I’m but the shadow that was cast by who I was And still you see the Me. I’ve changed from courage to paralysed fear And still, resilience is what you see I’m lost in darkness but you bring the light Axe at the ready, willing to fight Despair devoured all of me but your stoic strength: never wavering. Collapsing under the weight I couldn’t stand But there you were, holding out your hand And when all the world’s dark poured into my world You were the hope that pulled me to my feet.
That darkness claimed my soul And I never knew It claimed yours too. We escaped Yet live there still Our minds the chaos of his will So we wear our masks And never tell The truth of darkness In which we dwell: I don’t hate the monster I hate myself
It's fitting that you find me In this place of dark It seems almost foretold that this final door would close Before we could stand against the bitter lark Of despair's frantic frolic into The nothing of paralysis
This is our journey. You and I Where late-hour realisations come after the journey's end And I know This was always going to be our tale Where we live and laugh and love and cry Away from the dimness in the other's eye.
Dear world I don't know how long I'll be here for And I have a message I could tell you it's from God Maybe you'll listen Or maybe you'll spot the lie And close your mind forever But this is important So I want you to sit forward And ignore the storm arage outside I want you to focus And remember these words as if they were the first words you ever heard And the last words you'll ever remember You are here to change the world And only you can decide how to do it
In the hope of tomorrow I find you, love You settled in the cracks between then and now I thought that you imploded into the dark And became the nothing that exists in the void of life But I never noticed the subtle gleam of how you glow And how perfectly you filled the flaws
I never was special you know Just a broken kid born with a broken soul and a broken mind And humans came and fixed and fiddled and played with the strange thing until eventually All the parts disassembled and Now I'm just the pieces that people left behind
My heart is awash in despicable despair Sliming up my insides like it's always been there. Threads of hope tear from me, And bloody pools of hopelessness collect and putrefy. Inconsolable yet dry-eyed, despairing yet smiling, I walk upright in a forest of darkness and terror. Weighted down by the horror. The sheer horror that is the replay. Petrified I sit, rocking the chair Unable to feel, unable to care. I gather dust in this nothing. There is nothing but this.
Heavy steps lead me back So different than the carefree singing That led me here before Lost amidst your world I stand among the nothing you left behind I loved your mind Your books Your perspective And now it’s just nothing Nothing that stayed behind So I pack it up All this nothing And sort it into piles Piles of nothing that I’ll carry with me As if part of you will then also be
Dark dreams followed cloudy days And still darker days came whistling through the door like a storm that won't let go until it's had its tribute And I Stood amidst the chaos As flames leapt up, devouring And all the world collapsing Into rubble at my feet Triumphant Defeated I remained amidst the chaos This darkness This storm I am its creator Its victim And lone survivor