overdose and comatose

was it an accident
id like to say so
just can't do it
cause deep down I know
didn't wanna feel the pain
couldn't take it anymore
wanted to go numb
tired of watching u walk out that door
tired of all the fighting
tired of being put down
I think it would be better without me
if I were not around
you love me one minute
then say you hate me
it's killing me
cant you see
fuck it
I will just hit this line
probably shouldn't
but fuck, it'll be fine
done
gone
black
all alone
then suddenly I'm back
confused and scared
crying my eyes out
wondering if u even cared
took 2 rounds of Narcan
straight up the nose
I'm so tired
but can't let my eyes close
It's so cold
withdrawals so intense
wanted to die but now fighting to live
it makes no sense
I was snatched back
from some dark black hole
death was what I longed for
I almost met my goal
two days sober
still going strong
I will never touch that shit again
no matter how much goes wrong