Submissions by Alyssabarletta
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
DARK POEM
Published
29th May 2020 7:00pm
29th May 2020 7:00pm
Mirrored Flaws
Do you ever stare at yourself in the mirror
Disconnected from the fear and longing in your dreary eyes
Wondering if others see you the way you are in the moment
Tortured with anguish the lonely girl fighting her way outside
For the eyes are the gate to your soul
Or so they say but if so my soul is tainted losing control searching for something to drown in the void
Searching for answers to questions everyone else finds paranoid
Breaking down as i stare into these foreign eyes until my vision blurs
Panic settling in on the floor away from the...
Disconnected from the fear and longing in your dreary eyes
Wondering if others see you the way you are in the moment
Tortured with anguish the lonely girl fighting her way outside
For the eyes are the gate to your soul
Or so they say but if so my soul is tainted losing control searching for something to drown in the void
Searching for answers to questions everyone else finds paranoid
Breaking down as i stare into these foreign eyes until my vision blurs
Panic settling in on the floor away from the...
#depression
#addiction
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DRUGS POEM
Published
30th Apr 2020 4:16am
30th Apr 2020 4:16am
Addiction Never Ceases to Haunt my Dreams
Losing the years trapped up inside my head
too many tears wanting to just be dead
As i withered away afraid of every thought
I didn't think of all the destruction it brought
Watching other people fall into the grasp
Reaching their hands out as my own hand shaking that familiar twitch of drugs
clasped Shut the cuffs like your mouth as the flip switches off with the final droplets of water in the corner of your eye slightingly gleaming
Something changing in your eyes age seeps down the wrinkles forming creasing your young skin only sixteen
Those...
too many tears wanting to just be dead
As i withered away afraid of every thought
I didn't think of all the destruction it brought
Watching other people fall into the grasp
Reaching their hands out as my own hand shaking that familiar twitch of drugs
clasped Shut the cuffs like your mouth as the flip switches off with the final droplets of water in the corner of your eye slightingly gleaming
Something changing in your eyes age seeps down the wrinkles forming creasing your young skin only sixteen
Those...
#drugs
#addiction
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SELF POEM
Published
21st Mar 2020 2:08pm
21st Mar 2020 2:08pm
Psycho
Staggering through the thoughts remains
The tired racing minds of cranial domains
Never ending never quiet
Saying that i need to try it
Sounds and images appear around me
Desolate halls that others don't see
Covered in blood of the elderly
Gory details fill my life
Details of such others couldn’t strife
To understand the crazy minded
Of those tainted with the grinded
Scarring inconclusive truth
Inability to remain couth
how could one feel so lonely
With 12 voices over me
Hearing whispers racing...
The tired racing minds of cranial domains
Never ending never quiet
Saying that i need to try it
Sounds and images appear around me
Desolate halls that others don't see
Covered in blood of the elderly
Gory details fill my life
Details of such others couldn’t strife
To understand the crazy minded
Of those tainted with the grinded
Scarring inconclusive truth
Inability to remain couth
how could one feel so lonely
With 12 voices over me
Hearing whispers racing...
#anger
#dark
#MentalHealth
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NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
21st Mar 2020 2:37am
21st Mar 2020 2:37am
Corona quarantine
Feeling life on the brink of death
Ready for this ship to crash to wreck
Not ready to be at peace for a life lived fully
Ready to die and give up sullenly
For a life lived by its lonely
Is not a life lived fully
Theres no wonder left or quotas to be met
I give up hang my soul to rest
Quarantine is too much for the ill minded
Take away my distractions and im blinded
Blacked out emptied into the void
Tobacco smoke guilting me paranoid
Cancer surrounds me and my dreams cloud with drugs
For there is no place...
Ready for this ship to crash to wreck
Not ready to be at peace for a life lived fully
Ready to die and give up sullenly
For a life lived by its lonely
Is not a life lived fully
Theres no wonder left or quotas to be met
I give up hang my soul to rest
Quarantine is too much for the ill minded
Take away my distractions and im blinded
Blacked out emptied into the void
Tobacco smoke guilting me paranoid
Cancer surrounds me and my dreams cloud with drugs
For there is no place...
#universe
#dark
#death #tobacco
#death #tobacco
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DRUGS POEM
Published
14th Jul 2018 00:04am
14th Jul 2018 00:04am
Teeth stained red
Unable to picture a life without relief
Growing exhausted in attempt to hide grief
Today nobody will know what’s behind
My eyes learning to properly mask an ill mind
Smiling at the wall practicing a laugh
To give off the appearance I am still intact
Forcing food to go down when my mouth remains dry at the thought of my teeth in stains
Darkened with red drops of blood
Freshly coughed as more flood
Disappearing into itself my body is aching
Thoughts constantly back to the pills keep me shaking
Meditate more close that...
Growing exhausted in attempt to hide grief
Today nobody will know what’s behind
My eyes learning to properly mask an ill mind
Smiling at the wall practicing a laugh
To give off the appearance I am still intact
Forcing food to go down when my mouth remains dry at the thought of my teeth in stains
Darkened with red drops of blood
Freshly coughed as more flood
Disappearing into itself my body is aching
Thoughts constantly back to the pills keep me shaking
Meditate more close that...
#addiction
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LOVE POEM
Published
31st Mar 2018 00:41am
31st Mar 2018 00:41am
Ripped to Rehab
Lonely and broken feelings sweep
Through my soul spilling tears that I weap
His energy remains though his body is distant
Touch remembered now only in memories consistent crash of the wall standing in front my subconscious all day long
Images of the face made when he sat on the drums- melody mocks his song
Curves made with the crooked smile
Dimples form as Deathcore is playing vile
Feeling his spirit softly spreading magnetic energies as I walk in the door
Doubts wash away his vibes makes me sure
Time without him enlarges my...
Through my soul spilling tears that I weap
His energy remains though his body is distant
Touch remembered now only in memories consistent crash of the wall standing in front my subconscious all day long
Images of the face made when he sat on the drums- melody mocks his song
Curves made with the crooked smile
Dimples form as Deathcore is playing vile
Feeling his spirit softly spreading magnetic energies as I walk in the door
Doubts wash away his vibes makes me sure
Time without him enlarges my...
#FallingInLove
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DRUGS POEM
Published
7th Mar 2018 3:17am
7th Mar 2018 3:17am
420 in the court
Wrong in my denial of a force so powerful with all my might could not hide
You see there’s no imprisoning my thoughts from inside
No containing the mind of 12 with only bars you held
Kept in a cage for now…
but I always get out
Medicinal herbs in their peaceful potency awaiting my return from this cage we are stern
A steel wall invincible from every wrongful law
Your mistake was giving us time to conspire
One there is no conceivable way you can extinguish our fire
Ignited through the fluid flick of your lighter
Crumbling our...
You see there’s no imprisoning my thoughts from inside
No containing the mind of 12 with only bars you held
Kept in a cage for now…
but I always get out
Medicinal herbs in their peaceful potency awaiting my return from this cage we are stern
A steel wall invincible from every wrongful law
Your mistake was giving us time to conspire
One there is no conceivable way you can extinguish our fire
Ignited through the fluid flick of your lighter
Crumbling our...
#marijuana
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DARK POEM
Published
7th Mar 2018 1:04am
7th Mar 2018 1:04am
From my eye’s vessel
This time I will keep my composure I can mend my tortured exposure.
Illy constrained blackness inside of wicked contortions of no capable outside mind’s distortion.
Colors of fire flash before my eyes
roaring. clawing. for its escape to withdraw its disguise behind which he resides. Caged. Confined.
Red yellow blue
I cannot stop the contractions pulsing Blood vessels of silvery sludge through the eye socket factions.
Black smoky flames trodden the waterline of my bottom eyelid to my pupil’s glisten.
noise from within containing darkness. sin. I...
Illy constrained blackness inside of wicked contortions of no capable outside mind’s distortion.
Colors of fire flash before my eyes
roaring. clawing. for its escape to withdraw its disguise behind which he resides. Caged. Confined.
Red yellow blue
I cannot stop the contractions pulsing Blood vessels of silvery sludge through the eye socket factions.
Black smoky flames trodden the waterline of my bottom eyelid to my pupil’s glisten.
noise from within containing darkness. sin. I...
#dark
#MentalHealth
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DRUGS POEM
Published
28th Feb 2018 6:20am
28th Feb 2018 6:20am
Broken
Keep trying to hide my head
Never aware of what goes on
Blurring my mind i feel half dead
Clouded and foggier than before
Shaking it off as best I can
Seeming to cut deeper more
Being told you’re worthless
A drug addict cross dressing piece of trash
Eventually seems more true as if slander is worth the press
Tearing me down daily
Effortlessly not considering the effects it has
Drowning it out with another pill I hide palely
Zombified appearing more sane
Remembering the time i didn’t crave another
But with...
Never aware of what goes on
Blurring my mind i feel half dead
Clouded and foggier than before
Shaking it off as best I can
Seeming to cut deeper more
Being told you’re worthless
A drug addict cross dressing piece of trash
Eventually seems more true as if slander is worth the press
Tearing me down daily
Effortlessly not considering the effects it has
Drowning it out with another pill I hide palely
Zombified appearing more sane
Remembering the time i didn’t crave another
But with...
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SELF POEM
Published
28th Feb 2018 5:57am
28th Feb 2018 5:57am
Suicidal tendencies
Putting something so deadly between my fingers
Feeling the blood flow every slice of the razor
Death never sounded as peaceful as it does in this foggy rainy night
Tranquility to an end in sight
Grasping the death tool strewed together lazily
So much pain my brains hazy
I keep thrashing downward
The more blood comes out the less I feel like a coward
Kitten scratches are all I can manage
As the phone calls flood with baggage
Screeching in my brain makes it difficult to go deeper
Twelve people appear in a circle around...
Feeling the blood flow every slice of the razor
Death never sounded as peaceful as it does in this foggy rainy night
Tranquility to an end in sight
Grasping the death tool strewed together lazily
So much pain my brains hazy
I keep thrashing downward
The more blood comes out the less I feel like a coward
Kitten scratches are all I can manage
As the phone calls flood with baggage
Screeching in my brain makes it difficult to go deeper
Twelve people appear in a circle around...
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SELF POEM
Published
19th Feb 2018 7:17pm
19th Feb 2018 7:17pm
Cold
A table appears out of thin air
My limp body sprawled across skin fair
You can see the sludge my blood gone cold
The room shifts into a hospital fold
The lights get brighter I can feel the tension
My body bloating out in extension
The trance seems to last forever
Walking through my house stuck in this endeavor
I died from Xanax a white froth gathered at my bloated lips
The image begins to slip
I hear tanner calling out for me
But I’m so far out of this dimension to see
The room shifts back
The demons...
My limp body sprawled across skin fair
You can see the sludge my blood gone cold
The room shifts into a hospital fold
The lights get brighter I can feel the tension
My body bloating out in extension
The trance seems to last forever
Walking through my house stuck in this endeavor
I died from Xanax a white froth gathered at my bloated lips
The image begins to slip
I hear tanner calling out for me
But I’m so far out of this dimension to see
The room shifts back
The demons...
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DRUGS POEM
Published
19th Feb 2018 6:08pm
19th Feb 2018 6:08pm
Road to recovery
We have become detrimental
Everything that’s been done is difficult to remember
My mind swimming with words from court
The word lonely an understatement of sorts
My words becoming harder to understand
Reality slipping through the cracks over which I stand
Death seems the only topic
Failure blankets my vision myopic
They say life is the choices you make
But mine feels like a game of mistakes
Overthinking kills every word from my tongue
Occupying it with more weed dulling the hum
Blood surrounding my face ...
Everything that’s been done is difficult to remember
My mind swimming with words from court
The word lonely an understatement of sorts
My words becoming harder to understand
Reality slipping through the cracks over which I stand
Death seems the only topic
Failure blankets my vision myopic
They say life is the choices you make
But mine feels like a game of mistakes
Overthinking kills every word from my tongue
Occupying it with more weed dulling the hum
Blood surrounding my face ...
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