depending on words that are not mine

words are not necessary to feel strange
but they can help to intensify this state
just by accident it seems that i do change
into someone that feels somehow betrayed

by that selfhood or selfship framed by words
without an eye on unsayable commands
that force each conscious thought that could occur
to make me feel stranger than a random trend

that no one can see by looking back at all
since really everything gets blurred away
a memory's not what was saved from the fall
but a lie that pretends there's things that stay