Happiness and Melancholy (written for Artkytech's Comp)

It's so tedious waiting here
for something to change my life
time slipping through fingers
that tremble at the thought of wasted years
a futile whispering of regrets
and passions stifled by reservation

If I could change anything
it would be all the years I have wasted
trapped within my own fear
refusing to live my life with abandon
and always desiring more
than I had the confidence to take

I feel old beyond my years
wasting away in a parched nightmare
solemn to the point of aching
no happiness warming my cold days
I wonder what it would be like
to truly let go, and breathe

But then, if my eyes do not deceive
from within the grey clouds
surrounding me at all times
I see a glimpse of light
it's warmth kissing pale cheeks
Casting me into a bright awareness

I had forgotten such things
the beauty of a new beginning
capturing me in awe and disbelief
a potential end to my sufferings
hope filling me up so recklessly
fragile and bitter-sweet

Gently take my cautious hand
and lead me into your arms
make me complete within this new found dream
showing me that this isn't all there is
teaching me to breathe in happiness
and how to exhale melancholy