Powerful Words

With your words you captivated, mesmerized  a vulnerable souls dark heart  
Words, they are a powerful thing, seems anyone will believe what they read, be it...  
I love you, I miss you blah, blah, blah  ect.. and so on  
Now I'm sitting here feeling a fool for thinking your words were written just for me... I think not  
A vast audience you crave, maybe behind your pen is the only place you find solace and feel you get respect  
Never again will I believe the lies of written words ,to me it's all just fiction  
But you felt no conviction in writing what you did, it came easy  
just like taking a pill to rid yourself of a headache  
I can't decipher truth from reality right now  
                                                      
Playing it over in my head again and again... it’s like a broken record  
Kicking...  
Screaming...  
Punching...  
Yelling...  
I'm spiraling downward descending into madness I can't take much more of your torment in my head it's toture my soul in tourmoil  
Desperation fuels my fire within, maybe this handful of pills I just took will help or at least temporarily help forget the cruelty of your pen