1st broken heart

The first break

Awakening to a World
that bloomed as innocence fades
Ripped of trusts this chest did mourn
The loss of love, of hopes withheld
All of thirteen great rains
My heart was shattered
Smashed and blasted
By the man whom I loved;
For he chose another
So much more tender
with the face of an angel
and the mind of a whore.
The years have flown
The time have gone
Memories linger unfettered
A broken heart, and lost dreams
Lies still within
Hopes to awaken once again

"Oh, I'm sorry"

She stood on a chair,
peering into her reflection with ease.

Little hands groping the bottle and tubes,
if mommy can do it, so could she.

Red, purple, blue, pink, shades she couldn't even read,
pale skin now orange and heavily coated.

Mommy walked in and raised an eyebrow, standing behind her,
she smiled when her mommy's hands helped her.

"I hope you're pretty one day, like me."

Vain, beauty?
She didn't understnad those words,
but they stung.

Her stomach ached and she wanted to cry,
instead she swallowed her heart back down.

Her heart had broken,
she just didn't know it yet.

That was really very good and quite touching , good poem :)

LOVE is SICKNESS
[font=Geneva][color=Purple]today was the day evil steped in...all remain lost and love caved in..
memorries of you and me stuck in my mind....
i fell  lost and left behind...
the smiles you gave me the butterflies i felt mad me alive
demons come forth and  took what was mine
the spirits told me that i will not brack threw
after the lies an i love you...
monsters come and take my heart  
love in darkness torn us apart..
i cant laugh or fake a smile
love is nothing but sickness and vial
befor i decay in filth  and deed
love stole the innocent and make me bleed..


-Kumiko Yamamoto

(this is the one I wrote of heartbreak. I doubt I could ever write another like this because I was stripped bare, hopeless and filled with a love which was not returned, It still feels raw. So, I hope never to write like this again. )

Echoes
 

Brutally mellifluous words
barged inward.

Pulsating eruptions
terrorized my last standing wall
which i allowed to deteriorate.


A cavity was created,
littered with debris.
 
I did not stand a chance 
against the euphonious tune.


That charming voice
became just an echo  
between my ears.
 
The amorous flutters 
becoming nothing more 
than nagging birds in my stomach

singing songs 
up through my throat
of  what could have been.

I wrote this poem originally to express the sorrow I felt in a time when my heart was broken, truly and utter broken, for the first time in this life. It was not a simple thing to put down.

- Open My Eyes -

The sun is rising again, in a blaze of rosy hues…
Across a horizon still dark from the fading night.
How shall I now welcome the day that ensues?
It is not a simple thing to just conjure up delight.
Dressed all in white, the spirits came to tell me…
That I had a hope my mortal eyes just don’t see.
My eyes are open wide, but the hope is so faint,
I’ve never been a sinner, but I’m sure not a saint!

Open my eyes, and let me find the way!
Gone is the night, but so long is the day…
Open my eyes, and in hope I will abide!
The sea may be calm, but high is the tide.

My heart is a-racing again, beating like a drum…
And I wonder if I’ll ever know peace once more.
I’ve seen the world, but still I’m feeling so glum…
Because you left me stranded, on a distant shore!
Dressed all in white, I was waiting there for you…
Now I just keep waiting alone for somebody new.
My eyes are open wide, but all hope is fading fast,
When you just keep waiting, the waiting can’t last!

Open my eyes, and let me find my dream!
Gone is the flood, but so deep is the stream…
Open my eyes, and in faith I will be secure!
The road may be long, but I can walk more.

The birds are singing, in the valley with such joy…
That I wonder: if I’ll ever feel that free once again.
I’ve tried to help others, and it was never a ploy…
Everywhere I’ve gone, I’ve been the truest friend.
Dressed all in white, an angel where none tread…
My deeds ever selfless, my heart filled with dread.
Who will understand me, when I must walk along?
And no one is beside me, to hear my lonely song!

Open my eyes, and let me find my love!
Gone is the dawn, so clear is the sky above…
Open my eyes, and in glory I’ll ever sing.
The pain is so hot, but you can ease the sting.

Making love on a no- man's bed
Quilted flowers, white and red
Being as silent as we possibly can,
But the silence shatters, you're just a man.

Softest candle light reflects in the mirror,
Merely a touch and I start to shiver,
A sudden moan I can't disguise.
The forever love brings tears to my eyes.

You hold me in your sweet embrace,
My eyes so blurred I can't see your face,
Yet I know your eyes are alight,
That they shine with love and deeper sight
Than I can ever in my innocence achieve.
But now it's just memories and I can't weep,
So let me turn over and try to sleep.

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The Acceptance Of What Is

Before there was only loneliness
and the nightly glass of woe
that helped me cope with life and my sorrow
 
Then came the bliss of new love, of salvation
of dreams coming true around every corner
and memories forged in passion's fire
 
But all that escaped from my travels in the clouds
when I felt as light as air, as though I could levitate
is the acceptance of what is
 
The voice I lived by is now an echo of moments gone
when nothing mattered but the sound of her laughter
as the world turned, we were frozen in its center, but no more
 
Spring has arrived, and with it the thaw
though time has left me I have not abandoned myself
but the paint on my smile has surely faded
 
Things have moved, people grew
yet I remain still, the leaf on a dying tree
that said its goodbyes but will not fall and shall not forget
 
That I loved you once
and still I do
forever
I do

Broken

Crumbled is my every dream  
Inescapable is each passing day  
Robotic is my every breath  
Living for the ones around me  
Exhausted are my thoughts and every limb  
Bloodshot and glazed are my eyes  
My blanket of comfort gone,  
now only coldness seeps into my bones.  
In another life he would have been mine  
Selfishly we could have held on  
but instead our story now comes to an end.  
So here I am with a shattered heart  
yearning for an impossible dream  
Letting go of hope, of what might have been  
Wondering if this tribulation is fate  
Either way feels like an eternity at hells gate.  
 
 

That look in your eyes.

Thinking of the day i saw them first
Searching for a way to still my thirst                    
I find myself wandering in a daze,
Fighting, walking through the blaze.

Now, overwhelmed by the thought
Your heart, no longer next to mine.
That for which forever i have sought,
To get it back, i need to shine.

I’ll get to you, if it drives me insane
All my hopes were not in vein,
When i see my greatest prize
That  stunning look in your lovely eyes...

Drowning in Death

Here we are sitting in the quiet night
I look at you under the soft moonlight.
Teardrops slowly fall from your beautiful eyes
And the sight of them makes me wanna die.
I know there were things that got in our way
There were times we hurt each other with what we had to say.
But I’m here now to say that everything will be okay
All our pain will someday go away.
We hug in a tight loving embrace
But then I see the look on your angelic face.
And realize that through your hope and love the pain is still there
So I wrap my arms tighter around you to show I still truly care.
I kiss your tears away and hold you close for a while
When I look at you again your frown turns into a smile.
As I pull you in for a loving kiss
Your face turns red, something I’ve come to miss.
Suddenly I’m alone, and when I look around you’re gone
I sit up in bed, heart racing and eyes blurry, it’s almost dawn.
From my eyes flows a new steady stream
As I realize that once again, it was only a sad dream.
Sobs rack my broken body, for you’re still not with me
I question your motives, is this really how it had to be?
Were you really that unhappy, was it really that bad
Couldn’t you instead focus on the special love that we had?
You’ll never know how bad you hurt me, you changed my very life
You can’t see what I’m trying to tell you, that I can’t put up with this strife.
You might as well be squeezing the trigger, or pulling the blade
Just accept it now, this is the decision that I have made.
I told you what would happen if I ever lost you, but you didn’t believe me
So now because of you there’s a dead body floating out at sea.
You didn’t wanna talk or listen to me, and now your old lover is dead
I hope you never forget what you did and the guilt never leaves your head.
When you start getting sad again, there’s something I want you to know
YOU did this and caused this shit, YOU’RE the one who let ME go.
And if you decide to visit my gravesite, remember this hun
I still won’t forgive you for all the shit you’ve done.
Because even in death I remember the hurt and the stabbing pain
I remember the feeling of being rejected and left alone in the freezing rain.
So go ahead and try to get rid of the guilt, the regret, the sorrow
But it's still going to be there when you wake up tomorrow.
You should’ve been honest, but instead you lied
And now you’re the reason that I committed suicide.
Go now with this knowledge, and live your sad life day by day
I’ve shared my heart, there’s nothing left for me to say.
I finally understand that the pain and hurt will never cease
And now because of you i lay under a stone that says “Rest In Peace”.

my 1st broken heart

this is not a poem
this is a story
of how my first love
had
eyes
that held on to you
so tight
you felt like crying

and when they let you go
you wanted to die

when they spoke
you wanted to lay down
and leave the earth

because those words
break the silver lining
of life

and shatter
so you always
walk on glass

so when
you see a laugh
a chuckle

you lose a bit of your heart
because
when those eyes
let go of your grip

your lost
in the dark
the stars
explode
silently

like i will

with my first broken heart
and my last
i cannot feel

the story ends
so do I

Can you see me?

Can you see that
innocent bud of flower
which needed your kind caress?

But you saw her when
she was ripe with the
mature honey.

Can you see that
nerd
when she tried to
figure out
your attention
Hidden behind
those glasses?

But you saw her when she
had come in terms with
the contact lenses.

Can you see that
kid crying under the desk,
when you were punished
by Ms.Jones?

But you saw her when she
walked with her pride of
achievement.

Can you see that angel
who stamped herself to
the window of the bus
seeing your chasing bicycle
from behind?

But you saw her when  
her plane had already taken off
from the airport.

I know you never saw.
Now it doesn't even matter,
Now loads like you hum  around
and i don't give them a Damn.

(My 1st poem)

-Heartache-

You lied to me,
You played with my heart.
You said you hated him,
He treated you in evil ways.

Now you tell me it was all a lie,
In fact hes your boyfriend.
You stole my heart,
Then you crushed it.

You asked me why i didnt trust you,
I said i did.
Big mistake,
Look what it got me.

I tried to keep you,
From hurting yourself.
It looks like you would,
Rather hurt me.

Do you know how much,
I loved you?
Do you have any fucking idea,
How hard I'm crying?

You said you dont want,
Me no more.
You do what I dont like,
So i wont talk to you.

You make my heartache,
You are squeezing my insides.
To a pulp,
From eleven and a half hours away.

I love you after,
All this shit.
All this shit,
You have done to me.

You told me you hated,
Jerks.
So I was myself,
I respected you,
Cared for you,
Loved you,
Now you tell me i'm to nice.

I ask you to have,
A nice life.
You tell me you won't,
What am i supposed to do?


You love playing twith my emotions,
It causes me Heartache.