Submissions by Addi82 (Addi)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I have been writing as long as i can remember. Most of the time it is the only way i can express myself. Its a form of therapy for me.
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
23rd Aug 2022 10:03am
23rd Aug 2022 10:03am
My Mental
What's wrong with me
why do these thoughts fill my head
My outlook is bleak
my thoughts filled with dread
On the outside
I seem fine
but truth be told
I haven't been for quite some time
I fake it till I make it
I force a smile
If I seem happy
maybe people will leave me alone for a while
I don't fit in
always feel alone
I always have a house
but never a home
Voices taunt me
secret conversations in my head
They tell me I'm worthless
and better off dead
I push these thoughts away
I hide...
why do these thoughts fill my head
My outlook is bleak
my thoughts filled with dread
On the outside
I seem fine
but truth be told
I haven't been for quite some time
I fake it till I make it
I force a smile
If I seem happy
maybe people will leave me alone for a while
I don't fit in
always feel alone
I always have a house
but never a home
Voices taunt me
secret conversations in my head
They tell me I'm worthless
and better off dead
I push these thoughts away
I hide...
#bipolar
#MentalHealth
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
23rd Aug 2022 9:31am
23rd Aug 2022 9:31am
4 My Sister
My sister
my friend,
I promised to make up for lost time
not knowing yours was coming to an end.
Now you're gone
and I cant come to terms,
I can't imagine a life without you
but guess I'll have to learn.
You're gone too soon
only 33,
Everything happens for a reason
but hard as I try I just cant see.
I miss your late night drunk calls
full of laughs,
I miss sitting around the fire
talkin bout the past.
Strawberry Wine
everyone singing karaoke,
I don't know who sounded worse ...
my friend,
I promised to make up for lost time
not knowing yours was coming to an end.
Now you're gone
and I cant come to terms,
I can't imagine a life without you
but guess I'll have to learn.
You're gone too soon
only 33,
Everything happens for a reason
but hard as I try I just cant see.
I miss your late night drunk calls
full of laughs,
I miss sitting around the fire
talkin bout the past.
Strawberry Wine
everyone singing karaoke,
I don't know who sounded worse ...
#grief
#sister
#death
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2 Comments
DRUGS POEM
Published
1st Mar 2022 12:49pm
1st Mar 2022 12:49pm
sober
sober
the word sounds foreign
I've wanted this for a while
but didn't know where to begin
I'm actually clean
almost a month now
I thought this day would never come
I'm actually proud of myself ,wow
each day has its challenges
but nothing I can't get through
I get stronger everyday
with each little thing I do or don't do
the days are adding up
there's no turning back
I'm f****** sober
and it feels good to be able to say that
the word sounds foreign
I've wanted this for a while
but didn't know where to begin
I'm actually clean
almost a month now
I thought this day would never come
I'm actually proud of myself ,wow
each day has its challenges
but nothing I can't get through
I get stronger everyday
with each little thing I do or don't do
the days are adding up
there's no turning back
I'm f****** sober
and it feels good to be able to say that
#addiction
#MentalHealth
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LOVE POEM
Published
1st Mar 2022 3:22am
1st Mar 2022 3:22am
from a distance
never a constant
always coming and going
leaving me confused
always wondering and never knowing
claiming you love me
but showing me different
my energy and tolerance exhausted
but I can't get back time spent
you are a hard lesson
but one I had to learn
love is a Battlefield
it's striped I certainly did earn
I'm moving forward
that's all I can really do
I need to fix myself
and stop trying to save you
thank you for the good times
all the laughs and the memories
but I can't love you anymore
I...
always coming and going
leaving me confused
always wondering and never knowing
claiming you love me
but showing me different
my energy and tolerance exhausted
but I can't get back time spent
you are a hard lesson
but one I had to learn
love is a Battlefield
it's striped I certainly did earn
I'm moving forward
that's all I can really do
I need to fix myself
and stop trying to save you
thank you for the good times
all the laughs and the memories
but I can't love you anymore
I...
#strength
#motivational
#TimeHeals #emotions
#TimeHeals #emotions
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4 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
1st Mar 2022 2:59am
1st Mar 2022 2:59am
Solo Dolo
the clouds have parted
the skies are beginning to clear
Im happy by myself now
when alone was all I used to fear
it's been over a month now
since I last heard your voice
I once thought I couldn't live without you
but im ok since this time it was my choice
I Can Do Bad All By Myself
we've all heard that before
but why let you drag me
when I deserve so much more
I treated you with love and respect
like a f****** King
you lied cheated and abused me
when I was supposed to be your queen
I no longer miss you ...
the skies are beginning to clear
Im happy by myself now
when alone was all I used to fear
it's been over a month now
since I last heard your voice
I once thought I couldn't live without you
but im ok since this time it was my choice
I Can Do Bad All By Myself
we've all heard that before
but why let you drag me
when I deserve so much more
I treated you with love and respect
like a f****** King
you lied cheated and abused me
when I was supposed to be your queen
I no longer miss you ...
#strength
#motivational
#TimeHeals #emotions
#TimeHeals #emotions
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LOVE POEM
Published
21st Sep 2021 6:26pm
21st Sep 2021 6:26pm
is it me?
ok i get it
i understand
i can see why
i cant seem to keep a man
i know i've got issues
im broken damaged and no good
and with so many other options
id choose someone else if i could
a real lady perhaps
classy, with style and grace
a banging body
with a beautiful face
someone who doesn't cuss
who is tidy, neat & clean
someone soft and gentle
maybe not quite so mean
i'm not the prettiest
i'm clumsy and a complete mess
and my idea of dressin up
is a cheap lil walmart dress ...
i understand
i can see why
i cant seem to keep a man
i know i've got issues
im broken damaged and no good
and with so many other options
id choose someone else if i could
a real lady perhaps
classy, with style and grace
a banging body
with a beautiful face
someone who doesn't cuss
who is tidy, neat & clean
someone soft and gentle
maybe not quite so mean
i'm not the prettiest
i'm clumsy and a complete mess
and my idea of dressin up
is a cheap lil walmart dress ...
#sadness
#jealousy
#heartbroken
#frustration
#disappointment
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3 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
5th Aug 2021 11:44am
5th Aug 2021 11:44am
O' Wandering Soul of Mine
What are you seeking
O’ Wondering soul of mine?
What is it that drives you
what do you wish to find?
A lifetime of travel
that knows no end.
One foot in front of the other
the road my only friend.
What is it inside of me
that sparks the hunger inside?
What makes me seek that feeling
that thrill of the ride?
Torn between two worlds
longing to feel at home.
Wishing I could finally stay
but knowing I was born to roam.
These two feet of mine
they have brought me so far
more than any...
O’ Wondering soul of mine?
What is it that drives you
what do you wish to find?
A lifetime of travel
that knows no end.
One foot in front of the other
the road my only friend.
What is it inside of me
that sparks the hunger inside?
What makes me seek that feeling
that thrill of the ride?
Torn between two worlds
longing to feel at home.
Wishing I could finally stay
but knowing I was born to roam.
These two feet of mine
they have brought me so far
more than any...
#strength
#courage
#redemption #emotions
#redemption #emotions
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2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
28th May 2020 8:30am
28th May 2020 8:30am
MIND OF A MANIC
welcome
to the mind of a manic
constant confusion
forever in a state of panic
never knowing what i want
ruining every thing i touch
pushing people away
refusing love
yet needing it so much
i hate this life
its like a curse
like a big play
that i forgot to rehearse
a constant failure
a complete mess inside
i feel isolated
but its because i hide
i can clearly see the problems
but im helpless
3am
im in full makeup and a dress
dont know what to do
feeling lost
what am i doing, i...
to the mind of a manic
constant confusion
forever in a state of panic
never knowing what i want
ruining every thing i touch
pushing people away
refusing love
yet needing it so much
i hate this life
its like a curse
like a big play
that i forgot to rehearse
a constant failure
a complete mess inside
i feel isolated
but its because i hide
i can clearly see the problems
but im helpless
3am
im in full makeup and a dress
dont know what to do
feeling lost
what am i doing, i...
#sadness
#anxiety
#loneliness
#confusion
#emptiness
433 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
28th May 2020 6:08am
28th May 2020 6:08am
im done
today i made a choice
i chose myself
im letting you go
my hearts going back on a shelf
inside a thick glass jar
locked away from all the pain
i dont want you anymore
im not gonna let you hurt me again
your so self absorbed
a narcissist to the core
always accusing me
but in reality, you're the whore
always putting me down
always lying
im always begging you to stay
but im sick of trying
so fuck it
i will break my own heart
do it myself and get it over with
instead of letting you slowly rip it apart ...
i chose myself
im letting you go
my hearts going back on a shelf
inside a thick glass jar
locked away from all the pain
i dont want you anymore
im not gonna let you hurt me again
your so self absorbed
a narcissist to the core
always accusing me
but in reality, you're the whore
always putting me down
always lying
im always begging you to stay
but im sick of trying
so fuck it
i will break my own heart
do it myself and get it over with
instead of letting you slowly rip it apart ...
#heartbroken
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4 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
6th May 2020 10:22pm
6th May 2020 10:22pm
please love me again
your words are like fists
they leave me battered and bruised
I hear you when you say you love me
but your actions leave me confused
stop tearing me down
I already hate who I am
I love you so I stay
but eventually, I won't give a damn
I build you up
encourage you in every way
so it hurts me inside
to hear the words that you say
you act as if you hate me one minute
then love me the next
oh how I wanna hate you back
but my love for you leaves me perplexed
you say I do nothing at all
and show me...
they leave me battered and bruised
I hear you when you say you love me
but your actions leave me confused
stop tearing me down
I already hate who I am
I love you so I stay
but eventually, I won't give a damn
I build you up
encourage you in every way
so it hurts me inside
to hear the words that you say
you act as if you hate me one minute
then love me the next
oh how I wanna hate you back
but my love for you leaves me perplexed
you say I do nothing at all
and show me...
#sadness
#confusion
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2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
15th Apr 2020 2:15am
15th Apr 2020 2:15am
a glimpse of my insanity
Why can't i be normal
just act like a lady
have a boring life
be happy just being me
constantly fighting
trying to get ahead of the game
never reach my goals
every day is the same
you wouldn't believe me
if I told you my story
if I bared my soul
in all its glory
I've loved and lost
I've had failures and success
I've been on top
and I've been a mess
wasted so much time
wish I could get back those years
id do things different
maybe avoid some tears
id enjoy the little things
not be in such...
just act like a lady
have a boring life
be happy just being me
constantly fighting
trying to get ahead of the game
never reach my goals
every day is the same
you wouldn't believe me
if I told you my story
if I bared my soul
in all its glory
I've loved and lost
I've had failures and success
I've been on top
and I've been a mess
wasted so much time
wish I could get back those years
id do things different
maybe avoid some tears
id enjoy the little things
not be in such...
#anger
#anxiety
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4 Comments
DRUGS POEM
Published
10th Apr 2020 5:35am
10th Apr 2020 5:35am
overdose and comatose
was it an accident
id like to say so
just can't do it
cause deep down I know
didn't wanna feel the pain
couldn't take it anymore
wanted to go numb
tired of watching u walk out that door
tired of all the fighting
tired of being put down
I think it would be better without me
if I were not around
you love me one minute
then say you hate me
it's killing me
cant you see
fuck it
I will just hit this line
probably shouldn't
but fuck, it'll be fine
done
gone
black
all alone
then...
id like to say so
just can't do it
cause deep down I know
didn't wanna feel the pain
couldn't take it anymore
wanted to go numb
tired of watching u walk out that door
tired of all the fighting
tired of being put down
I think it would be better without me
if I were not around
you love me one minute
then say you hate me
it's killing me
cant you see
fuck it
I will just hit this line
probably shouldn't
but fuck, it'll be fine
done
gone
black
all alone
then...
#dark
#heartbroken
#despair
#disappointment
#emptiness
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