Break ups suck shit

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Hold Me Near

The waning and waxing of the moon must come.
Phases are rampant and desires they come.

You ripped my heart out and laid it in the sun,
to wither and die when things for us had just begun.

Stop pushing me away, because you will find that
I'll surely be gone one day in time.

Never to return or hold you near, please just stop
with all this fear.

Just trust and believe and hold me near.

.:Separate Ways:.


[color=Navy]Once
Attractive
Now unattractive…we’ve drifted
No longer lifted..

Decisively...we're into the ugly
How it bugged me
Nothing to lure us back in
BIG Game without the Buy-in
We…no longer wanting  
But wanting & needing some order
We…as a pair it’s like we loiter

Tempers fused confused and have gotten even shorter
Eyes…they no longer wanted to behold her
Ready to shred this folder
Game is lame…it’s just gotten colder
Briefly wondering if eye just got older

While together nothing to heat the core
Nothing for us to stand in-line for
Obviously…or at least to me

Beauty? That status? No longer had us

No longer
her
me


Both of us

Acting like we’d both seen the ugly monster in the mirror
Not wanting it nearer. Her take…She made it clearer…………………………………….......…................ : (

[right]Boy, that boyish grin
Darkening, it’s gotten quite dim
That persona of “Up for it all” What happened to him
Going the distance. Now meeting resistance
Attitude…now rude
That “once-in-a-while-sex” now coming across as crude

YO dude? Where’s the romance
No longer that best chance
That trance seems to have went away
Guess it’s that kinda thing…no longer does it play

Are we that two?
The two looking to run
All the while running apart
Are we no longer Smart…Phoning
Purposely out of minutes
Nice place, but now The Bad Tenants
Or are we that stagnant pair standing still
Unreal.. What I feel is the time we've killed
So can we cut our losses built on that weak “Okay”
Get a fresh start.. get out and grab a New Day
Perhaps still be friends ‘til The End of Days

Yet time is now saying

Go “onto” our Separate Ways



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It seems like only yesterday
We were best friends
We swore we'd be together
Until our lives came to an end
 
Together Forever
We swore we would be
Plans for the future
We made you and me
 
This morning I woke up
Thinking it was okay
Then felt like a part of me
Had drifted away
 
Day after day
That feeling grew stronger
Only then did I realize
the option of friendship, was no longer
 
When I lost you
A part of me died
When my thoughts were of you
Id start to cry
 
Then, one day
I heard awful news
Someone had taken my place
Already started to fill in my shoes
 
How could you forget me
So soon, and so simply
After we went through
All of those memories
 
Wasted film
in the camera of life.
We had so much going,
Before all the strife.
 
Now I'm hurting like hell
I need people to talk to
Its okay I'll just go see my best friend...
Oh yeah, that was you...

What clings to a Vixen's wings? Is it a fractured heart? Maybe its how it sings?
Perhaps the rush of tears that slowly fall?  Or is it The Thief of Love...
The one who knows NO law.

[color=Navy].:GOT JAWS:.

Tricked up, all wet and mixed up
You should’ve WOKE up!!
I’m now callin dis, YOUR dis
YOU…pining for that Opposing View of Bliss
Tsk, tsk, tsk
No longer that Girl 2 Kiss
 
Once & Forever on My Dis-List
I’m calling YOU that Un-Shore Miss
YOU’RE now seen; surely
as(s)the one that’s left out at sea
But don’t forget YOU could’ve had me!
 
YOU the Dis’d-Believer-TRANSFORMED-into-The-Beleaguered
For that “COOL- FOOL”
Mate! YOU were just too damn eager!!
Ship Ahoy! Optimus BLIND!!!
I’m just trying to be nice AND kind!
 
YOU THOUGHT your eye(s) had saw one of Royalty
But, no, there wasn’t such a thing as Loyalty
Just The Get-OVA-&-Board
My LORD…now he’s stroking’ someone new!!
Telling her…That YES! Our Thing is true!
Damn Boo. Seems he forgot about YOU
 
He’s combing yet another BEEEEACH
GOOD SENSE? Still waters outta reach
YOU know, yes, he’s FULL of LIES
With his ha ha…and his he he; he still clowns Dis-guised
Preying; I’m just saying it’s his little Game
The way he cooks; it’s justa shame!!
 
YES girl…it’s his way it seems
Throws YOU a smile.. y’all HOOKED like fiends!!
 
Irreligious, so pretentious
Shark in the water SIGNs don’t MENTION
Cut your LOSS forget The COST
It’s how The Hurt re-ACTS as-BOSS
 
I’ll write YOU, yet another Psalm
Rub it in like it was balm…or
Post a piece of Lovely Prose
For The Love of Hurt…that’s how it goes!!
 
F*UC U.


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     Promise of love  
to always be true  
you promise forever  
If I only knew  
 
If I only knew  
when I opened my legs  
that a promise to be faithful  
could never be true  
 
Be true to yourself  
you never loved me  
Faithfulness, a lie  
 
A lie you held on too  
a tool to be use  
to get at the cookie  
 
The cookie that was innocent, sweet  
and ripe for the picking  
 
The picking that left this wound hungry  
vibrating with need  
 
With need to be with anyone  
seeking out the loving
To meet the need

The need never met
In others arms
For you  are the craving
this hunger heart seeks

Play Me.

I had a sickly chill,
at the mention of your name.
We played each others hearts,
like love was just a game.

I knew how to hurt you,
and you matched my moves as well.
You would sock it to my soul,
and I'd drag you through hell.

I folded my card of jealousy,
you came clean about it all.
We loved with a love that was more than love,
since you tripped me to my fall.

I let you kiss my lips,
when you weren't mine to hold.
You showed me just how much it hurt,
I guess I had to know.

I saw your fingers interlocked,
felt my insides burn.
Every organ in my body twisted,
and you encouraged me to take my turn.

I knew the game was ending,
could tell you could be gone for good....
We shuffled the deck into our favor,
our differences understood.

Did You Appreciate Anything?

 One for the memories,

 that you don't want to make.


 Two for the money spent,

 on the gifts you wouldn't take.


 Three for the tears,

 that I'm letting hit the floor.


 The fourth just falls...

 'cause I don't know if I want you anymore.


 Now I'm counting to five,

 and I'm calming down.


 Watch me wipe away the tears,

 because you might have let me drown.

I gave you everything I had

I know I was getting to close
You became my drug
I became to clingy
like an unending hug

But still that doesn't compare
He rushed back in your life
I was cut out
as if by a knife

You used my attachment
as an excuse
Then later you told me
about the history between you two

So I wasn't the first
guy you hurt for him
That doesn't help
it still stings like a sin

I fought for months
Tried to save you from your pain
You knew he would hurt you
he always does in the end

I fought until I was out of blood
Nothing left inside
I had to give up
I couldn't win this fight

I have a hollow heart. It is full of love for you, but it is hollow for the love is not necessary.  Where love meets silence there is always a noise, but our love met silence and stayed quiet until you brought my depression and caused me to scream. You broke our special silence, our moment in a box. You made me burst and without a reason to tell since it was silent. You confused my surroundings and eventually started confusing yourself. You took my neck and held it. Tightening your grip with your intimate hands, cutting my throat with your sensual knife. Watching me bleed with your blood-stopping eyes. How could you love with eyes that could watch a waterfall. How can you stand next to me and let your arms not hold me. How do you survive just standing  there  while, talking to my face and not my heart and ask me to listen?
Well I cannot hear you
I asked for your heart not your words. You wanted me to feel not to listen. I needed you to touch without feeling just skin. I needed you to look without seeing just face. I didn’t want to run into your arms and feel just warmth. All I had was love and that’s what I wanted us both to feel but you talk with your mouth, so I cannot  hear you.

You came with nothing but eyes and lifted me up into what I thought was a story. An unclear story full of spirals and mazes that no-one could feel and eventually had an end to a perfect image. A perfect beauty of you and me, remember? We made a song about forbidden fruits and secret yards. We sung it together. I loved you in my dreams and you loved me in your me. The thing inside our wordless conversation was stronger than their reality and it powered my mind. All the times when I heard my names from your eyes and I heard eternal promises inside your lies. All the time you changed a tone whenever I walked by or all the times you would kill anyone that craved my cries.

You cared, tell me you remember! Together we always wanted but now that I show you do not think. Now that I want you do not ask. Now that I'm strong you do not fix. When did my recovery ever drown our love. Why do my dry eyes repel. Why don’t my closed veins excite you. I live for your excitement in me, I hide for your impression of me. If your life is a clogged ear to my screams then kick me away, rather than wasting your time. It is now my premonition that our love cannot be a definition. I cannot love your mind with thoughts distantly away, while fading in my mind because of no attention from yours and while our love is only in my head and an exasperating worm in yours!  Why do you force me to scream with another thoughtless mole growing your absolute  excited joyful worm that only grows for his love and joy, when my every breath, every cut, every tear and every thought makes it grow for HIM!? Why should I have to build up my confidence and withdraw my love just to watch your infatuated self take a glimpse of my pillaged eyes watching your conspicuous geniality while you tender and admire my  nothing ears listening to the heartless WORDS!? Well I cannot hear you!
I cannot hear you!!

You think Im in a group? Talking to millions of faces and not mine alone. Look into my soul. Talk into my face. Thousand of faces but who’s. Whose love? I did not let you hold me for him. I did not cry you for him. I don’t know, I do not know why but I loved and still love you because of him. Go alone without him. It makes me strong to see your empty eyes.  It never really lifted any height seeing your joy alone. It was amazing seeing your joy in me. Maybe I did not love you but maybe I loved you loving me. But it was only your love that filtered my depression and left crystals of unsure happiness. It was only your love that fixed the leak around my heart and patched the pouring holes that made it hollow. It was your love that made the most nucleated air seem like a dream to inhale. It was your love that directed me back but now i'm gone again, and cannot live being gone. Let me live…Love me again.

You walked away..

I was hurt the day I saw you walk away
I was in pain, I was tormenting
Until now I am shut, I am slur..
You created this fear inside
You promised an eternal life
FOREVER, you said it was meant for us,
But what happened to the happy memories
what happened to those caring arms?
what happened to your sweet facade?
what happened to your promises?
what happened to you my baby?

I gave you everything,
luxuries, love and everything you needed
I tried to be the perfect girl for you
I showed you how much I really want you..

You broke me and left me alone
You walked away not minding the glum on my face
You walked away with someone I didn't know
You walked away and left me in tears... You walked away....

Even if you choose to walk away
I chased you like I'm running out of life
The day you spoke and went away
I waited but in few days I saw you with someone else
You asked me to stay,
You asked me to not let you go and I did..
Still I waited, I month, 2 months passed
I keep waiting even if I became the mistress
You keep me waiting baby.. How long will I wait?

I was longing for the words you used to say
Memories you shattered like grains
How can I pick up myself now that you are gone?
You left me hanging in a dead people's town..

You never cared about the way I feel
You never cared about everything I did
You never cared about the things we shared
You never cared about the promises you feed.
Now tell me should I care if you come back?
Should I care even if I still love you like hell?
Should I still wait even if you cannot let go of the other one
while asking me and telling me you still love me?

I want to move on and find a better life
I want to chase happiness you forbid
I want to be happy with someone else
But baby please if you cannot stay, Baby just let me walk away...

Tears of My Fingers

Midnight, finally,
sound made by the sorrow of my step,
The motion of the gentle air
fog passing under my neck,
cold, while your are sleeping.

I sit infront of My grey type machine,
looking back to your sexy  
Silhouette portrait On the bed,
making the perfect musai.

No I wont,
I prefer to do  this alone,  
Tomorrow I'll be gone,
yes i am in a state of denial,  
you Know I won't come.

A promise will be break,
allready broke, wrong? Is for the best of us,
I know you are not sleep  
you are just doing the act of
Hypnagogia with your eyes Close,
Knowing what Im writing,
because what im writing
is making a  sad tone.

One by one your cochlea
and
your eight nerve  are translating
every keys i type,
you stand up,
sat down on My Back,  
your tears falling through  
My arms all the way down to My fingers,
Making me write the world
Dont hit the road.
You know ill be miserable Alone.
Dont go.

Sena

desolation memories

This razor blade,
That sits in plain view,
Isn't nearly as sharp,
As my memories of you.
 
The wounds always heal,
Only to open again,
I guess that makes,
Forgetting a sin.
 
My head is so cramped,
I need to get out,
It's so depressing,
You're all I think about!
 
Why'd you leave,
You at least owe me an explanation,
Perhaps it will save me,
From my desolation.
 
Everyday I wake up,
I listen to our song,
I can't help but wonder,
What I did wrong.
 
I want to shut people out,
And never let them in,
With no ties to loved ones,
My destruction can begin.
 
My heart is broken,
But it keeps beating on,
It hurts so much,
I wish it was gone.

pink rose

A single pink rose,
The symbol of our love,
Now the image is burned in my mind,
A reminder of words written above.

I bought you one,
For valentines day,
It wilted and died,
The second you walked away.

The color faded,
Like the happiness from my life,
I lost my world,
All that was left was a knife.

Into my arm,
I carve a rose,
A reminder of the nights we shared,
I miss those.

In my heart,
There will remain a place for you,
I can't forget,
No matter how much I want to.

I shouldn't

I shouldn't have to live my life,
Always wishing you were there,
I really shouldn't walk this world,
Afraid to let myself care.

These are the scars you left,
When you walked out of this place,
To this day,
Tears still roll down my face.

I shouldn't have to drink,
Just to get some rest,
Im trying to forget,
Im giving it my best.

The sadest thing of all,
I really shouldn't love you,
But to this day,
I still do.