Soul Searching

I shook my soul from its secret place to have a look
And held it up to the mirror of the mind's eye
As luminous as a star against night sky
My quivering body lay in vast empty space
A spark of pulsating passion upon my tear stained face
I plunged its darkest depths and came to see
Why the awful key to my infinity
Conspires to deprive me
Of joy
Of grace
To know the feeling of beautiful bliss
To wonder if I am blind
To the stirrings of the soul
I looked deeper than I ever have
To find the core
I discovered a new way to bleed,drops of blood seeping from my soul
and forming a puddle, it’strange I’m comforted by the warmth as I lay here on cold ground
With the neurotic thought that I finally know my soul
trying to determine if this is a fantasy or have I lost grip on my sanity
or could this in fact be reality and I’m dying here