Sailing or Sinking?

Clearing out my conscious seems impossible tonight
  so I feign diversion for relief
All these feelings and theories of mine
   seem worthless in the grand scheme
Wondering if I belong because I view this world in different hues
   and most will remain blind as I struggle to find any use

Ignorance holds no candle to an enlightened soul
   but still we drug ourselves and become dumbed down
Starlight eyes and an elusive mind
Hoping something might numb my brain
   and remove this double-edged curse from me

   Six sides of a metaphor and it maintains more substance than I do
We all fall short under the weight of innumerable excuses
   for why we allow our failures to be our voices
Cosmic and curious, the colors are deafening and I find sound overwhelming
Gazing into the unknown again in search of discovery,
   but afraid of the things living inside me
Seeing is believing but my vision’s cloudy
   and my sight is best earned through experience or grief

   Focused on following out our ending
Unsure why our choices fail to mirror our intent
   when we’ve neglect to decide upon it
Complacency is death to me, but so is floating devoid of purpose
So, still I try to fill the empty spaces in my life
   and bridge the divisions in my mind
Caught up in chasing all the things I cannot understand yet
Have I lost my way again or is this loneliness a side-effect
   of wandering farther than most will tread