DopesickLovesick

Things between us aren’t the
Same, you know?
Had such explosive chemistry
Addicted to you
  Instantly
While sacrificing, everything.
But now I'm stuck missing
How things were back
In the beginning.
Do you think we’ll ever
Have that back--
  Again?
Numbing love and painless
Injections,
Sleepless nights with
Confetti filled skies
And shots,
That still got me high.
Those intensely euphoric days
Were undeniably,
The best of my life.
Falling for you,
Amazed by how
Your crystals would shine.
You were.. perfect.
Beautiful anywhere, in
Every bag and in any light.
How can the thing killing me
Make me feel so,
         Alive?