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Epiphany of Alice


'No effect'.

An aphrodisiac underestimates
this numb glory
such a pact with the pack
of ferrets
that lie in wait for her,
lie in wait to crawl behind her neck
and nip on her informal vertebrae,
cracking spine is another way out
        'No effect'

She appears on the 'ghostly hollows,
tree and all with limp branches to twine
wind.


            "The penetration was never EVER
graceful, though all is well".
 
Her nose shaped in a home-made metal pole
 The evil pinnochio
         
     For she bled;
the false magic was a warning sign. Pounding the womb to threads

Her eyes were blocks, you see?
And the sorcerer claimed to
introduced her to the legal bound,
when the earth was truly ash
Then the serpent sprung his hellish teeth,
the vision was just a fornicated sheer,
A fornicated sheer she was


           'No effect', she still says,.
The pipe was full of  earth,
so she could cut off her nose again
and couldn't smell the
                                 squirming hell-spawn in the
                                      middle of it.
Took a whiff,
          inhaled the beauty
laughing the chosen one through her
                                 wooden eyes,
                           a flame dressed
                     in a corset appeared
Sorcerer gave her fools
and now I can still hear her


Screaming,
dying once more

blowing into a rabbit hole.

The Memories





The memories i have,
that will haunt me forever..
I'm over eeling this way,
the pain and misery..

i look upon my arms,
i see the scars.
the memories,
they come flooding back..
fro those times,
when i sat there,
with the razor..

it all comes back,
like a tidal wave..
it crushes me,
with pain....

it causes me,
to break down and cry.
to think about doing it again,
i find that razor.
it sits there,
staring at me..

i think im good enough,
good enough to stop..
but i love,
the red blood trickling down my arm,
the sensation it gives me,
the rush....

great more memories..
that remind me,
of everything i hate..
they are the reason,
i try to kill myself

Anorexia

her name is Anorexia, she wont eat until she die,
eating nothing at all so sick it makes her cry.
not eating away from all just only left the pain.
breeding parasite prevails and leaches on her brain.

taunts her with its strength,
Decisions to be made.
Feeding on her agony, her mirrors never lie.

Stepping on the scale,
praying she loos weight.
all that this is true, her body she just hate.

Hollow eyes and cold skin
her body grew week , fragile and thin.

Anorexia is dying, she needs to take control.
but her body begins to feel dry.

to her she falls deeper in dispear
its her weight of the world.

Her eyes have lost their sparkle,
and her voice creaks and stumbles..
Thorn bushes growing choking out what little life exists,
acid and fluid slows down this pain she cant resist.

dying, crying, falling , calling,
because she only tells lies.

its seems un real for this china doll.
destroying her self image.

her name is Anorexia, she wont eat until she die.
forever in her grave decayed  she will lie.

-Kumiko Yamamoto

Fuck This Life

Dreams come and go,
Fade then vanish.
I can tell,
this is not a dream.
I can feel,
the hate burning bright inside of me.
i feel like,
No, i know
I want to die.
No one else cares about me,
this life is Fucked up.

This messed up lie,
I just wish it would all end.
The pain,
The misery.
I want it to all,
Nothing else matters in this fucked up life.
I've made up my mind,
I'm ending it all.
the pain,
The regret,
The misery,
the guilt.
Suicide is my only option.

The rope around my neck,
Or the knife through my heart.
So many decisions,
So little time.

I better write this stupid note first,
saying my goodbyes.
Goodbye fuckers,
you all never cared.
you were suppose to be  my family,
yet i was the blame.
i was allways in the wrong,
never doing right.
my life was filled,
with your stupid lies.
the one lie 'i love you',
that gets me the most.
you never really cared,
i know this is true.
everything i did,
it was allways wrong.
nothng was fucking right.

cody, my only love.
im sorry for what i am about to do.
i really do love you,
and i always will.
but this cannot go on,
this is my end.
i know you were always there for me,
but i couldnt run.
this is the only ay i can be haqppy now.
i know this is hard,
its hard for me aswell.
but this is goodbye,
i know you will find someone better,
someone that will make you happy.
ill see you again,
only in another life.
goodbye, i love you.

The guilt lingures,
under my skin.
i did a lot of thing,
i hid it from you all.
only because i knew what you would say,
like 'you are a low life,no one loves you. you need to grow up and learn to behave.'
i behaved as well as i could,
but no, i was still always wrong.

now its time,
for the end.
back to how i will do it,
how will i die?
maybe ill overdose,
maybe poison myself?
fuck it.
ill leave,
leaving the world something to talk about.
ill jump off the bridge,

wait no one will notice,
that im gone.
stuff it,
plain and simple.

Ropes tied,
camera on.
only because i want them to see,
see me die.
so tears are pouring out of my eyes,
and down my cheeks.
i say one last goodbye in a quiet, muffled voice.
i step off the chair,
now im dead.

im watching everyone mourn,
mourn over my death.
i still feel guilty,
as if i should have stayed.
i guess its to late,
i cant come back.
i'll just watch over,
them from above.

i wish i coyuld be backon earth,
trying to fix my mistakes.
all i want is a second chance.

wait what do i see,
the only person i actually cared about.
i thought he loved me,
hes with my best friend.
they are cheering,
cheering that i am gone.
okay, ive made the right choice.
i fucking hate this world.

Ok Daddy I WiLL.. ! extreme content !


Next time
mommy sleeps,

you and I
will play
so eat up
all your dinner

and put your toys away

i'll creep up
to your room tonight
and read you
a bedtime story

after words
i'll tuck you in
and we will do
a little exploring

when daddies peepee
starts to rise
you have to promise
you won't cry

"Ohhh"  

" There we go sweetie"

doesn't it feel good?
daddy loving you
just the way he should

Mmmmmm, yesss

i'm all the way in...
giving my little girl
the best of daddies sin

Shhhhhh!
it's almost over
so don't you make a sound!

as soon as
i'm done nutting

i'll gently pull it out

Oooooh the
tightest little pussy

daddies little whore

this will all be
just a dream

after
daddy shuts the door

sleep with the angels baby

Ok DaDdy I WiLL

I sit here and wish I was back in skool, were the only worry was a teachers rule,
There was no debt no struggles for jobs,
Only clever little kids who had mouthy gobs,
You grow up an see life with a whole new view,
Experiencing things it can put you through,
There's fake friends and drugs or yah hooked on beer,
Were old people at home are made to live in fear,
So much anger in the world we all live, regrettin our actions even we can't forgive,
See life in colour not plain black and white,
and try help ur self by living it right,  
How you act has a child changes if you grow wise,
And if you believe everyones vindictive lies,...

body

do you remember that childhood dreams
sometimes cold and full screams.
nights grew long and bumbs at night.
Result in catastrophe from creepy fright.
soothing words crepes up in ear.
touched you so and wiped your tear.
tears fell black from those haunting days.
waiting for the sun to shine.
sticky fingers from strawberry pie.
you promised that day you wount make me cry.

sun shined in my face, and wend blew threw my hair..
no words can show me that you do care.

shouting shouting
that beats up my head..
dropped dead body from what you said.
imposed tranquility between the brunt of the sky.
barred know so no longer i cry

-kumiko yamamoto

untitles life : hitorini shinaide

brutal behavior brought her sadness,
loneliness and eternal tears.
she cried of abandonment and fear.
sitting upon the cold field..
seeing nothing but dark sky and
dusk of wind...
imagining life as a trapped bird
only to be released form the grip of evils hands.
to be scared of herself and what life may throw at her..
she cries.

"ikanaide!!!!"

shouts her soul
clinging onto her hair and scratching at her arms..
thinking of nights she would close her eyes,
wanting to spread her wings and fly away.
to tell herself to not exist.
like open roads and widened concepts of honesty.

 "ikanaide!!!!!"
 "hitorini shinaide!!!!!"

immobilized by the image she sees
taking of spirit in dancing trees.
take control of deadly fear
edge of life, death is near
wipe your eyes, its will be over soon
and life will no longer see her
weep.


"carry me" shes speaks beyond heavenly god
feeling the pressure boil her out
exhausted she felt,
her knees grew weak,

one last step and she will fall


-kumiko Yamamoto
note- ikanaide-please don't go
     hitorini shinaide - please don't leave me

such a hard task ahead of me!!
great people!!
thank you

Drone.

The ultimate act of cruelty
is to bring another life into this world.
We all suffer, we are all in pain.
And death is your reward
to attribute to your struggle.
A fitting reward, for the drone spawn.
Serve the state, your dictated destiny.
Educate you just enough
to work the machines
but to happily accept
a Government fucking you insane.
And serve you will.
Until you are discarded as worthless,
this is the fate of the fetus.