FORGIVENESS

hey Kitty, this one may not be fitting as it's not quite me wanting to forgive but about forgiveness anyway...
Ignore if non applicable

Just Like That...

I remember a card that read
"I don't know where I am, but I know I'm missing you"
delivered by the florist
he was out on the road
and I was never home
or sane
in those days
and when it came to loving
I was failing, at best
and though it was so much more
than sex
I was working with less
than he deserved and needed
and there's still some things
I can't think
about then, even now

There was always a certain something
keeping us at nothing
going nowhere
so fast...

a few words muttered
in his truck, roadside
he was pleading

and I just had to keep leaving

like that, it was over
and done

us both, moved on
Forgiveness the only closure
the only door left
open

I leave a lot of freedom in the expression of any poem as some people will say things literally and the other in a abstract mode...not to worry Miki

Poetic Engineer - thank you for your poem.

I've been angry for so long,
Raging 'gainst a one-time friend.
A pain in heart and tears in eye—
When will it ever end?

I don't remember how it started,
How kindred souls came to hate.
I can't recall why we fought—
It can't be just "pure Fate."

I've held on to rage so long,
Scheming and dreaming your doom.
Who knew that a thing so sweet
Could turn sour so soon?

I've lived on hate unendingly,
Cursing tortured worst to you.
Through hoping for your pained demise,
I'm now broken and twisted too.  

Maybe if I let go at last,
I will be finally renewed—
The stabbing knife in my heart
Gone as I forgive you.

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If I Could Forgive

If I could forgive, my mind would be free
The weight of the world would be lifted from me

If I could forget, it would all fall in to place
I could look at you with love and not disgrace

If I could let go of the pain inside
Love would win, the resentment denied

If I could dig deep enough to find my core
I would have the strength not to hate anymore

If I could wipe all the images from my brain
I could rescue my head before I go insane

If I don't find a way I will be stuck in this cage
Forever bitter and twisted, a prisoner of rage.

A good idea.  Then you have "the monkey" off your back.

If you forgive....you are no longer attached to the object of your hate or grudge or whatever....you have broken the chain that binds.....However, you have to forgive...with the realization that some people will keep a grudge, no matter how petty...for the rest of their lives....

I've recently read somewhere
that real forgiveness, in  its purity
can only  be found in  a flower
when it gives off its last great scent
after being plucked out of the earth

It seems more likely to me though
that last burst of fragrence
is the flowers way
of showing its tits to us
before  storming off in a strop

i know God forgives. forgiving myself.. that's a whole nother story. but ill try to forgive myself.

Forgiven


The strength of what it takes
Brings on most powerful tears
You'll soon find out what it takes
To bring true, this man's fears

You damaged me young
And spun my mind askew
In time you fucked my mind
And broke me through and through

Damage done once, young me totally unknowing
12 years later, damage thoroughly showing
But I had a kid, and started a family
As an adult, there's nothing you can do to me
To break me more, than you have already done
Then I introduce you to my first legitimate son
And the two I adopted, and my beautiful wife
Biggest mistake I'll ever make,
In my humble little life
For reasons unknown, selfish I assume
You called protective services and had my kids removed

Let me break this down in laymens terms
Cause a bullet to the brain is what you almost earned
In my youngest years,
In my fantasies and my dreams
The only thing I'd see is my wife and my kids
My own family
My minnie me dream team
Through the many years,
Thats all I ever wanted in life
But you caused nothing but strife
For me and my saint of a wife

We loved our kids hard
Spoiled them to say the least
But then our son was born, terminally ill
With the stress we just prayed for release
Though we got him meds, precious still fell ill

Then you came to my fam
And I'll be damned
You thrashed and trashed my pod
Smoked and cashed my tight knit family
Damn near sending me
To the loony bin academy

A little insight
from a man in torment
To a woman looking for a fight
700 miles separating us
I think it saved your life
You see what I wanted to do
Was super slow and torturous
A fast death to such a soul
You didn't deserve it and certainly didn't earn it
I wanted to cut your belly
And pull your skin up over your head
And watch you suffocate slowly
I'd watch until you were dead
I wished all pain and torment
Upon your wicked soul
Grey hair thick upon my chin
Your deeds, they took their toll

You ran your mouth and did what you did
Ripped like my heart from my chest
The state kidnapped our kids
2years of torment jumping hoops and taking their shit
We fought a good fight and did what we could
In the end we stand broken
And it did us no good

Because of your word my family was in tatters
And my tight knit family
Was strewn out and scattered
Weak weary and thrashed
At night when I lay down to crash
The only thoughts that I thought were how to get even

"BITCH, I CAN'T WAIT FOR YOUR DEATH
TO SHIT ON YOUR HEAD STONE!!!"
Screams of torture and pain in my head,
"LEAVE ME ALONE!!"

The weight of regrets
And thoughts of "What if?"
My hairs turning grey
I need peace and release
From my prison cell of regret
Peace of mind would be a gift

But then one day
My queen of a wife offered me solis
"Put yourself in her shoes
Then ponder thoughts of what if"
"My poor man, with his tortured soul...
What tormented your mom
That she couldn't leave you whole?"

Then thoughts of Anne, her crazy ass mom
She messed my mom's thoughts
As she had mine
At that point, this man made up his mind
Like a weight lifted
A ton at least
The forgiveness I felt
Caged up this vengeful beast
The relief and release
From a lifetime of grief

The relax I felt
From a deeply serious hurt
Makes it hard man
To shop for a shirt
For deep in my chest
Straight to my soul
Dug massive in my chest
An ungodly deep hole
Ever uncovered
For lack of a shirt
To pull over my head
And cover my hurt

It hurt like a mother fucker
Cause I'll never again have my mother
While her shenanigans are forgiven
She's better 700 miles away
Where she's been living
Kept at arms reach,
Never to trust, but always forgiven...

“Cockroach Forgiveness”
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(A Poem About Insect Justice)
In their luxury,
they step on you
with not
much to say
afterwards,
wearing
coy-smiles.
Watching you
spin
with broken legs,
they feign
for your forgiveness,
knowing deep inside,
they were the cause
of such demise,
their lies.
Laughing gleefully
while
they watch you
try
to upright yourself
with spilling guts,
such fakers,
pathetic
spirit-takers.
You do
what you do best,
flip over and them off,
go on about
your business,
No matter,
you’ll see them
in the apocalypse,
crying for
survival-tips
from the
forgiving roaches
surrounding them
for lunch.

There is still time for more poems as the competition ends tomorrow afternoon.

COMPETITION - FORGIVENESS
 
WINNER Dark Angel (redstar)
   
RUNNER-UP: mikimoondancer and Poetic Engineer (EngrVV)  

Thank you to all who participated.
All the poems showed the vast talents of people on DUP.
Peace
Kitty

Thank you. Congrats mikimoondancer and Poetic Engineer (EngrVV).