Submissions by Blood_Merchant93 (BeautifulManiac)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I wonder through the darkness and share some with you
DARK POEM
Published
25th Feb 2012 9:23pm
25th Feb 2012 9:23pm
Back To Reality
Memories of painful days appear like old friends,
Stabbing me in the back as usual.
Each vision causes a rupture in my heart,
Then another whisper makes sense of it all...
I peer at the scars patterned over my skin,
Fearful of everyone’s judging eyes.
The voices take me back to reality,
They urge me to continue to the end...
I glance at my friend sitting by the sink,
And smile even though I’m crying.
I snap at the shell and let it sink in,
A searing pain takes hold of my life...
The white of the...
Stabbing me in the back as usual.
Each vision causes a rupture in my heart,
Then another whisper makes sense of it all...
I peer at the scars patterned over my skin,
Fearful of everyone’s judging eyes.
The voices take me back to reality,
They urge me to continue to the end...
I glance at my friend sitting by the sink,
And smile even though I’m crying.
I snap at the shell and let it sink in,
A searing pain takes hold of my life...
The white of the...
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DARK POEM
Published
24th Feb 2012 7:22pm
24th Feb 2012 7:22pm
Blissful Life
With every thread you pull tighter
Sewing shut the flesh of my wrists
To keep me from bleeding
It’s the blood that I yearn
So desperately to see
To abandon this pain
Screaming out loud
Avoiding the glares
Staring at the wall
I listen to the voices
Ignore them if you will
To forget the world
A relapse perhaps
Another fail of mine
Tears sting my eyes
I sit on my bed
Break another razor
Watch the blood pour
again...
Sewing shut the flesh of my wrists
To keep me from bleeding
It’s the blood that I yearn
So desperately to see
To abandon this pain
Screaming out loud
Avoiding the glares
Staring at the wall
I listen to the voices
Ignore them if you will
To forget the world
A relapse perhaps
Another fail of mine
Tears sting my eyes
I sit on my bed
Break another razor
Watch the blood pour
again...
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UPBEAT INSPIRATIONAL POEM
Published
25th Sep 2011 8:59pm
25th Sep 2011 8:59pm
we are here for you
Through the struggles of the tormented minds
we fight for our dreams and goals.
Hoping oneday we overcome the pain
and lose a very tempting addiction.
This is a pain only a few minds understand
but those few minds know how to help.
They ignore their own pain and assist you
hoping that someday they can make you smile.
Through giving others freedom and joy
we are helping ourselves through the fight.
With open arms and a loving heart
we are always here.
Never give in to temptation
never give up.
Know you are always loved...
we fight for our dreams and goals.
Hoping oneday we overcome the pain
and lose a very tempting addiction.
This is a pain only a few minds understand
but those few minds know how to help.
They ignore their own pain and assist you
hoping that someday they can make you smile.
Through giving others freedom and joy
we are helping ourselves through the fight.
With open arms and a loving heart
we are always here.
Never give in to temptation
never give up.
Know you are always loved...
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DARK POEM
Published
6th Jul 2011 9:54pm
6th Jul 2011 9:54pm
my time is running out
arguments like this crush my soul and leave me breathless
disabling me from the world of love
the bathroom tiles are ivory white and lack a certain colour
so my veins open wide and start a painting
each drop of my life runs a beautiful crimson
like a rain drop on a petal
my heart thumps decreasingly slower
the clock is slowing down
every sting from the razor brings a fresh tear to my raw eyes
watching the blood flow is worth the pain
i lay here in this bath with the inked water to my breasts
waiting for the timer to stop
disabling me from the world of love
the bathroom tiles are ivory white and lack a certain colour
so my veins open wide and start a painting
each drop of my life runs a beautiful crimson
like a rain drop on a petal
my heart thumps decreasingly slower
the clock is slowing down
every sting from the razor brings a fresh tear to my raw eyes
watching the blood flow is worth the pain
i lay here in this bath with the inked water to my breasts
waiting for the timer to stop
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DARK POEM
Published
4th Jul 2011 5:12pm
4th Jul 2011 5:12pm
flight of the phoenix
looking at my scars i get an uncureable urge
to reopen them and watch the blood stream
the purple lines across my pale skin illuminate
depression and it's grotesque struggle for freedom
the desire to feel the pain of the razors relief
torments my minds fragile system of broken wires
the demons eat at the pinch of happiness i once had
devouring all positive sense of emotion and expression
then the promise stands forward as a reminder
pushing the demons aside and saving me from relapse
my life is dark but i can finally see the...
to reopen them and watch the blood stream
the purple lines across my pale skin illuminate
depression and it's grotesque struggle for freedom
the desire to feel the pain of the razors relief
torments my minds fragile system of broken wires
the demons eat at the pinch of happiness i once had
devouring all positive sense of emotion and expression
then the promise stands forward as a reminder
pushing the demons aside and saving me from relapse
my life is dark but i can finally see the...
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DARK POEM
Published
4th Jul 2011 2:55pm
4th Jul 2011 2:55pm
one cut too many (revisited)
screams in my headhurl at me
tearing apart the positive thoughts
leaving me alone with mynew best friend
to cut away the pain
whispers of deathwant me to close my eyes
suffocate me with those urges for blood
acid burns up in my eyes
leaving me blind
visions of bloodare so serene
in reality the razor is a huge relief
the deeper i cut thecloser i am
to the bed beneath theground
no more voicesto tormentme
no more pain for me to take
in this bed i feel warmand safe
in this bed you know i’mdead
tearing apart the positive thoughts
leaving me alone with mynew best friend
to cut away the pain
whispers of deathwant me to close my eyes
suffocate me with those urges for blood
acid burns up in my eyes
leaving me blind
visions of bloodare so serene
in reality the razor is a huge relief
the deeper i cut thecloser i am
to the bed beneath theground
no more voicesto tormentme
no more pain for me to take
in this bed i feel warmand safe
in this bed you know i’mdead
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DARK POEM
Published
29th Jun 2011 4:39pm
29th Jun 2011 4:39pm
one cut too many
screams in my head
so alone
cutting
cutting
cutting
away the pain
whispers of death
tormenting my mind
burn
burn
burn
tears in my eyes
visions of blood
so serene
dripping
dripping
dripping
down my arms
no more voices
tormenting me
dead
dead
dead
is what i am
so alone
cutting
cutting
cutting
away the pain
whispers of death
tormenting my mind
burn
burn
burn
tears in my eyes
visions of blood
so serene
dripping
dripping
dripping
down my arms
no more voices
tormenting me
dead
dead
dead
is what i am
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UPBEAT INSPIRATIONAL POEM
Published
18th Mar 2011 8:41am
18th Mar 2011 8:41am
reborn
it's time for change
the moment i spread my wings
and sore the world
see such beautiful things
i get to be with my lover
forever and always in love
so accepted and happy
i feel like i'm soring above
all the problems of my past
get washed away with tears
my scars will remain
through my lifes years
but i will not be judged
i'll be confident and proud
for overcoming these obstacles
i'll sing it out loud
the moment i spread my wings
and sore the world
see such beautiful things
i get to be with my lover
forever and always in love
so accepted and happy
i feel like i'm soring above
all the problems of my past
get washed away with tears
my scars will remain
through my lifes years
but i will not be judged
i'll be confident and proud
for overcoming these obstacles
i'll sing it out loud
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DARK POEM
Published
1st Mar 2011 7:26pm
1st Mar 2011 7:26pm
unworthy
bye bye you insignificant beings.
i can't even spit out your vile names.
you are not worthy of my heart.
i am not worthy to be your kin.
(each slice feels better than the rest.
the end is drawing nearer in my flesh.)
once all the blood is drained from my body.
i'll write down my farewells in a bitter transcript.
i wish to strangle you with the puppet strings around my hands.
and watch your eyes enlarge and pop like my pierced heart.
(cut cut cut and drip drip drip.
paler the skin goes with a blueish tinge.)
scream and curse...
i can't even spit out your vile names.
you are not worthy of my heart.
i am not worthy to be your kin.
(each slice feels better than the rest.
the end is drawing nearer in my flesh.)
once all the blood is drained from my body.
i'll write down my farewells in a bitter transcript.
i wish to strangle you with the puppet strings around my hands.
and watch your eyes enlarge and pop like my pierced heart.
(cut cut cut and drip drip drip.
paler the skin goes with a blueish tinge.)
scream and curse...
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LOVE POEM
Published
22nd Feb 2011 10:24pm
22nd Feb 2011 10:24pm
i love you
my darling, you are my soul mate and my best friend,
someone i never want to lose and never forget...
i feel so lost without your gentle touch,
i miss our bodies touching so much...
you guide me through the dark road of my mind,
i know you'd never leave me behind...
you are my muse, the keeper of my heart and soul,
without you i feel so lost, empty and alone...
when we met our love manifested into something so strong,
something that we've been wanting for so long...
our souls are entwined in a beautiful neverending...
someone i never want to lose and never forget...
i feel so lost without your gentle touch,
i miss our bodies touching so much...
you guide me through the dark road of my mind,
i know you'd never leave me behind...
you are my muse, the keeper of my heart and soul,
without you i feel so lost, empty and alone...
when we met our love manifested into something so strong,
something that we've been wanting for so long...
our souls are entwined in a beautiful neverending...
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DARK POEM
Published
11th Feb 2011 10:00pm
11th Feb 2011 10:00pm
night~terror
overlooking the dying sun,
i see tree's casting gloomy shadows,
their claws scratching at the pittyful grass,
a decaying corpse laid distorted in front of me.
the stench of loss fills my nostrils,
the moon glares at me saying i could have done more,
knowing i'm a lost soul undeservant of anything realistic,
the sun behind it stabbing me in the back making me bleed.
the wind pushes me to the ground and pulls my hair,
the rain pours down trying to create a tsunami to drown me,
i hear people running away from me and screaming in absolute terror,...
i see tree's casting gloomy shadows,
their claws scratching at the pittyful grass,
a decaying corpse laid distorted in front of me.
the stench of loss fills my nostrils,
the moon glares at me saying i could have done more,
knowing i'm a lost soul undeservant of anything realistic,
the sun behind it stabbing me in the back making me bleed.
the wind pushes me to the ground and pulls my hair,
the rain pours down trying to create a tsunami to drown me,
i hear people running away from me and screaming in absolute terror,...
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ANGER POEM
Published
11th Feb 2011 9:48pm
11th Feb 2011 9:48pm
dear brother
unless you have been in this situation yourself
i don't recommend judging me and taking the piss!
this is something you don't understand boy
and if you continue to torture me so i shall make you understand my pain!
you should know that some of these scars are caused by you
spread rumours of me being emo haha i suggest you think twice about that!
one day i will get my revenge you twisted boy and i shall become the twisted
i shall relish at the thought of putting you in my lifes hardship!
hehe first i shall get you alone one dark night...
i don't recommend judging me and taking the piss!
this is something you don't understand boy
and if you continue to torture me so i shall make you understand my pain!
you should know that some of these scars are caused by you
spread rumours of me being emo haha i suggest you think twice about that!
one day i will get my revenge you twisted boy and i shall become the twisted
i shall relish at the thought of putting you in my lifes hardship!
hehe first i shall get you alone one dark night...
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