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COMPENSATION ENOUGH (original - true - version)
it seems
to me
the waves
in this gulf
have intimately
touched
sweetly caressed
and sensuously
loved
my body
mind and being
my flesh
my heart
spirit and soul
more passionately
at times
than any
human lover
i have ever
had or known
ever has
so why
do i still feel
such a strong
need
for my fill
of that other
at times
as well
after so many
years
here alone
at play
by myself
with this
living sea
when
the sensuous
touch
of warmth
wet and wind
seems
to almost satisfy
my human skin
enough
as the sun s
loving touch
cooks me
so slowly
by degrees
sautéing me
in my senses
until i fully
surrender
all my
inner defenses
allowing myself
to be
consumed
so completely by
the elegant
intimacy
of such days
as these
as this
though still
at times
like now
it somehow seems
to me
to not quite
nearly be
compensation enough
for this other
lonesome lack
of my
too often
neglected need
to simply
be touched
and held
to feel
be felt
and filled
oh so deeply
again
with that other
vital warmth
to let go
of all my
outer
and all my
inner defenses
so i can
surrender
more fully
allowing myself
to be consumed
more completely
by that other
natural form
and expression
of human
love
shared through
raw
hot intimacy
with some other
kindred man
somewhere
out here
out there
in this
great big world
who s still
similarly
experiencing
this same
prolonged
deep longing
inner and outer
lack
of true natural basic
essential
physical touch and spark
of mutually felt and shared
prolonged healing
human heart
and love
in our lives
instead
to come and replace
our individual
presently endured
far too long prolonged
sad empty hollow
current ongoing state
of our seemingly chronic
never ending
human intimacy deficiency syndrome
leaving us perpetually
trying our best
to live and thrive
but only partially succeeding
for our hearts
are running on empty
for months
and years
and years at a time
which leaves me
here now
to only further wonder
however much longer
will or must
i and we
whoever he is
or might possibly
be
somewhere
out there
in this vast
wide world
of now over
seven billion other
living human souls
in which others
like me
living out
our perpetually lonesome lives
mostly by ourselves
without any lasting
more meaningfully
nurturing family friends
or healthier more personal
unconditionally loving accepting
intimate relationships
nor significant others
to share our lives journeys with
must continue to suffer
and silently endure
this disconnected
lonely absence
of this most vitally important
basic human need
in our lives
all by ourselves
alone
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