mine
seem worthless in the grand scheme
Wondering if I belong because I view this world in different hues
and most will remain blind as I struggle to find any use
Ignorance holds no candle to an enlightened soul
but still we drug ourselves and become dumbed down
Starlight eyes and an elusive mind
Hoping something might numb my brain
and remove this double-edged curse from me
Six sides of a metaphor...
so I feign diversion for relief
All these feelings and theories of mine
seem worthless in the grand scheme
Wondering if I belong because I view this world in different hues
and most will remain blind as I struggle to find any use
Ignorance holds no candle to an enlightened soul
but still we drug ourselves and become dumbed down
Starlight eyes and an elusive mind
Hoping something might numb my brain
and remove this double-edged curse from me
Six sides of a metaphor...
#depression
#drugs
#memories
#misunderstood
#emptiness
909 reads
6 Comments
Our Sharp Edges Collide
I laid down beside you trying to get right with myself,
found no peace but I dug up a lot of doubt
Never understood why this life seems so hollow,
or how I’m meant to divide my future from our past now
I find comfort in our bond
but I expect this lust to depart eventually
I know I should think different
but it’s all I’ve ever seen and how things always end
The nights we spent in bed felt like heaven,
yet nothing could silence the hell in our heads
I thought of you as all I prayed for,
until my insecurity caught the best...
found no peace but I dug up a lot of doubt
Never understood why this life seems so hollow,
or how I’m meant to divide my future from our past now
I find comfort in our bond
but I expect this lust to depart eventually
I know I should think different
but it’s all I’ve ever seen and how things always end
The nights we spent in bed felt like heaven,
yet nothing could silence the hell in our heads
I thought of you as all I prayed for,
until my insecurity caught the best...
#love
#TimeHeals
#disappointment #denial
#disappointment #denial
558 reads
6 Comments
Blood of the Covenant
Leaning sideways from the weight I shoulder
wondering when all this drama will blow over
They choose venom and violence, refusing to confront their pain
Our blood defines us as family
but we’re divided by choices we’ve made
People who claim to love me sink their claws in the same
The ones I would die for drain me
I am sick of being branded by my failures
drawn under my skin, below all this ink
Crucify me for art I design
while ignoring me for scars I hide
Knives in hand; they assert dominance in vain
Signing names on my...
wondering when all this drama will blow over
They choose venom and violence, refusing to confront their pain
Our blood defines us as family
but we’re divided by choices we’ve made
People who claim to love me sink their claws in the same
The ones I would die for drain me
I am sick of being branded by my failures
drawn under my skin, below all this ink
Crucify me for art I design
while ignoring me for scars I hide
Knives in hand; they assert dominance in vain
Signing names on my...
#conflict
#family
#betrayal
#emotions
#vulnerability
454 reads
6 Comments
Fading
Do I seem stronger for hiding my problems,
or do reoccurring sleepless days strip my sanity?
Worried I may disappoint my family,
I deny reaching out for help which might save me
Every test I deem useless, for if I found a diagnosis
would a cure be possible when I've grown inside this hell since day one?
All my muscles hold so much tension, tangled against my fragile skeleton
pulled tight across bones I wish could be put to sleep
Promise if I leave,
would you find forgiveness for me?
I know, unless I set you free
...
or do reoccurring sleepless days strip my sanity?
Worried I may disappoint my family,
I deny reaching out for help which might save me
Every test I deem useless, for if I found a diagnosis
would a cure be possible when I've grown inside this hell since day one?
All my muscles hold so much tension, tangled against my fragile skeleton
pulled tight across bones I wish could be put to sleep
Promise if I leave,
would you find forgiveness for me?
I know, unless I set you free
...
#anxiety
#depression
#loneliness
#dark
#LifeStruggles
1122 reads
15 Comments
Tread Carefully
Insecurity entangled in a fragile mind
His ego swells while her sense of self dies
Tensions rise as she faces double binds
Set up to fail again
she falls short in his eyes
Meek and powerless in a frail shell
Her hope dissolves as his anger climbs
Whispered apologies spill from trembling lips
Suddenly running crimson as
his hands return to his sides
Cross his fingers and hope to lie
A veil of deceit crumbling before her feet
Illusions of a joyful life begin to waver
Trail of blood pools
from disobeying...
His ego swells while her sense of self dies
Tensions rise as she faces double binds
Set up to fail again
she falls short in his eyes
Meek and powerless in a frail shell
Her hope dissolves as his anger climbs
Whispered apologies spill from trembling lips
Suddenly running crimson as
his hands return to his sides
Cross his fingers and hope to lie
A veil of deceit crumbling before her feet
Illusions of a joyful life begin to waver
Trail of blood pools
from disobeying...
#strength
#abuse
#escape #DomesticViolence
#escape #DomesticViolence
729 reads
2 Comments
Bad Luck
You chose to act against common sense, defying what you knew was best
Placing lust before a proper dose of skeptical analysis
Holding on to unreliable self-evaluations,
blinded in this age of anguish
You weighed your value falsely and quit relying on my guidance
I count on you to discover your truth, leaving all I love to chance
Two kindred souls, built imperfect by design
Our viewpoints are so aligned or at least I thought so
We’re doomed to inevitably destroy ourselves chasing inadequate desires
I only say all this to be honest...
Placing lust before a proper dose of skeptical analysis
Holding on to unreliable self-evaluations,
blinded in this age of anguish
You weighed your value falsely and quit relying on my guidance
I count on you to discover your truth, leaving all I love to chance
Two kindred souls, built imperfect by design
Our viewpoints are so aligned or at least I thought so
We’re doomed to inevitably destroy ourselves chasing inadequate desires
I only say all this to be honest...
#love
#grief
#friendship #FeelingLost
#friendship #FeelingLost
869 reads
5 Comments
Emasculated
Copper lay upon his closed eyes
Index to bound lips
A solemn shush
No widow cries
The morning comes and light rises all the same
His legacy is carved in stone, just a name to mark a fresh grave
Subdued as a boy, now a man to avoid
Haunted by stolen years he barely survived
Unable to process newfound feelings
Forever two steps behind and drowning
To entertain an illusion of safety he must silence himself
Refrain from sharing his mind and crawl back inside
Too confused to experience new senses beyond his comprehension ...
Index to bound lips
A solemn shush
No widow cries
The morning comes and light rises all the same
His legacy is carved in stone, just a name to mark a fresh grave
Subdued as a boy, now a man to avoid
Haunted by stolen years he barely survived
Unable to process newfound feelings
Forever two steps behind and drowning
To entertain an illusion of safety he must silence himself
Refrain from sharing his mind and crawl back inside
Too confused to experience new senses beyond his comprehension ...
#loneliness
#silence
#apathy #responsibility
#apathy #responsibility
527 reads
7 Comments
Darling Rose
My darling rose, you’ve been a cruel lover
How you ended up this way, I cannot help but to wonder
You once ruled over me and shunned my words to focus on those of another
The beauty I buried in proses turned into hollow noise,
my verses meant nothing
Love notes I penned just fell short of your glory
My darling rose, I see you now, crisp and withering
I feel you dig in
a slight rip in my skin
Finding your thorns remains my fondest form of foreplay
I trace your edges not too carefully
Your submission is teasing
My...
How you ended up this way, I cannot help but to wonder
You once ruled over me and shunned my words to focus on those of another
The beauty I buried in proses turned into hollow noise,
my verses meant nothing
Love notes I penned just fell short of your glory
My darling rose, I see you now, crisp and withering
I feel you dig in
a slight rip in my skin
Finding your thorns remains my fondest form of foreplay
I trace your edges not too carefully
Your submission is teasing
My...
#love
#BDSM
#sensual #passion
#sensual #passion
579 reads
5 Comments
Romance or Wishful Thinking?
Blurring the division between designing a future
and saving things when you’d sooner allow it to sink
Our union required us two to help it survive,
but it only took your misplaced doubt to let it die
You failed to form the words that could mend what we’d built
Now I know I’m not perfect but I poured my heart out
just for you to see me wilt
I chose to stand idly by while you stood on the fence line
trying to decide whose lawn you find more vibrant
Hers, hers, his or mine?
Suppose I must come to terms, handling my hurt in...
and saving things when you’d sooner allow it to sink
Our union required us two to help it survive,
but it only took your misplaced doubt to let it die
You failed to form the words that could mend what we’d built
Now I know I’m not perfect but I poured my heart out
just for you to see me wilt
I chose to stand idly by while you stood on the fence line
trying to decide whose lawn you find more vibrant
Hers, hers, his or mine?
Suppose I must come to terms, handling my hurt in...
#love
#loneliness
#breakup #hurt
#breakup #hurt
520 reads
8 Comments
Now All I Know Is Alone
My heart is hidden in those walls alongside memories of the time we spent
hungering for our next hit
I cannot remember when our room went dim or the faucet no longer dripped
Or how, below overdue bills piled on your desk I found a pink slip
Our love would never be one on which stories are built
But nothing will numb my sadness
it just grows in place of your absence
Would he be bound to secrecy or keep telling lies?
Life is absolute and to be absolved is to live in light
I know my love’s way remains impure, but I can only pray for mine ...
hungering for our next hit
I cannot remember when our room went dim or the faucet no longer dripped
Or how, below overdue bills piled on your desk I found a pink slip
Our love would never be one on which stories are built
But nothing will numb my sadness
it just grows in place of your absence
Would he be bound to secrecy or keep telling lies?
Life is absolute and to be absolved is to live in light
I know my love’s way remains impure, but I can only pray for mine ...
#grief
#hope
#addiction #MovingOn
#addiction #MovingOn
740 reads
11 Comments
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