Suicide

Welcome friend its been a while since I have seen your face. Your return is oddly calming, somehow I find myself enjoying your sweet embrace. I had forgotten the peace that consumes me when I accept this fate. Dancing on the edge of suicide can really shine some light...things you once thought, feelings you once felt all come rushing back leaving tear soaked memories in their wake. I really want to end it, things would be better for everyone, I can't bring myself to do it...why can I never make this jump. Once again I turn away, streaks of makeup running down my face...time to be the coward and walk my path of shame.