jenny_way
Poem Published
5th Jan 2025 3:53pm
5th Jan 2025 3:53pm
I’ve never thought…
I’ve never thought I’d be put in that place
Was laughing at first, but realized then
Even when I cried, I couldn’t believe
I wish this all has been a dim dream
I believed I was wrong
Like the problem is me
But now I know
That it all has been you
You’re the one who blamed others for your mistakes
And don’t you dare to do that again
Who knows what will be further, we’ll see
Splitting up or living the same
But stop , is it plus 1 now
Or minus , in my family ?
Was laughing at first, but realized then
Even when I cried, I couldn’t believe
I wish this all has been a dim dream
I believed I was wrong
Like the problem is me
But now I know
That it all has been you
You’re the one who blamed others for your mistakes
And don’t you dare to do that again
Who knows what will be further, we’ll see
Splitting up or living the same
But stop , is it plus 1 now
Or minus , in my family ?
#family
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scalesofascorpion
Poem Published
3rd Jan 2025 4:05pm
3rd Jan 2025 4:05pm
almost
would you please
be my friend
I’m so lonely
a year past thirty
and I think I’ve been alone
where it counts
most of my life
no matter how I’ve tried
to be worth anybody’s time
that’s fine
I’ll do it on my own
as much as I can
but a one man band
only has so many hands
and I thought that family
was supposed to understand
I’ve run out of miracle plans
my heart caves in like sinking sand
so no, I won’t come
worship your god on Sundays
learn how I need to
suffer...
be my friend
I’m so lonely
a year past thirty
and I think I’ve been alone
where it counts
most of my life
no matter how I’ve tried
to be worth anybody’s time
that’s fine
I’ll do it on my own
as much as I can
but a one man band
only has so many hands
and I thought that family
was supposed to understand
I’ve run out of miracle plans
my heart caves in like sinking sand
so no, I won’t come
worship your god on Sundays
learn how I need to
suffer...
#family
#loneliness
#love #suffering
#love #suffering
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wordsonthebrain
Poem Published
2nd Jan 2025 9:53pm
2nd Jan 2025 9:53pm
Mama, why?
Mama, why do you turn away?
It's like you never want to look me in the eyes
Until you are screaming,
Then all I see is a blaze of who you want me to be.
A bleeding creature, mother and child,
What curse have you turned upon me?
That which I have always been destined to stumble before,
Is that which still hurts most deeply.
It's like you never want to look me in the eyes
Until you are screaming,
Then all I see is a blaze of who you want me to be.
A bleeding creature, mother and child,
What curse have you turned upon me?
That which I have always been destined to stumble before,
Is that which still hurts most deeply.
#anxiety
#family
#LGBT
#mother
#relationships
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Indie
Miss Indie
Miss Indie
Poem Published
20th Dec 2024 1:09am
20th Dec 2024 1:09am
the real you won't be framed on a wall
I let a lifetime of lies
crash over me
and I would rather deny
the truth than see you
as you really are
It's embarrassing now
that I held you up so high
a pedestal you shouldn't
have been gifted with
in my childhood memories
that I haven't outgrown
Because I wanted to be like
the best parts of you
and pretend that everything else
wasn't toxic
But you're so toxic
and I'm left searching
for an antidote
only to come up empty
and self medicate instead
...
crash over me
and I would rather deny
the truth than see you
as you really are
It's embarrassing now
that I held you up so high
a pedestal you shouldn't
have been gifted with
in my childhood memories
that I haven't outgrown
Because I wanted to be like
the best parts of you
and pretend that everything else
wasn't toxic
But you're so toxic
and I'm left searching
for an antidote
only to come up empty
and self medicate instead
...
#family
#TruthOfLife
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Indie
Miss Indie
Miss Indie
Poem Published
19th Dec 2024 7:17am
19th Dec 2024 7:17am
spiders (hold onto me)
I want to cling to you
like you're my life line
only we've both fallen overboard
and it's anyone's guess
on who will drown the other first
You asked me what I wanted
for Christmas
and I don't know how to tell you
I want kindness gift wrapped
and secured with a bow
but there aren't any feel-good vibes
left in this frigid water between us
and no other gift will ever suffice
Love, love, love, love, love
it's just a four letter word
and I'm so dead inside
I can't imbue the word
with...
like you're my life line
only we've both fallen overboard
and it's anyone's guess
on who will drown the other first
You asked me what I wanted
for Christmas
and I don't know how to tell you
I want kindness gift wrapped
and secured with a bow
but there aren't any feel-good vibes
left in this frigid water between us
and no other gift will ever suffice
Love, love, love, love, love
it's just a four letter word
and I'm so dead inside
I can't imbue the word
with...
#family
#grief
#loneliness
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cjpoetry
Poem Published
16th Dec 2024 9:29am
16th Dec 2024 9:29am
The Boy The Man
I reunite with a glaze in this young boys eyes, blue and wet as if his father had died.
Would he ever know their spirits were always connected, praying for the day their tracks intersected.
On this night, oh so late, to hear your voice, I can always wait.
Fear and pain were fuel for this boy, living in silence, living in the void.
Whispers hum and brush his skin, wondering if they will ever meet again.
Dreams come as I sleep, nightmares present when I wake.
Humble even in trauma, I became a man, without a father.
...
Would he ever know their spirits were always connected, praying for the day their tracks intersected.
On this night, oh so late, to hear your voice, I can always wait.
Fear and pain were fuel for this boy, living in silence, living in the void.
Whispers hum and brush his skin, wondering if they will ever meet again.
Dreams come as I sleep, nightmares present when I wake.
Humble even in trauma, I became a man, without a father.
...
#family
#father
#son
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Indie
Miss Indie
Miss Indie
Poem Published
15th Dec 2024 11:25pm
15th Dec 2024 11:25pm
familial souvenirs for a past life
I want to shred your face
with my fingernails
I want you to hug me
and tell me you've always
loved me
and let all perceived sins
be forgiven
I want to forgive you
let the past float
into an ocean of new
where this blood
doesn't haunt us anymore
I want to take this pain
and shove it through your chest
and pretend like you feel
... something
I want you
to feel something
for me
that isn't blind animosity
and generational violence
I want there...
with my fingernails
I want you to hug me
and tell me you've always
loved me
and let all perceived sins
be forgiven
I want to forgive you
let the past float
into an ocean of new
where this blood
doesn't haunt us anymore
I want to take this pain
and shove it through your chest
and pretend like you feel
... something
I want you
to feel something
for me
that isn't blind animosity
and generational violence
I want there...
#anger
#betrayal
#family #heartbroken
#family #heartbroken
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Indie
Miss Indie
Miss Indie
Poem Published
14th Dec 2024 9:37am
14th Dec 2024 9:37am
if I'm the villain what does that make you?
Leave me with your lies
kiss the air with your one-sided stories
I won't unlove you though I wish I could
Close your eyes on this chapter
and pretend I never existed
until you need an easy villain
and you always need an easy villain
I don't know how
I've made it this far
thinking there was a shred
of good left in your bones
There's no bonds left
to hold onto
There's just you and me
and a space between
I hope you're happy
in that righteous place
I hope the dotted line...
kiss the air with your one-sided stories
I won't unlove you though I wish I could
Close your eyes on this chapter
and pretend I never existed
until you need an easy villain
and you always need an easy villain
I don't know how
I've made it this far
thinking there was a shred
of good left in your bones
There's no bonds left
to hold onto
There's just you and me
and a space between
I hope you're happy
in that righteous place
I hope the dotted line...
#betrayal
#family
186 reads
2 Comments
Indie
Miss Indie
Miss Indie
Poem Published
14th Dec 2024 8:16am
14th Dec 2024 8:16am
the only solution to the mess you made is to blow everything up
1. This is our first Christmas without you
I keep thinking it's strange
I don't have to buy you snacks
this year
because what else do you buy
the man that doesn't need anything?
2. There's a division so wide
we'll never conquer it
and so far I'm the only one
thinking about this rift you cultivated
and trying to figure out
why it was easier for you
to put knives in your children's hands
and have them fight each other
for your love
rather than have enough love to give
3. I always thought my...
I keep thinking it's strange
I don't have to buy you snacks
this year
because what else do you buy
the man that doesn't need anything?
2. There's a division so wide
we'll never conquer it
and so far I'm the only one
thinking about this rift you cultivated
and trying to figure out
why it was easier for you
to put knives in your children's hands
and have them fight each other
for your love
rather than have enough love to give
3. I always thought my...
#betrayal
#family
#heartbroken
137 reads
5 Comments
buckaduck
Poem Published
13th Dec 2024 6:21pm
13th Dec 2024 6:21pm
Prize Bird
Well, good morning, Tweety Bird,
Such a pleasant surprise,
With your mother's sharp wit,
And, lo, myself in those eyes.
How I've loved your sweet song,
Both the coos and the cries,
For the year it has been,
As the time swiftly flies.
In the contest I've invented,
Among fathers worldwide,
I've won loveliest daughter,
But you are my prize.
Such a pleasant surprise,
With your mother's sharp wit,
And, lo, myself in those eyes.
How I've loved your sweet song,
Both the coos and the cries,
For the year it has been,
As the time swiftly flies.
In the contest I've invented,
Among fathers worldwide,
I've won loveliest daughter,
But you are my prize.
#birthday
#daughter
#family
#fatherhood
#love
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Indie
Miss Indie
Miss Indie
Poem Published
3rd Dec 2024 10:47am
3rd Dec 2024 10:47am
don't twist the knife
I won't forgive you for this
save the guilt trips
for your own personal relationships
the only thing we've ever shared
is DNA and 15 years
living under the same roof
You don't know me
and I don't know you
but I know what kind of man you are
and it's not one I'll be keeping around
for potential good times
When the dust settles on this
sliver of our lives
I don't expect to see you again
I don't know why you never
really loved me
with the same heartache
I loved you with
and...
save the guilt trips
for your own personal relationships
the only thing we've ever shared
is DNA and 15 years
living under the same roof
You don't know me
and I don't know you
but I know what kind of man you are
and it's not one I'll be keeping around
for potential good times
When the dust settles on this
sliver of our lives
I don't expect to see you again
I don't know why you never
really loved me
with the same heartache
I loved you with
and...
#betrayal
#bullying
#family
167 reads
2 Comments
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