Betrayal
CJKay
Joined 14th July 2019
Forum Posts: 3
Lost Thinker
Forum Posts: 3
Poetry Contest Description
This thread is for those of you who have lost friend due to being one sided. Just was more toxic than good. Could also be relationships with past lovers. Anything like that.
Bare with me, I'm new to this. Just thought it would be a fun way to read more writings from y'all. Get more recognition for your posts. If I'm doing anything wrong, let me know. Lol. Most importantly, have fun with it.
CJKay
Joined 14th July 2019
Forum Posts: 3
Lost Thinker
Forum Posts: 3
Didn't want to enter, since I made the thread. But here's mine. If y'all need something to go off of. Hope y'all like it. 🙃
..............................................
Suffer in silence
Sleep through the violence
Trying to find a way out…
No, I'm not perfect
But I swear that I'm worth it.
I'm missing peace right now..
Can't say I never loved you
After all that we have been through
We got to this point, how?
Now I'm sitting all alone
No one tried to hit my phone..
I guess that's just how it goes.
That's why I can't fall in love
Because everybody switches up
I can't mess with all you foes.
I can't even keep my friends around,
Another bridge burned to the ground.
This shit just keeps on adding up,
I've finally had more than enough.
That's why I stay to my damn self,
Because y'all are to selfish for my help.
Tender hearts turn corrupt,
Tears turn to ashes..
No one wants to see me cry,
As the time keeps slowly passing..
No one cares about my downfalls,
My fears or my dreams..
They only care about my weakness,
Spitting on my self esteem.
I've always been a shoulder,
A confidant to those in need.
Yet my soul is so misunderstood,
I have no place to lean.
Everyone disappears,
While I'm drowning in the deep.
I have major trust issues..
My pureness is tarnished.
I can't be myself,
Without being honest.
Used and thrown away,
Like the garbage of yesterday.
When all I've ever wanted,
Was for someone to look my way.
Tell me it's gonna be okay,
Without it being a lie.
Without the anxiety,
Of being left wondering why.
Living on hope though,
It's so hard to stay positive.
Laying down in my bed,
My emotions are unbottling.
Comfortably numb..
Another shadow on the sun..
It's like I'm a magnet,
To all the chaos and commotion.
To the minimally devoted.
I forgive but can't forget,
No words go unnoted.
I have to keep the tv on,
So the voices don't take control.
Replaying every encounter,
Solace, I hardly know.
So use to the let downs,
Drama and arguments.
Preying on my kindness,
Like I'm some kind of target.
It doesn't matter how bad I'm hurt,
Because the only time they truly care..
Is when my face is on a shirt.
Watching me get lowered,
Six feet down in the dirt..
But I keep fighting everyday,
To focus on myself.
Keep the good vibes rolling,
Working on my mental health.
I've been through to much,
To let my ship sink.
It's my time rise above
Try not to overthink.
It's easy to get lost,
In what I already know.
Keep smiling through the pain,
& Let the past go.
Don't hold on to heartache,
Keep your mind right.
Don't let anyone,
Diminish your fight.
Because even a thunderstorm,
Comes to an end.
& Life will keep going,
So a new chapter can begin.
..............................................
Suffer in silence
Sleep through the violence
Trying to find a way out…
No, I'm not perfect
But I swear that I'm worth it.
I'm missing peace right now..
Can't say I never loved you
After all that we have been through
We got to this point, how?
Now I'm sitting all alone
No one tried to hit my phone..
I guess that's just how it goes.
That's why I can't fall in love
Because everybody switches up
I can't mess with all you foes.
I can't even keep my friends around,
Another bridge burned to the ground.
This shit just keeps on adding up,
I've finally had more than enough.
That's why I stay to my damn self,
Because y'all are to selfish for my help.
Tender hearts turn corrupt,
Tears turn to ashes..
No one wants to see me cry,
As the time keeps slowly passing..
No one cares about my downfalls,
My fears or my dreams..
They only care about my weakness,
Spitting on my self esteem.
I've always been a shoulder,
A confidant to those in need.
Yet my soul is so misunderstood,
I have no place to lean.
Everyone disappears,
While I'm drowning in the deep.
I have major trust issues..
My pureness is tarnished.
I can't be myself,
Without being honest.
Used and thrown away,
Like the garbage of yesterday.
When all I've ever wanted,
Was for someone to look my way.
Tell me it's gonna be okay,
Without it being a lie.
Without the anxiety,
Of being left wondering why.
Living on hope though,
It's so hard to stay positive.
Laying down in my bed,
My emotions are unbottling.
Comfortably numb..
Another shadow on the sun..
It's like I'm a magnet,
To all the chaos and commotion.
To the minimally devoted.
I forgive but can't forget,
No words go unnoted.
I have to keep the tv on,
So the voices don't take control.
Replaying every encounter,
Solace, I hardly know.
So use to the let downs,
Drama and arguments.
Preying on my kindness,
Like I'm some kind of target.
It doesn't matter how bad I'm hurt,
Because the only time they truly care..
Is when my face is on a shirt.
Watching me get lowered,
Six feet down in the dirt..
But I keep fighting everyday,
To focus on myself.
Keep the good vibes rolling,
Working on my mental health.
I've been through to much,
To let my ship sink.
It's my time rise above
Try not to overthink.
It's easy to get lost,
In what I already know.
Keep smiling through the pain,
& Let the past go.
Don't hold on to heartache,
Keep your mind right.
Don't let anyone,
Diminish your fight.
Because even a thunderstorm,
Comes to an end.
& Life will keep going,
So a new chapter can begin.
Ahavati
Tams
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Tams
Tyrant of Words
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Joined 11th Apr 2015Forum Posts: 16852
New or old writes?
drone
Forum Posts: 2274
Tyrant of Words
10
Joined 3rd Sep 2011 Forum Posts: 2274
Twisted
why do you need
to see
whats behind the door
are the words
i love you
not enough
any more
why do you insist
on looking
behind the scenes
when you know
what you will find
will not be me
yet you hope and pray
that i will change
while wishfull thinking
becomes your cage
as you lay
on your barron bed
of dispair
believing
one day
I Will Care
why do you need
to see
whats behind the door
are the words
i love you
not enough
any more
why do you insist
on looking
behind the scenes
when you know
what you will find
will not be me
yet you hope and pray
that i will change
while wishfull thinking
becomes your cage
as you lay
on your barron bed
of dispair
believing
one day
I Will Care
Anonymous
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Glimmer of Hope CRUSHED by Eternal sad
I've always maintained that I
will only take what another
offers. I am not one to push
or pull or guilt You into any
one thing or any spiritual or
anything...Love.
I received an email yesterday
(NO, I am not going to share
it with You, as I've learned
a valuable lesson from this
yesterday) and this is some
of the most heart stabbing
bleed I've ever been privileged
to experience in my reinvented
life. I feel sick to my gut
as if I throw up right this
fuckin' minute; perhaps I will
do this later...every hour
of every - later.
That email has a hint of
forgiveness but under the weight
of eternal sad and obvious
betrayal, hope may just be
the tease.
What does it mean when some
someone says that You betrayed
them but they still deeply
love You?
Means that there's a slim
glimmer of hope for me, but
crushed under hers and mine~
eternal sad.
My love signs off to me an
unconditional good-bye:
agape. Another ort of
hope?
I read too much. . .
will only take what another
offers. I am not one to push
or pull or guilt You into any
one thing or any spiritual or
anything...Love.
I received an email yesterday
(NO, I am not going to share
it with You, as I've learned
a valuable lesson from this
yesterday) and this is some
of the most heart stabbing
bleed I've ever been privileged
to experience in my reinvented
life. I feel sick to my gut
as if I throw up right this
fuckin' minute; perhaps I will
do this later...every hour
of every - later.
That email has a hint of
forgiveness but under the weight
of eternal sad and obvious
betrayal, hope may just be
the tease.
What does it mean when some
someone says that You betrayed
them but they still deeply
love You?
Means that there's a slim
glimmer of hope for me, but
crushed under hers and mine~
eternal sad.
My love signs off to me an
unconditional good-bye:
agape. Another ort of
hope?
I read too much. . .
Written by Tallen
(earth_empath)
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Masochist
I miss you, all of you
the ups and downs
being spun around
dizzy with desire
Then gone so quickly
not seen for months
leaving rivers of tears
in your wake
Left to slowly rebuild
pieces of my heart
poorly shielded from
strong hollow winds
of promised love
Yet I stand here
barefoot
tattered cotton dress
head tilted up, eyes closed
facing west
Soft breeze of breath
caressing the surface of skin
touching the deepest corners
of an eternally broken heart
Longing for the next time
the ups and downs
being spun around
dizzy with desire
Then gone so quickly
not seen for months
leaving rivers of tears
in your wake
Left to slowly rebuild
pieces of my heart
poorly shielded from
strong hollow winds
of promised love
Yet I stand here
barefoot
tattered cotton dress
head tilted up, eyes closed
facing west
Soft breeze of breath
caressing the surface of skin
touching the deepest corners
of an eternally broken heart
Longing for the next time
Written by Bonzi
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wallyroo92
Forum Posts: 1865
Tyrant of Words
154
Joined 11th July 2012Forum Posts: 1865
The Dream
We were young and full of imagination,
The world was ours for the taking,
We shared the same vision,
It was history in the making.
But as life happens we went our ways,
Only to meet two decades later,
We still shared that vision,
But yours was even greater.
Our friendship would help us achieve,
The dream we wanted to realize,
We were the first generation,
The vision in those kids eyes.
You took on as a teacher and mentor,
Yet somehow things went wrong
I didn’t mind that you made mistakes,
After all we always make our own.
But I do mind that you didn’t own up to it,
Or at least apologize for your blunder,
Especially when my offspring’s involved,
And it tore the whole group asunder.
Where you so blind so as to not see?
How many children’s hopes you broke?
All because of your foolish pride,
And made yourself the butt of a joke?
I kept away from rumors and gossip,
But little by little I felt even more withdrawn
Learn to swallow your pride, you let it die,
The dream when we dreamt is gone.
Twenty seven years of friendship,
Down the drain because you hurt my son,
You hurt a whole different generation,
Who chased the dream that now is gone.
All you had to do was apologize,
A true leader knows his role,
And everyone would’ve supported you,
In realizing and achieving the goal.
Whenever I go and visit the organization,
I see that a new class has reconvened,
In the meantime I’ve gone and unfriended,
The friend who I once mentored
But killed the dream.
We were young and full of imagination,
The world was ours for the taking,
We shared the same vision,
It was history in the making.
But as life happens we went our ways,
Only to meet two decades later,
We still shared that vision,
But yours was even greater.
Our friendship would help us achieve,
The dream we wanted to realize,
We were the first generation,
The vision in those kids eyes.
You took on as a teacher and mentor,
Yet somehow things went wrong
I didn’t mind that you made mistakes,
After all we always make our own.
But I do mind that you didn’t own up to it,
Or at least apologize for your blunder,
Especially when my offspring’s involved,
And it tore the whole group asunder.
Where you so blind so as to not see?
How many children’s hopes you broke?
All because of your foolish pride,
And made yourself the butt of a joke?
I kept away from rumors and gossip,
But little by little I felt even more withdrawn
Learn to swallow your pride, you let it die,
The dream when we dreamt is gone.
Twenty seven years of friendship,
Down the drain because you hurt my son,
You hurt a whole different generation,
Who chased the dream that now is gone.
All you had to do was apologize,
A true leader knows his role,
And everyone would’ve supported you,
In realizing and achieving the goal.
Whenever I go and visit the organization,
I see that a new class has reconvened,
In the meantime I’ve gone and unfriended,
The friend who I once mentored
But killed the dream.
CJKay
Joined 14th July 2019
Forum Posts: 3
Lost Thinker
Forum Posts: 3
You can add new or old, whatever you prefer . Lol. 🙃
Love all your peices. You all are so incredibly, individually talented. Keep em coming 💜
Love all your peices. You all are so incredibly, individually talented. Keep em coming 💜
Addi82
Addi
Forum Posts: 8
Addi
Lost Thinker
1
Joined 2nd Aug 2019Forum Posts: 8
contradictions
Forever was a lie
Yet I believed it when u spoke
when I looked into your eyes
I missed that something u were trying to hide
I neglected to see that you're full of arrogance self riotousness and pride
yet still I welcomed your invasion
my soul and my body
accepted u on every occasion
why must I seek acceptance
why can't I just be alone
I'm stuck in this state of ambivalence
no one should have this power
my soul was up for the taking
I left it out for u to devour
try as I may, try as I might
this is a battle my heart can not fight
no longer believe in you or your intentions
I think there's something u forgot to mention
played me like a pro
your words touched me, set my heart aglow
I've grown older n u would think wiser
but im no match for u
as I look in your eyes that flicker soft Amber
your beauty's unmatched
n u knowingly use it for gain
and I got attached.
break it off like a dead limb
a future my mind painted so bright
slowly fading, becoming so grim
easy to lose and hard to regain
trust isn't to be played with
once lost, things r never the same
don't expect a warm welcome
you won't find it here
apparently ur not the one
no time to waste
I won't be mislead
I won't settle in haste
u will not get n my head
should have never let u n my bed
the sheets whisper and taunt
knowing exactly what I want
I can not give in a single bit
though I fien for u like a junkie
just needing one more hit
look in my eyes while I'm down on my knees
it's u I want,
that I desire to please
ur a work of art, an absolute fantasy
your angelic, yet somehow demonic
my expectations were straight sardonic
your too good to believe
lips so soft, why do they decieve
I sit in solitude
thinking how things could be different
mind exploring every avenue
we are each others contradiction
opposite and no good for each other
maybe our own addiction
i hate it will end like this
but u rather live a life of crime
love comes last in your world
so there can be no trying again, no next time.
Yet I believed it when u spoke
when I looked into your eyes
I missed that something u were trying to hide
I neglected to see that you're full of arrogance self riotousness and pride
yet still I welcomed your invasion
my soul and my body
accepted u on every occasion
why must I seek acceptance
why can't I just be alone
I'm stuck in this state of ambivalence
no one should have this power
my soul was up for the taking
I left it out for u to devour
try as I may, try as I might
this is a battle my heart can not fight
no longer believe in you or your intentions
I think there's something u forgot to mention
played me like a pro
your words touched me, set my heart aglow
I've grown older n u would think wiser
but im no match for u
as I look in your eyes that flicker soft Amber
your beauty's unmatched
n u knowingly use it for gain
and I got attached.
break it off like a dead limb
a future my mind painted so bright
slowly fading, becoming so grim
easy to lose and hard to regain
trust isn't to be played with
once lost, things r never the same
don't expect a warm welcome
you won't find it here
apparently ur not the one
no time to waste
I won't be mislead
I won't settle in haste
u will not get n my head
should have never let u n my bed
the sheets whisper and taunt
knowing exactly what I want
I can not give in a single bit
though I fien for u like a junkie
just needing one more hit
look in my eyes while I'm down on my knees
it's u I want,
that I desire to please
ur a work of art, an absolute fantasy
your angelic, yet somehow demonic
my expectations were straight sardonic
your too good to believe
lips so soft, why do they decieve
I sit in solitude
thinking how things could be different
mind exploring every avenue
we are each others contradiction
opposite and no good for each other
maybe our own addiction
i hate it will end like this
but u rather live a life of crime
love comes last in your world
so there can be no trying again, no next time.
Written by Addi82
(Addi)
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Jade-Pandora
jade tiger
Forum Posts: 5134
jade tiger
Tyrant of Words
154
Joined 9th Nov 2015 Forum Posts: 5134
Betrayed by our Mother🔥
Never a day that didn’t pass
I always felt safe & sound.
My childhood lulled me into a
sense of false security.
But that wasn’t apparent yet
as every year came and went,
Like cookie-cutter treats on a
bakery conveyor belt.
The seasons were reliable,
like when Mom would tuck me in.
The showers fell & flowers grew
in mild Spring temprement
The other seasons fell in line
as holidays were thrilling.
Each Eastertide & Christmastide
were filled with family giving.
I knew of other times that came,
all part of Mother Nature.
In southern Cali where I live,
there was a time of fire.
It happened after each Summer,
when Fall was bone-dry, dying.
For the Santana winds to stir
dead & dying leaves aglow.
So thru the years the climate turns
and has become all-year round.
It’s ev’ry day the wild and brush
Burns anywhere in Cali.
buddydog
Forum Posts: 93
Thought Provoker
6
Joined 5th May 2015Forum Posts: 93
Broken Soul
Standing here, as the rain washes my tears away
Holding on to your promise of a sunny day
It’s more than the wind that chills my soul
Your memory is easier than you were to hold
We had some good times down here by these tracks
I guess you and I both know they ain’t coming back
I still sit here and listen to that lonesome whistle blow
It’s times like these your memory is so hard to let go
If I could go back in time and have you forever to hold
I’d make a deal with the Devil and sell my broken soul
I’d Hope and pray God would see things my way
Cause without you I can’t live another day
Holding on to your promise of a sunny day
It’s more than the wind that chills my soul
Your memory is easier than you were to hold
We had some good times down here by these tracks
I guess you and I both know they ain’t coming back
I still sit here and listen to that lonesome whistle blow
It’s times like these your memory is so hard to let go
If I could go back in time and have you forever to hold
I’d make a deal with the Devil and sell my broken soul
I’d Hope and pray God would see things my way
Cause without you I can’t live another day
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blocat
Forum Posts: 241
Dangerous Mind
9
Joined 1st Nov 2012Forum Posts: 241
Dear Bob....
He reads her letter yet again
Feels the same pang of pain
Can’t take the pressure she says
Still I love you in so many ways
But can’t live with you being over there
Me being over here
I’m only human my dear
I hope you’ll see it’s for the best
And for our little boy the joy
Of knowing the man he calls daddy
Comes home at night
Doesn't fight
Staying away
Whilst we can only watch and pray
It’s just too much watching the news
Wondering when it’s your turn to lose
Can’t do it any more
The flag draped caskets
Returning
See the widows’ tears
Burning
Coursing down their pain lined faces
Just another guy ran out of aces
Bob You know I’m not a whore
But I met a man,
It wasn’t planned
It just happened
One of those things
He talks of a future
With wedding rings
He’s got a great job Bob
And little Jimmy loves him too
Hell what could I do?
I know you’ll be angry
But screw you! It was your choice
To go away fighting for paltry pay
Sorry, sorry, didn’t mean to get mad
Must be the guilt
I’m not the type to jilt
At the drop of a hat, stuff like that
Anyway I gotta go
Just thought I’d let you know
You’ll always be in my heart
Be lucky,
Lucy
He drops the letter to the wind
Watches it blow
Then pulls the trigger with his toe
Feels the same pang of pain
Can’t take the pressure she says
Still I love you in so many ways
But can’t live with you being over there
Me being over here
I’m only human my dear
I hope you’ll see it’s for the best
And for our little boy the joy
Of knowing the man he calls daddy
Comes home at night
Doesn't fight
Staying away
Whilst we can only watch and pray
It’s just too much watching the news
Wondering when it’s your turn to lose
Can’t do it any more
The flag draped caskets
Returning
See the widows’ tears
Burning
Coursing down their pain lined faces
Just another guy ran out of aces
Bob You know I’m not a whore
But I met a man,
It wasn’t planned
It just happened
One of those things
He talks of a future
With wedding rings
He’s got a great job Bob
And little Jimmy loves him too
Hell what could I do?
I know you’ll be angry
But screw you! It was your choice
To go away fighting for paltry pay
Sorry, sorry, didn’t mean to get mad
Must be the guilt
I’m not the type to jilt
At the drop of a hat, stuff like that
Anyway I gotta go
Just thought I’d let you know
You’ll always be in my heart
Be lucky,
Lucy
He drops the letter to the wind
Watches it blow
Then pulls the trigger with his toe
Written by blocat
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