Nizana
Lauryn
Lauryn
Poem Published
20th Mar 2022 00:30am
20th Mar 2022 00:30am
Death of a Friend - Notes between mother and daughter (7)
Dear Daughter,
As I sat in the quiet before Sarah's memorial service, my mind flooded with memories of your infancy. I remembered how frantically you suckled for life at my breasts. As I held your soft warmth, I dreamed of your future.
I couldn’t imagine the pain of Sarah’s parents after investing years in planning for a future that would never be. To lost a child on the verge of womanhood must have only added to their pain.
Forgive my thoughts but I’m haunted by these questions. Was Sarah loved fully during her short life? Did she experience...
As I sat in the quiet before Sarah's memorial service, my mind flooded with memories of your infancy. I remembered how frantically you suckled for life at my breasts. As I held your soft warmth, I dreamed of your future.
I couldn’t imagine the pain of Sarah’s parents after investing years in planning for a future that would never be. To lost a child on the verge of womanhood must have only added to their pain.
Forgive my thoughts but I’m haunted by these questions. Was Sarah loved fully during her short life? Did she experience...
#motherhood
#death
#bisexual #daughter
#bisexual #daughter
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KittyFromHell
Poem Published
26th Jan 2022 3:29am
26th Jan 2022 3:29am
Through Your Eyes
I imagine the endless questions
that have no satisfactory answer
when days turn into weeks
that you've not seen my face.
I see the look of hurt on your face,
the crestfallen expression
that takes over your pretty face
as excitement fades to disappointment
when I am late to show
or never show at all.
I imagine the chemicals in your brain
wiring themselves into a rollercoaster
of hopes up and fulfillment,
descending into a chasm of emptiness
and despair become all too familiar,
when the pattern I've...
that have no satisfactory answer
when days turn into weeks
that you've not seen my face.
I see the look of hurt on your face,
the crestfallen expression
that takes over your pretty face
as excitement fades to disappointment
when I am late to show
or never show at all.
I imagine the chemicals in your brain
wiring themselves into a rollercoaster
of hopes up and fulfillment,
descending into a chasm of emptiness
and despair become all too familiar,
when the pattern I've...
#love
#motherhood
#faith
#addiction
#daughter
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Gold_End_Sun
Poem Published
11th Oct 2021 9:32pm
11th Oct 2021 9:32pm
His sun
I am apart of the earth.
It seeks my attention.
Every
Time
I
Step
Outside.
It makes me want to cry
because
the only other
living thing that wants me
and loves me
that much is my father.
What did I do to deserve such a person?
...
It seeks my attention.
Every
Time
I
Step
Outside.
It makes me want to cry
because
the only other
living thing that wants me
and loves me
that much is my father.
What did I do to deserve such a person?
...
#love
#father
#parent #daughter
#parent #daughter
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msbeav
Brenda
Brenda
Poem Published
23rd Aug 2021 11:03pm
23rd Aug 2021 11:03pm
Hey
Hey ... It's me.
I just wanted to say that I miss you. I got to thinking yesterday and came across some pictures of us. I wanted to call but obviously I couldn't so I'm writing this letter instead.
I'm still full of questions and I'm not really sure if I'll have enough time to ask them.
But, umm ... Do you ever wonder about me, the way I wonder about you?
I wonder if you're all right cuz the last time we spoke you didn't seem all right.
But that's not my place anymore so I can't ask.
Do you ever think about what happened and wonder where we would...
I just wanted to say that I miss you. I got to thinking yesterday and came across some pictures of us. I wanted to call but obviously I couldn't so I'm writing this letter instead.
I'm still full of questions and I'm not really sure if I'll have enough time to ask them.
But, umm ... Do you ever wonder about me, the way I wonder about you?
I wonder if you're all right cuz the last time we spoke you didn't seem all right.
But that's not my place anymore so I can't ask.
Do you ever think about what happened and wonder where we would...
#rejection
#mother
#heartbroken
#conflict
#daughter
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Breedlove
Poem Published
7th May 2021 11:14pm
7th May 2021 11:14pm
Girl in the Popsicle Dress
She walked into school by herself today and ran into my arms when I returned. We had a special day together. Her mammy out for the day with her dad. Silly me I forgot the pinic. Well it made a few laughs and chats with the lads (Rainbow Cat, Kitty, Flowery and all the slippers too). Blanket spread in front of the martello tower on Red Island. Watching a family on their kayaks as we ate, snuggled and laughed.
We missed the que for icecream. She pointed to all the candy fairy doors. Strawberry in a cup. Walked slowing on the pier holding her hand tightly. Watching the...
We missed the que for icecream. She pointed to all the candy fairy doors. Strawberry in a cup. Walked slowing on the pier holding her hand tightly. Watching the...
#childhood
#daughter
#fatherhood
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OG-Poetry
Poem Published
12th Apr 2021 7:01pm
12th Apr 2021 7:01pm
child support
heritage from a land,
of “stand tall like a man”,
your legacy and you
a sure bet,
a mini you to love,
identity a glove,
offspring is a man’s
greatest asset,
spouting the pride,
but when needed to guide,
your self-centered nature
sows regrets,
no support,
none in the mail,
always a mad rail
and tall tell to sell,
“fuck support”
is what you say,
“you go to hell”
“there ain’t no way”,
“I’ll stay in a 6 by 8
before I...
of “stand tall like a man”,
your legacy and you
a sure bet,
a mini you to love,
identity a glove,
offspring is a man’s
greatest asset,
spouting the pride,
but when needed to guide,
your self-centered nature
sows regrets,
no support,
none in the mail,
always a mad rail
and tall tell to sell,
“fuck support”
is what you say,
“you go to hell”
“there ain’t no way”,
“I’ll stay in a 6 by 8
before I...
#support
#respect
#daughter
#son
#responsibility
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dkzksaxxas_DanielX
Poem Published
24th Dec 2020 6:26am
24th Dec 2020 6:26am
Xmaz Note To An Ever-Lost Child
I didn't have much Xmaz in me for longtime even
before you died. (Elizabeth took care of that back'round Xmaz'02).
My dear sweet little girl. Dead 29 months now.
Still so far beyond any reasonable comprehension, Whatever that is.
I can barely look at any photos of you. I break down.
Why look at fckn photos. I see you in my blessed, broke'down, heartbroken mind,
every day. Sometimes all day long.
You're no longer being in this world of ours is bloody torture.
In a way, I'm glad you don't have to be here for this 2020 sadist...
before you died. (Elizabeth took care of that back'round Xmaz'02).
My dear sweet little girl. Dead 29 months now.
Still so far beyond any reasonable comprehension, Whatever that is.
I can barely look at any photos of you. I break down.
Why look at fckn photos. I see you in my blessed, broke'down, heartbroken mind,
every day. Sometimes all day long.
You're no longer being in this world of ours is bloody torture.
In a way, I'm glad you don't have to be here for this 2020 sadist...
#grief
#death
#Christmas
#IMissYou
#daughter
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Oslynray
Rosalyn
Rosalyn
Poem Published
23rd Dec 2020 8:49am
23rd Dec 2020 8:49am
The First Heartbreak 3: Contempt
To be Defiant
Well... since my hate won’t go away,
I can just use it against you,
Against the lies I’ve told myself,
For a long time I’d been fooled...
Fooled into thinking it was me,
And carrying that on all through life,
A bag so so heavy...
The ugly belief that I was nothing,
All because my Daddy couldn’t love me.
So, for you I defiantly compose my hate,
On a mission never to fail myself again,
To lift my head and be great,
To learn from all my mistakes...
& To live and breathe in the present day. ...
Well... since my hate won’t go away,
I can just use it against you,
Against the lies I’ve told myself,
For a long time I’d been fooled...
Fooled into thinking it was me,
And carrying that on all through life,
A bag so so heavy...
The ugly belief that I was nothing,
All because my Daddy couldn’t love me.
So, for you I defiantly compose my hate,
On a mission never to fail myself again,
To lift my head and be great,
To learn from all my mistakes...
& To live and breathe in the present day. ...
#anger
#hate
#father #daughter
#father #daughter
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Oslynray
Rosalyn
Rosalyn
Poem Published
22nd Dec 2020 6:31pm
22nd Dec 2020 6:31pm
The First Heartbreak 2: The Blame
The Blame (First heartbreak 2)
As time moves on,
I realize that you are to blame,
It’s your fault for this state I’m in,
Your fault for my pain...
And for my shame,
The silent shame that comes when I look in the mirror,
The shame of a bastard child,
Disowned by her father.
With sad eyes that look like yours,
I cry and mourn what we never had,
I’ve spent my life in awe and envy of those who actually have a dad.
The ones who were loved and wired right,
I imagine life to be easy for them, not such a fight.
But in my...
As time moves on,
I realize that you are to blame,
It’s your fault for this state I’m in,
Your fault for my pain...
And for my shame,
The silent shame that comes when I look in the mirror,
The shame of a bastard child,
Disowned by her father.
With sad eyes that look like yours,
I cry and mourn what we never had,
I’ve spent my life in awe and envy of those who actually have a dad.
The ones who were loved and wired right,
I imagine life to be easy for them, not such a fight.
But in my...
#father
#relationships
#family
#daughter
#healing
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dkzksaxxas_DanielX
Poem Published
8th Dec 2020 00:25am
8th Dec 2020 00:25am
* Like A Book I (w)Rote * - Apologia & Not.
It" was never intended to be a fckng Hallmark Card.
It wasn't even about Leah....she woulda laughed at that sloppy sentimentality
of these mass-produced, pre-packaged, 'bereavement products', which
which people snap up on such occasions , which try to generically idealize
the memories of the deceased left to us morons on earth.
Apologies to any of those so offended.
Familial revue of The Book was one of quite amazing Silence. Naught was offered a word....over 2 years now
...
It wasn't even about Leah....she woulda laughed at that sloppy sentimentality
of these mass-produced, pre-packaged, 'bereavement products', which
which people snap up on such occasions , which try to generically idealize
the memories of the deceased left to us morons on earth.
Apologies to any of those so offended.
Familial revue of The Book was one of quite amazing Silence. Naught was offered a word....over 2 years now
...
#grief
#death
#books
#IMissYou
#daughter
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dkzksaxxas_DanielX
Poem Published
5th Dec 2020 00:56am
5th Dec 2020 00:56am
Haiku Hysteria, Senyru Sensations, A Bunch of Old Dreams
occurring on the
morning tide, wish my Leah
could have been with me
I missed I missed so
much love i missed sharing more
love than I can say
then when the tears fall,
the grass is not bothered, trump-
et vines blare un'shamed.
there's little to stop
a rage of river, little
to stop old man's age.
come from a mist in
the morn'time. come from sea, fog
taste hints of dune'grass.
You'd think there's nothing
to loose here, doggie will
shit on lovely...
morning tide, wish my Leah
could have been with me
I missed I missed so
much love i missed sharing more
love than I can say
then when the tears fall,
the grass is not bothered, trump-
et vines blare un'shamed.
there's little to stop
a rage of river, little
to stop old man's age.
come from a mist in
the morn'time. come from sea, fog
taste hints of dune'grass.
You'd think there's nothing
to loose here, doggie will
shit on lovely...
#love
#girlfriend
#sea
#beach
#daughter
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dkzksaxxas_DanielX
Poem Published
28th Nov 2020 2:21am
28th Nov 2020 2:21am
Some Where Over The Verrazzano Narrows Bridge (from Brooklyn side)
/b] PHOTO: Daniel Kozak Sr. USMM, c1948 [/b]
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
Ain't it some
thing how
so many
things
have gotten
far far far
passed (past)
...
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
Ain't it some
thing how
so many
things
have gotten
far far far
passed (past)
...
#grief
#heartbroken
#death
#aging
#daughter
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DU Poetry : Long Poems for and About Daughters
