if only I could take it

Can not close my eye
So many reasons why
Can't sleep at night
Not even in the light
Pain has taken me
No hope no possibility
The pills don't fix it anymore
Another trip to the drug store
My new Dr will write the scripts
Now More tests and therapy trips
The same story has been told
It will be like this till I am old
My life is a bad joke
Pass the blunt i need a toke
Need some TLC from THC
Marinol might just help me
Some times I want to die
I spend hours just trying not to cry
Other days all I do is sleep
Anything wakes me any peep
Other days all I do
Is lay sweating in bed thinking is this true
I taste the old dry powder on its end
I know it would be my children and not a friend
So I study the schedule of the people in my life
Planning it carefully so it will hurt my Ex wife
A note in red left for her in our old bed
A poem I wrote about the day we were wed
The times she lied and hurt me so
This I need for her to know
I will write a will and post it to
I will email out to the world and CC it to you
A compilation of every lie she ever told me
If only I could be here one last moment to see
The look upon her face when she walks in
I hope my last expression is a big fat grin