Show us your darkness

 
So tell me, what in the actual fuck is the difference between now and then?
Is it the clothes, the colors, the styles or the barb wired fence?
Is this the criminal element they speak about on the news?
ICE is the new cold old Gestapo, rounding them up like they did Jews.
 
Can someone please explain to me how laws have no moral compass
Treating kids with atrociousness while many just look the other way?
The land of the free sounds like a dream sold to souls with injustice,
To those without means, seeking a new place to stay and be safe.
 
Seriously, whatever happened kindness and humanity?  
People are escaping their homelands because some are in danger,
In search for a better life they flee from all the insanity,
Only to be locked up and treated like animals because they’re strangers?
 
“Oh but there is a proper way to do things because we have laws”
Fuck that! If people were firing at me I’d try to save my life too,
“Well there is process to follow” have you fucking heard their cause?
Shit is bad out there you have no idea, I only wish you knew…
 
These are some desperate times and so they take desperate measures,
Their only crime is crossing national borders trying to endure,
Illegal immigration is a fucked up situation for those who have less,
But hate and racism seems to be a disease that has no cure.
 
So keep scrolling, maybe change the channel, or look the other way,
By tomorrow you will forget about them and go about your day.

Slashed wrists (like that you sadist?)
Blue eyelids  
Cold lips you kissed
 
I gave you all (more than anyone could give)
My blood
A red waterfall
 
I can’t speak (you’d kill me, you narcissist)
There’s nothing to say
Everything is bleak
 
Bags of blood (love letters written in maroon ink)
Tear them apart  
Drown in the flood  
 
My body an empty shell (depression is hell)
On your palms  
My tear drops fell
 
I needed to feel whole (emptiness out of control)
Tightening your grip
You needed control
 
Stole my soul (you needed a replacement for yours)
Now in my chest  
There’s a bullet hole  
 
Take it all (you fucking selfish prick)
Watch me fall
Towards you I crawl
 
No blood drips (is it ever me you miss?)
Bled dry  
Blackout eclipse  
 
Nowhere to be found (where’s all your profound love?)
King of romance
Self crowned  
 
Take your throne (all you do is take anyways)
It’s waiting
My gravestone  
 
In the moonlight (even after death we don’t part)
You grab your shovel  
Filled with spite
 
My headstone (you grave robber)
States
Here rots used bones
 
 

    People are mean when there upset
     Sometimes expect people to say something they don't mean
     It happens
     Couples fight
     She tells her man of ten years she can't stand him no more and he tells her to die
     He knows that wasn't right
     A few mornings later the husband wants to do something nice for his wife
     An ongoing conflict every night repeats for a couple of weeks so he sleeps on the loveseat
     In sync
     With her melancholy of madness that has made her stay in thier bedroom for so long
     He sits at the bottom of the stairs wondering what's wrong
     Thinking maybe then, If he begins making some flapjacks and bacon
     It will start creating a reason for sure
     To present her with breakfast in bed
     Softly knocking on thier door
     It creeks ajar, she seems to be snoozing real hard
     Next to the dresser he finds a glass of wine and an empty bottle of Xanax bars
     He creeps closer to give her a shake, she won't wake
     As a matter of fact she won't breath
     The husband spills a trace of pancake on her face cause she won't eat
     "Respond! Come on!"
     Becoming more afraid as she just lays
     Maby she's still mad and wants him to just go away
     Pleading for his spouse to stop acting this way
     Repeated apologizes for the way he behaved
     Who's to blame? And why is his wife eternally ignoring him for the rest of his life?
     Didn't expect her to do what he said
     Regretting, he's replaying the reckless over reaction in his head
     Going head to head, playing head games with himself  he can't even win.....
     That's when he decides to jump out the second story window head first, so he can join her again.

Side by side we walked throughout the days of our youth,
Never a secret we kept, never a thought left unsaid.

You were my closest confidant, and I was yours.
Our souls were both fragmented, but together we were almost whole.

The age of adolescence ended and we went down separate paths,
I followed the hallowed halls of academia, but you were stuck in the past.

Perhaps I knew, deep inside,
That you could never leave the ground where your father died
But I had faith that you would make it out one day,
How was I to know beside him in the ground, you would also lay?

I knew your obstacles were plenty,
I knew your path was tough,
I just never knew that your will would not be strong enough
to outrun the demons your father's absence left behind.

Why couldn't I see?
Why were my eyes so blind?
How could I ignore the signs,
of a friend in pain -- a friend in the deep
of life's infinite afflictions.

You sought comfort in a bottle,
you found escape through a needle.
Now these vices no longer consume you, but their sting still lingers
in the missing part of my soul that you once occupied.

Maybe one day I will come to peace with your absence,
Maybe one day I will shed this cloak of shame.
But today -- today I just lay flowers on your early grave.

Today I took 8 pills
Drink, swallow, drink
Next day nothing
Today I took 8 pills
Drink, swallow,drink
Next day nothing
Today I took 8 pills
Drink, swallow,drink
Next day Depression....
Lock in my room because I can't face the person I disappointed.
Today I thought about taking my life, so I cried!!

Today I should take 8 pills to feel at peace
Today I should .....
Today I should.....
 

Repeat...

Some people are only alive because of the fear of withdrawal
Not God
Not man
You don't deserve to walk upright alongside of us lesser scum
But there is discipline in vengeance
I will let father times icy breath blow my name far from your memory
And just as the winds carry any thoughts of me away and scatter them to unrecognition like the bones of a clandestine corpse dispersed by carnivores
There I'll be
In a back alley
Moonlight beating on my back
Or in a dark bedroom
The pale blue flicker of the tv illuminating my naked face
You will see the dead black spheres that sit in my sockets
Void of empathy and mercy
And you will know
My heart heavy with homicide and my mind high on the hatred of a hundred betrayals
And you will know
Why I fucking came