Double edged

I wish we could just disappear together
And be happy forever
But reality doesn't like me
My stomach in knots and twisted
My mind is thoughts of when I kissed your forehead
My very soul loves you as much as possible
Being far from you is such the opposite
I could never stray away
Because no matter what distance or anything, my heart is with you
Intertwined to you
and held by the world and life itself
Sometimes I feel like im left out and don't understand
Sometimes i feel lost
I try not to be a bad person
No ones perfect when the world is dying
No ones happy when everyone is lying
Just your hand in mine until the end of time
Even if we have to visualize it
I'm there with you
I care too much for you
Feels like a part of me is missing right now
As if the sun was out but always hidden by clouds
Time is a clock sitting in a chair watching me countdown
When I close my eyes i see your smile
Your lips touching me
Always I think to myself is she thinking the same thing?..